To Be Honest

by Nelle Starling

you deserve a shout it from the rooftops kind of love. a slow kind of love. a dance in the middle of the street under the stars kind of love, an i will catch you if you fall kind of love. a shoulder to cry on kind of love. a flowers just because kind of love. an if you hurt, i hurt, kind of love. a dream come true kind of love. an i’m sorry i was wrong kind of love. anything less is not worth your time. anything less does not deserve to hold your heart.

love yourself when things are hard, when you make mistakes, when you give up before trying, when you don’t workout for the second day in a row, when you lay in bed all day, when all you feel is sadness, when a promise is hard to keep, when you don’t know what to say, when you say too much, when you fail, when you don’t want to. love yourself even when you don’t feel like it

maybe in another lifetime i will find you again and it will be different.

the truth is, i don’t talk about it anymore, but that doesn’t mean it stopped hurting.

that’s the thing about nostalgia, it takes you back to a time in your life that you walked away from, but it reminds you of all the reasons you wanted to stay.

i will keep finding ways to look on the bright side until i learn how to love every part of myself down to the shadows at my feet. i'm sorry for all of the mean things i said to me

i wish i could stop missing all of the past versions of people i used to love.

when i close my eyes, i smile because i know that i’ll still see you again. some days are harder than others and i’ve been living with this ache buried in my chest since you left, but how different would life be if i didn’t have you to miss? without you i can barely breathe, but knowing you is the reason i can.

something to remember: one day you will have everything you prayed for.

don't give yourself away to people who don't know how to care for you.