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“What’s wrong, baby?” she mocks me with a pout. “Scared someone my size is going to hurt you?” She’s on me again the next second, hitting me in the stomach and then the eyebrow. “Shit,” I hiss when I finally manage to counter her blows. “I must admit,” she says playfully, bouncing on her feet. “It gets me wet to punch you. I think you deserve it.”
“It makes me hard when you pant, Billie.”
“I thought you liked it when I hurt you,”
When did I start falling so badly I wanted to punch myself for hurting her? Hell, I’m going to sell my body for her to get out of here. It’s bad how much I’m into her. “I fucking love it,” she grins. Her big brown eyes are hooded. They’re so huge it’s the only thing on her body that makes her look innocent. “Hurt me more.”
“You want me to make you hurt, baby?” I rub her pussy roughly through her leggings, and she lets out a quiet moan. “You want me to make you my little slut in this ring? Do whatever I want?”
Caden: I want half the cash now. Rest after the night. Baker: Come pick it up at my house like a good boy.
back?” This. This is why I’m doing it—the simplicity of her happiness. It’ll all be worth it when she leaves this shit town and blossoms into the woman I know she can become.
“Caden!” she shrieks. “Alright, I think I’ve got all my stuff,” I say calmly. “Put me down. I hate being carried.” “Little bee, I’m just grabbing all my possessions and going to my car. What are you talking about?” “I’m not your possession, Caden. Put me down,” she growls. “I’m loving the damsel-in-distress look on you,”
“You’re crazy.” “I am so fucking crazy when it comes to you, baby,” I mutter. “Obsessive jealousy, keep-you-to-myself-forever crazy. You’ve seen nothing till now. But you just wait.”
“Owned by Caden King…” All the hope leaves her body as her head hits the chair and she closes her eyes tightly. “Why?” she rasps. “Keep-you-to-myself-forever kind of crazy, little bee,”
“Why do I love it so much when you’re mad at me and can’t do shit about it?” “Because you’re fucked in the head!” she shrieks. I nod. “I agree. I was a little crazy before I fell for you. Now I’m completely deranged. I’m a maniac for you, Billie.”
I could drown in her all day. I want to spend the rest of my life on my knees in front of her, making her crazy from orgasms and forcing her to love me despite everything working against us.
I just want to stay here forever. I just want her to understand how much she means to me. That if I force my love on her, it’s only because that’s all I have in me. Love for her. Passion for her body. Fascination for her mind. Lust for her soul.
“No one listens when I tell them not to fucking get close to you. What else do you expect me to do? They should have spread the word by now.” “No one can spread the word because you’re always killing them. Dead men can’t talk and warn others that Caden King has lost all sanity. You make no fucking sense!”
If Caden is the devil ready to destroy me, and I’m dying for him to devastate me, what does that mean? If he’s crazy, what am I? Like him? Worse?
“What is that?” I ask, my eyes stuck on the bee tattooed on his chest, right where his heart is. He must have had it done recently because he didn’t have it the last time we had sex completely naked.
“You said it earlier, baby. I’m fucking crazy. A maniac. Unhinged. I found what I need. And what I need is you, little bee.” “You…got tattooed…for me?” “So did you,” he smirks. “Aren’t we the cutest couple?” Letting go of my fingers, he grabs my head and kisses me deeply. When he takes a step back, he says. “I’ll cancel the fight, baby. Don’t worry about it.” This man…he will be the end of me.
“You’re the one who put her in this situation, Cade. You’re the one who assaulted her and filmed it. Who blackmailed her into working for us. Just because your dick convinced your dead heart that it cares, doesn’t change anything for our crew. That’s your problem, not the Kings’. You don’t want her to do it? I don’t give a shit. I can blackmail her. I can make the bitch do anything I fucking want.”
I’m so fucking addicted, my heart feels heavy every time I drop her off at her house. Every time she goes to work, or I go to college. I smell her on my sheets and hoodies, and I bathe in the raspberries and mint.
“Don’t worry,” she says as she runs her arm against my abs, to my pecs, and against my throat. “We just like making love as a three. Vincent and I are very gentle.” And they are. Billie is on my mind the whole time Vincent and I double penetrate his wife. It’s slow and so loving I want to puke pink and purple hearts on them.
“Dickie, am I fighting Killer Clover?” “In two months, kiddo. Taylor already knows, and he’s coming to see you.”
“I hate you!” I shout into the phone. “You fucking bastard. I hope you’re having the time of your life. I…how could I have been so stupid! How…I hate you, Caden. I hate you so much for sending me on this job tonight. You could have had the balls to at least ask me yourself, you coward. I hope Sawyer kills me because I can’t stand a life knowing I fell for your stupid shit.”
“Please, she’s not actually asking for him, is she?” I don’t have to look behind Sawyer because Jade comes right next to him, proudly showing the hickeys that go from her ear to her chin. I shake my head, refusing to see what’s right in front of me.
If only she knew how much Caden is already under my skin. How he slithered his way through my veins and poisoned my heart.
Something catches my eye, though. On the floor, not far from me, are the bags that were in my car. The exact bags the Wolves put in there and were stolen. “It was you,” I whisper past my swollen lips. “You set me up…” They stole the bags, so I would have to come here. So they could attack me. And I fell for it like the fucking idiot I am.
“I’m not going to hurt you, Billie,” he finally says reassuringly. “I don’t like you, but I also don’t think you deserve this. What, because Cade loves you? That’s none of our business.”
“They lied.” At my silence, he adds, “When they said he doesn’t care about you.” I shake my head, tears burning my eyes and falling down my broken face. “What they said doesn’t matter. He didn’t come when I called for help. He wasn’t there. That means everything.”
“Thank you, Ethan. For getting me out of there. I owe you.” Owing someone in our world means everything, and when Ethan nods, I know it’s because he will get his favor back one day.
I’m fucking limping as I walk into my house, the pain tearing me apart. The longest night of my life, and yet, I would do it all over again for Billie.
I take the hits because I somehow feel like I deserve them. I didn’t hurt Billie last night, but I’m the one who put her in this situation, after all. All the bad things that happened to her happened because of me. It’s nothing to take a beating compared to everything she took for me.
I don’t know what it is exactly—the look in her eyes or her cold tone—but I fall to my knees in front of her. The toll of yesterday and seeing her like this is too much for me. I can already feel I’m losing myself without her. “Little bee, I beg you don’t do this to me. Don’t give up. I’m going to fix this.” She shakes her head, determined. “I love you,” I say, staring up at her. “I know this has been hard. I know everything is against us, but I’m in love with you, Billie. You can’t take this away from me. You can leave me, but you can’t take away the love I have for you. That’s never going to
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“Breaking up with me won’t change the fact that our love is forever. You can’t end a love as strong as ours, Billie.” “Please…leave.” “She said leave.” I feel Xi grabbing the back of my shirt and hauling me up. He shoves me away from her and toward the door. “I’ll wait,” I tell her as I pierce my eyes into hers. “I’ll wait until you’re ready to love me again.”
“Sawyer beat her and wanted to rape her. He was making a point to show her you weren’t there when she needed you the most. They told her you were with someone else. Jade even had the necklace of hickeys to prove it. Obviously, Sawyer must have been the one to give it to her. Jade stopped Sawyer from raping her. She wanted her own revenge. Beat her up instead. Carved the Kings’ crown into her neck because Billie had given her a pathway for tears.”
You were nowhere to be found. So, tell me. Where were you while we were trying to save your girl from Sawyer?” I can’t reply, frozen by the reality of everything. I let men and women rape me last night to give Billie the chance to escape this hell hole. And even that wasn’t enough.
“How long will you keep coming to my gym?” “Until she feels safe going out on her own,” Xi snaps back. “I can pick her up from your house and drive her back after training.” My stepbrother crosses his arms and juts his chin at Dickie. “The fight is in two days. You lasted almost two months, you can last another forty-eight hours.”
He’s cursed me to love him forever, to a broken heart and an aching need to be near him. He’s put his mark on me, more than literally.
“No matter how mad they are at her, the brothers love the fuck out of her.” And by the brothers, he means the stepbrothers, Ethan and Elliot. “And they’re not letting anyone near her. I’m pretty sure they’re planning their own type of punishment for her.”
Caden: 1:15 to 1:33. Say Anything.
Don't say a word, know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away,
Iknow you wanna stay If you just give me a sign Say anything, say anything
“Who’s the best?” “I’m the best,” I smile. “I said, who’s the best?” he repeats. “I’m the best!” I say a little louder. “I can’t hear you!” He starts shaking my shoulders from side to side, and I giggle. “I’m the fucking best!” I shout. “That’s my girl. I’ll see you out there with your guard up or your fist in her face.” He gives me a huge papa bear hug, and I feel the emotions ready to wreck me. “No matter what happens out there,” he says, my head buried in his chest, “I want you to know I’m so proud of you. You’re the daughter I wish I still had, Billie.”
“I love you, Bil’s. I know you know…but I fucking love you. Even if I never have a chance with you again, I’ll always be there for you. No matter what.” “How could you fall in love with me?” I laugh as I shake my head. “I’m not right for you. You love the Stoneview girls. The preppy bitches who will wreck your back with their manicured nails.” “Mm,” he nods as he bites his lower lip. “Those fucking Stoneview uniforms. They kill me, you know?” “Aren’t you too old to love girls in uniform?” “Come on, I’m not a creep. Silver Falls Uni still has a uniform. And they’re very legal girls.” “Okay, I’m
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“He fucking loves you, that’s why. Everyone has only ever met unhinged Caden when he had no reason to be. The scary guy who destroys everything in his way just because he feels like it. Suddenly he has a reason to live. And it’s all because of you.”
“But now he’s deranged because everything he does is for you. You’ve given reason to his insanity. Do you even understand what that means?” "It doesn’t mean shit,” I whisper more to myself than him. “It means you control him. It means you’ve got his heart in your clutches, and there isn’t shit he can do about it.”
“Rich Stoneview women paid him for sex. That started before he met you. He was so desperate to get out of here that he did it.”
“You were losing yourself after your defeat. He wanted to get you back into the competition. He convinced the girl who beat you to give you her spot, but she asked for a lot of money. Much more than he could afford.”
“Fucked up people in Stoneview pay men and women to participate in their orgies. They offered him the money in exchange for a night. That’s where he was. He always had the option to do this job but never took it for himself despite his need to leave the North Shore. He did it for you, though. Didn’t hesitate one second.”
“He didn’t want you to know because he knew you couldn’t take the guilt. But fuck, I’m done seeing him hurt. I know you’re hurting too. He came back from that night only to find the woman he had sacrificed everything for had been attacked by his own crew. Only for you to shatter his heart when he wanted to make it right. He’s broken, Billie. He’s crushed, and nothing matters to him anymore.”
“Do you know where Sawyer is?” I shake my head, more tears running down my face. “He’s in my basement. That’s where Caden’s been keeping him for two months. He tortures him whenever he feels like it, just to avenge you.”
You’re going to fight, and you’re going to win. He lost everything for you. So don’t you fucking give up now.” “I never wanted him to do this for me,” I cry. “He…he’s crazy. I would have never agreed.” “Of course, he’s crazy. It’s Caden we’re talking about. He’s fucking insane. So get out there, and show him you were worth it. Then you guys can make up.”
“You owe me, Billie,” he says calmly. “I’m using my favor, and I want you to go talk to Caden after the fight. I want you to give him another chance.”
“Don’t lose your focus!” I shout. “End her, little bee. Fucking. End. Her.” A small smile pulls at her lips, her eyes not leaving mine as her arm pulls back. We lose eye contact as she looks at her target for a split second. Her punch is swift, confident, unstoppable.
