10 Things That Never Happened (Material World #1)

by Alexis Hall

more sparkly balls than a season of RuPaul’s Drag Race

And the thing about being in a holding pattern is you eventually run out of fuel and crash.

I'm so close

Knowing when you’re beat isn’t a bad thing. Because now and again, you just are. And trying to hold onto stuff you’ve not got any more helps nobody.

I’m still getting nothing from Jonathan, which is the worst sort of rejection because it’s like he can’t even be bothered to tell me to fuck off.

freakin' Brad

It’s just nice, y’know, to be held like someone’s afraid you might disappear on them.

He’s not got a gym body, but I’ve never been particularly into that. Give me something lived in, that’s real to touch, and imperfect in the best possible way.

It’s kind of fucked, how much bad you have to fight through to feel something good.

I’m aware,” he says slowly, “that this is absurd because I only saw you this morning. But I miss you.

It’s not just God. I don’t think I believe in much of anything, really.