I can’t compare what happened between us with what happened with Johnny. I loved Ethan. I was completely in love with Ethan. We had a life together. I thought we had a future together. I was devastated when it ended. Johnny was a distraction from all that. He was handsome and charming and entertaining, but now I’ve had time to get some perspective I’ve realized we never had any proper conversations, never revealed our true selves. It was just banter and flirting and rosé and sex. And it was fun while it lasted.
