When I say I love you to my future partner, it will mean I honor him with ceaseless truth. I continue to struggle enjoying sex and being intimate without the chemicals. I’m working to heal. I continue to acknowledge then shed any internalized homophobia that was the impetus for my addiction. I cherish my gayness more and more every day! I don’t fear HIV nor harbor any stigma. I go to therapy. I show up. I express gratitude. I don’t regret. I plan. I dream. I pursue. I persist.
