she has never pondered the line that runs between death and death at one’s own hands.
No but she is about to, so the author has placed this here on purpose to forshadow what is to come - her falling in love with Ben whose only remaining purpose is to find death by his own hand. Something that makes no sense at all to her.
Also interesting that the author killed himself 4 years after this was written. He could certainly cleanly separate the character from himself.
