The first was exhilaration, the kind of energy that he knew related to building a future that had life in it. The second emotion was fear, related to what would happen if he actually went through those doors to the future. But he also noticed something else: the heaviness was gone. It had been replaced with another feeling, a new kind of determination to face reality, which was simultaneously motivating and scary. He knew that to cross that divide, to face the fear and jump over that canyon, would require doing some hard things, relationally and emotionally.
