Forbidden

by Tabitha Suzuma

You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.

It’s horrible, being ashamed of someone you care about; it eats away at you. And if you let it get to you, if you give up the fight and surrender, eventually that shame turns to hate.

Family: the most important thing of all. My siblings may drive me crazy at times but they are my blood. They’re all I’ve known. My family is me. They are my life. Without them I walk the planet alone.

It’s always nice being fancied. It’s always nice being wanted. Even if it’s by the wrong person.

As the light begins to intensify, so does my misery, and I wonder how it is possible to hurt so much when nothing is wrong.