The Collector (Vintage Classics)

by John Fowles

They’re teaching you to express personality at the Slade – personality in general. But however good you get at translating personality into line or paint it’s no go if your personality isn’t worth translating.

She had on that special queasy-bright look women like her put on for girls of my age. What Minny calls welcome-to-the-tribe-of-women.

I think men and women have many such ceremonies

Emma. The business of being between inexperienced girl and experienced woman and the awful problem of the man. Caliban is Mr Elton. Piers is Frank Churchill. But is G.P. Mr Knightley?

Who is sad, who is not, he doesn’t know, and he doesn’t care. So he doesn’t exist, really.

"he" is written without a capital letter, unlike usually when believers write about God.

November 20th

She's already more than a month in captivity

lameduck

lameducking means fucking

Room at the Top

I need to read more about it.

All this business, it’s bound up with my bossy attitude to life. I’ve always known where I’m going, how I want things to happen. And they have happened as I have wanted, and I have taken it for granted that they have because I know where I’m going. But I have been lucky in all sorts of things.

She constantly repeats the "I".

Being cleverer (as I thought) than most men, and cleverer than all the girls I knew. I always thought I knew more, felt more, understood more. But I don’t even know enough to handle Caliban.

When I was at Ladymont I thought I could manipulate a pencil very nicely. And then when I went to London, I began to find I couldn’t. I was surrounded by people who were just as skilled as I was. More so. I haven’t begun to know how to handle my life – or anyone else’s.

G.P. I shall be hurt, lost, battered and buffeted. But it will be like being in a gale of light, after this black hole. It’s simply that. He has the secret of life in him. Something spring-like. Not immoral.

The "dumb girl" character is very authentic...

Fiat lux.

Latin for "let there be light"

G.P.

At this point it's becoming so tedious to hear time and again about this old loser G.P.

I hate God. I hate whatever made this world, I hate whatever made the human race, made men like Caliban possible and situations like this possible. If there is a God he’s a great loathsome spider in the darkness. He cannot be good.

The black and the black and the black.

At this time it sounds like a blog of a 16 year old teen-ager