And despite the Fat Man and the policemen, what had happened in the House of God had been fierce, and I had been hurt, bad. For before the House of God, I had loved old people. Now they were no longer old people, they were gomers, and I did not, I could not love them anymore. I struggle to rest, and cannot, and I struggle to love, and cannot for I’m all leached out, like a man’s shirt washed too many times.
