‘If I’m to act like a villain, then I should act like a villain,’ he kept repeating to himself every day with the same self-satisfaction, but also with a certain amount of fear: ‘If I’m to act like a villain, then I really might as well take it to the limit,’ he kept encouraging himself. ‘In such cases the routine, run-of-the-mill fellow gets cold feet,
knowing you are ordinary but wanting to be special is the worst possible position to be in, because it affords neither the bliss of ignorance nor the satisfaction of embracing an unexceptional life..
