MiMi’s Comments

MiMi’s comments from the No Logic group.

Note: MiMi is not currently a member of this group.

Well it’s pretty much two years later and I believe this will be my final post. I’m about to be a senior in college which is crazy because I got a goodreads account when I was like 12 years old.

If anyone sees this or still reads this I have an important message for you: it gets better. I know people say that a lot and it’s easy to feel like “well not for me” I thought that. I had been suffering for about 8 years. Silently. Thinking nothing would ever change. All it took was one push to get things to change. My best friend saw me struggling and helped me get help. Don’t be ashamed to ask for or need help. I had spent of all my teen life living in a haze where I just wished for it to be over. That isn’t living. Now I wake up everyday with some semblance of what I would call hope. You can be here too. If you read some of my older posts you’ll see I tended to be fairy extravagantly negative about my emotions for school. I didn’t have a good school experience. By a long shot. But I don’t want 14 year old me to make it seem like education isn’t important because it is. And even if you have to go to a high school as atrocious as mine was, you will get through it and it will get better. Feel free to message me at anytime.

Best of luck,
MiMi

Why do I keep coming back here? To a group no one goes on anymore, to a journal no one reads anymore. I don't know. Maybe because I feel like if I do at least yearly updates then I can pretend my life is the same as it was when I started this "journal" and did updates all the time. Maybe so I can pretend someone is listening to me ramble about my life and actually cares. There's a lot of possible reasons.

I went back and read all of my old posts. It was nice nostalgia. What happened this year are you wondering?

I went to San Diego with my family for 10 days and stayed right on the beach. That was fun.

I started my Freshman Year of College.

I finished my Freshman Year of College. After this summer I'm moving into an apartment with two of my bestest friends.

I saw AJR in concert. They are so funny and down to earth and cool.

I visited my bestest friend in the entire universe at her college in California and we went to Disneyland.

I saw Avengers Infinity War (jfc is that a THING or WHAT)

My entire high school friend group fell apart but it's fine I don't really care anymore.

Still not over the atrocities of high school but it's fine I'm fine *awkward laugh*

I became obsessed with Dan and Phil randomly. And just youtube in general.

I hope to finally get back into reading because it's been about three years and that makes me really sad. The only reason I stopped reading is because I started my junior year in high school and it was so unbearable that I didn't have the time or the emotional capacity to read. Even over breaks it was like my mind was just mush all I did was watch Netflix. (I did draw sometimes though). But now I am out of that school and even last summer I still didn't really read because my mind still needed time to heal and recover and now it's been exactly one year since my graduation and I feel slightly better, my mind feels slightly clearer and I think I can finally read again. Maybe in a few days I'll post another 'tribute' like I used to lol.

It's been almost another year. Wow. I haven't been able to read really since last summer. School did that to me (and to all of my friends really). My sister got really into reading and I hope it will get me back into reading because I want to be.

I did end up meeting Misha Collins. I hyperventilated and when they took the picture of me with him I had this derpy look frozen on my face because I was freaking out and it looks like I'm on some sort of drugs. (I regret nothing.) it was the greatest moment of my life. I got an autograph from Ruth Connell too and of course she was amazing.

I did go to that twenty one pilots concert. It was life changing. If you love the band you have to see them live it's completely different and mind blowing. I was in the pit right up front at the barrier and got to hold up Josh's platform. Tears were shed.

I got to go to Chicago. It was amazing.

I got to see Panic! at the Disco. Brendan was amazing. He talked about weed a lot though.

I finished school. That was amazing.

Now it's summer and I can finally get back to reading. I'm not binge watching supernatural. I can finally read.

(Have you guys watched Parks and Rec because if not screw reading and watch that show OH MY GOD Benjamin Wyatt is the best thing to happen to this world. )

Hopefully there will be more updates

It's so hard to post a whole year in one post. I missed some stuff obviously. Like the good stuff. The pop culture stuff.

The new Owl City album did come out but most of the songs were too religious for my taste. I really loved Unbelievable though. Here's the link: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=PTWaiwb...

Owl City did go on tour but not to where I live. :(

Birdy came out with a new album called Beautiful Lies and I LOVE IT!!!! Here's the link: https://m.youtube.com/playlist?list=P...

Sia came out with a new album but I haven't listened to it.

I'm into this new band called Nothing But Thieves. They are rock n roll pop punk ish. It's hard to describe them but they are pretty cool.

Coldplay came out with a new album which i also love. And I'm sure you've at least heard Adventure of a Lifetime.

J Biebs came back and doesn't suck!! Yeah that's right I like the songs Sorry and What do You Mean

The song lyrics I posted in my last post were Melanie Martinez and she's great. I love her now.

The Lumineers came out with a new album and I want to buy it but can't yet.

Have you seen the movie Zootopia? Because it was my favorite movie of the year.

Have you seen Batman v Superman? BECAUSE IT SUCKED!!!!

Have you seen Captain America: Civil War. Because I LOVED IT.

I'll try to post more often but we'll see. The book I'm currently reading is called The Kiss of Deception and I love it except I'm disappointed about what just happened in it but that's ok.

Some more song lyrics. Hmmmmm what should I choose oh I know

Carry on Wayward Son- Kansas (because I'm a supernatural addict now)

Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more

Ah

Once I rose above the noise and confusion
Just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion
I was soaring ever higher, but I flew too high

Though my eyes could see I still was a blind man
Though my mind could think I still was a mad man
I hear the voices when I'm dreaming,
I can hear them say

Carry on my wayward son,
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more

Masquerading as a man with a reason
My charade is the event of the season
And if I claim to be a wise man,
Well, it surely means that I don't know

On a stormy sea of moving emotion
Tossed about, I'm like a ship on the ocean
I set a course for winds of fortune,
But I hear the voices say

Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more no!

Carry on,
You will always remember
Carry on,
Nothing equals the splendor
Now your life's no longer empty
Surely heaven waits for you

Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry,
Don't you cry no more,

No more!

It's been like a year since I have posted. I can't believe it. I reread my last post going on about summer and twenty one pilots and so much is the same but so much is different too.

I remember the end of last summer. Thinking it came way to soon. But I remember thinking this year will be better because nothing could be worse than AP World History was. (Idk if I posted about that but it was horrible). I remember immediately being proven wrong. I remember the severe struggle that was this year, having to fight every minute of the school day. I remember being more stressed than ever. I remember seeing my friends struggle the same way and all of us feeling horrible together. I remember binge watching all ten seasons of supernatural and that is why I didn't meet my reading goal. I remember practically not reading at all during the school year because they piled on so much that we literally just could not. I remember the principal shutting me down when I tried to make changes for the better. I remember giving up on that class because if they don't care why should I. I remember the overwhelming relief when my final grades came in. And now I'm back to the same feelings as last year. Only so much is different.

No I didn't end up going to that Fall Out Boy concert because my parents thought it was too sketchy. I talked about a Twenty One Pilots concert and I didn't go to that one but I'm going to one this summer. They are now one of my favorite bands. I am super obsessed with supernatural and Castiel is my favorite. And misha Collins is my favorite. And I'm going to meet him at the supernatural convention and I'm so excited.

Yeah a lot is different. I'm sure a lot is different with you too even if you are essentially the same person. I'm essentially the same person. Except I literally had a nightmare last night that school wasn't over and I woke up almost crying. That's different but also kind of the same.

I went to Italy and Greece on the trip of a lifetime. That made me a different person. I want to travel the world when I'm older but know that I probably won't.

I keep looking back to last summer and how stress free I felt. I had a job that wasn't hard. I read all the time. I had just gotten back from Disneyland. Everything was great. I didn't get a job this summer and I'm okay with that but I'm broke. I don't know I feel like I'm rambling but I guess the important thing is to remember even if it was a really tough year there is always the relief of summer and hopefully next year will be better. Even if it's not there is always summer.

Here are some lyrics of what I'm currently listening to.

Soap- Melanie Martinez

Think I just remembered something
I think I left the faucet running
Now my words are filling up the tub
Darling, you're just soaking in it
But I know you'll get out the minute
You notice all your fingers pruning up

I'm tired of being careful, tiptoe, trying to keep the water warm
Let me under your skin
Uh-oh, there it goes, I said too much, it overflowed
Why do I always spill?

[2x]
I feel it coming out my throat
Guess I better wash my mouth out with soap
God, I wish I never spoke
Now I gotta wash my mouth out with soap

Think I got myself in trouble
So I fill the bath with bubbles
Then I'll put the towels all away
Should've never said the word "love"
Threw a toaster in the bathtub
I'm sick of all the games I have to play

I'm tired of being careful, tiptoe, trying to keep the water warm
Let me under your skin
Uh-oh, there it goes, I said too much, it overflowed
Why do I always spill?

[4x]
I feel it coming out my throat
Guess I better wash my mouth out with soap
God, I wish I never spoke
Now I gotta wash my mouth out with soap

ITS SUMMER!!!!!

Disneyland was so fun I swear I have never had that much fun in my life. I was with most of my friends in DISNEYLAND!!!! Plus school was out! What really got me though was that everyone was like wow MiMi you seem different and I was like what do you mean? And they were like well you just seem.... I don't know carefree and happier and I was like fudge yeah cause schools out and I realized then for the first time how stressed out school makes us all cause they were all carefree and happier too and I realized we can't really be ourselves until summer and how depressing that is. And then my parents tried to make me take a summer math class?!?!?!?! Now I know you are thinking "I know that sucks but it isn't that bad right?" Except for. The fact that math is my best subject and my highest grade so why do I need to take a class I'm in honors math too for crying out loud. Well it ended up not happening luckily. I just can't get over the fact how as high schoolers we can't really be ourselves until summer and that's really sad.

On top of that one of my friends moved away this summer. We weren't that close just friendly acquaintances but he was in every single one of my classes last year (Ikr) and was like the class clown and it's gonna be so weird without his dumb jokes.

On top of that now this year my sister will be at my school. >_<

Well that imagine dragons concert is definitely not happening but I might go to the Fall out boy concert if I'm allowed (I have tickets but it'll be a "school night") and I might go to the twenty one pilots concert if my friend isn't out of town which she might be. Hopefully not. Twenty one pilots is my new band obsession. (Yeah I get frequent new obsessions but I still love all the old ones... Part of being a music obsessed teen)

Usually I post what I'm listening to right now... And that's Paradise by Coldplay.... But instead I'm going to post some Twenty one pilots lyrics :

This is the song that made me love them cause it's soooooo relatable


Stressed Out- Twenty one pilots
I wish I found some better sounds no one's ever heard,
I wish I had a better voice that sang some better words,
I wish I found some chords in an order that is new,
I wish I didn't have to rhyme every time I sang,

I was told when I get older all my fears would shrink,
But now I'm insecure and I care what people think.

My name's 'Blurryface' and I care what you think.
My name's 'Blurryface' and I care what you think.

Wish we could turn back time, to the good ol' days,
When our momma sang us to sleep but now we're stressed out.
Wish we could turn back time, to the good ol' days,
When our momma sang us to sleep but now we're stressed out.

We're stressed out.

Sometimes a certain smell will take me back to when I was young,
How come I'm never able to identify where it's coming from,
I'd make a candle out of it if I ever found it,
Try to sell it, never sell out of it, I'd probably only sell one,

It'd be to my brother, 'cause we have the same nose,
Same clothes homegrown a stone's throw from a creek we used to roam,
But it would remind us of when nothing really mattered,
Out of student loans and treehouse homes we all would take the latter.

My name's 'Blurryface' and I care what you think.
My name's 'Blurryface' and I care what you think.

Wish we could turn back time, to the good ol' days,
When our momma sang us to sleep but now we're stressed out.
Wish we could turn back time, to the good ol' days,
When our momma sang us to sleep but now we're stressed out.

We used to play pretend, give each other different names,
We would build a rocket ship and then we'd fly it far away,
Used to dream of outer space but now they're laughing at our face,
Saying, "Wake up, you need to make money."
Ew.

We used to play pretend, give each other different names,
We would build a rocket ship and then we'd fly it far away,
Used to dream of outer space but now they're laughing at our face,
Saying, "Wake up, you need to make money."
Ew.

Wish we could turn back time, to the good ol' days,
When our momma sang us to sleep but now we're stressed out.
Wish we could turn back time, to the good ol' days,
When our momma sang us to sleep but now we're stressed out.

Used to play pretend, used to play pretend, bunny
We used to play pretend, wake up, you need the money
Used to play pretend, used to play pretend, bunny
We used to play pretend, wake up, you need the money
We used to play pretend, give each other different names,
We would build a rocket ship and then we'd fly it far away,
Used to dream of outer space but now they're laughing at our face,
Saying, "Wake up, you need to make money."
Ew.

And here's the link to the whole album:
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=gxQCejo...

Oh yeah. I forgot to mention INSURGENT WAS THE FRICKIN WORST THING I'VE EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE. TWILIGHT WAS BETTER THAN THIS BECUASE THOSE MOVIES MADE ME LAUGH AT THEIR HORRIBLENESS BUT THIS MADE ME WANT TO PUNCH THE DIRECTORS FACE. NOTHING LIKE THE BOOK. WHYYYYY THEO JAMES WHYYYYYY

Now I'm listening to It Comes Back To You- Imagine Dragons
4am beside myself
And what I think of mental health
All the things that worry me
All the things you don’t believe
I’ve been told just what to do
Where to look and point my view
All the things that I could be
I think I learned in therapy
Am I just a shadow you drew?

[Chorus:]
It comes back to you, it comes back to you
All the things that you had lost will find their way to you
It comes back to you, it comes back to you
Looking back into the past and I can see it through
It comes to back you oh oh [x3]

It comes back to you
Mocking birds and diamond rings
Oh I have thought of greater things
All the things that fly by me
All the lives that I could lead
Maybe I was born for that
Or maybe I was first to last
You could call it cowardess
But leave me to my studied bliss
Am I just a shadow you drew?

[Chorus]

It comes to back you oh oh [x3]
It comes back to you

Its been almost a year since I started writing this. My first posts were about how I drastically wished it was summer and how I hated school and yes... It has come back. Well my dislikeness of school never really left but it just isnt as intense as April and May. They made spring break 2 weeks early in my school district this year so i just have this long stretch until summer *sigh* ONLY 38 DAYS!!!!!!!!! Then I go on a school trip to Disneyland <3 then its SUMMER!

Imagine Drogons is coming to my town in July and I want to go LIKE NO OTHER OMG I NEED TO GO TO THIS >_< But since I JUST FOUND OUT like half the tickets are sold out (all the good ones) but I can get FLOOR TICKETS for $80! Yes it would be alot ALOT of standing but it would be TOTALLY WORTH IT! But my parents are like "you got 80 dollars?" and im like "Noooooo, you do though...." and they're like "mmm no." So I CANT GO *cry face* But i was texting my friends to go and none of them could anyway. But i bet I could have found SOMEONE to go with me right? Ugh I'm listening to the album right now and I want to go sooooo bad . Whyyyyy world whyyyyyyyy?

Well here's the song I'm listening to right this second
Friction- Imagine Dragons (LISTEN TO THE ALBUM)
Get down with the victim
We both know you need them
You’re stuck in the middle
Of all irrelevance
And your heart is beating
Cause you know that you gotta
Get out of the middle
And rise to the top now

[Pre-Chorus:]
When you’ve made it
Won’t ya tell me what to do
Cause I’m playin' it all wrong
When you made it, when you made it
Won’t ya tell me what to do
Cause I’m playin it all wrong

[Chorus:]
You can’t fight the friction
So ease it off
Can’t take the pressure
So ease it off
Don’t tell me to be strong
ease it off
You can’t fight the friction
So ease it off

And get into the system
We both know you need one
The tip of the needle
Is taking over you
And your heart is beating

Cause you know that you gotta
Get out of the middle
And rise to the top now

[Pre-Chorus]
[Chorus]

Ohhh why can’t you let go
Like a bird in the snow
This is no place to build your home

[Chorus x2]

kill

Zayn from 1D (although apparently he quit now)

I confess I have a peanut butter obsession

government abduction. When I escape I'll have a much more interesting story to tell.

WYR live in the middle of the Sahara desert for a year where you have ti find your own food and water t=and there are no humans for thousands of miles, or do the same thing but in Antarctica?

Haven't read it

So the Insurgent movie came out last friday!! Of course I was going to see it right after school with some of my friends but then one of my friends couldn't go so the rest called it off and THEY ARE MAKING ME WAIT IN AGONYYYYYYY


Well i get to see it tomorrow.
I am actually pretty torn. The movie seems pretty bad, but I LOVE the book. If they mess up the part where they are in the Candor compound or the ending then I will be very upset. Those are crucial parts. All the critics gave it horrible reviews but a couple fo my friends saw it and loved it so I guess we'll see. I hope it isn't too different from the book though.

Today's tribute: Insurgent!!!














So I can't wait to see the movie and I hope its good.

Are you a parking ticket cause you've got fine written all over you?

These are just horrible XP

I don't have a library card but is it still ok if I check you out?

XD

So I've recently become (became?) obsessed with the singer Birdy. Have you heard of her? Her singing is gorgeous!! I also love the Imagine Drqgons album as previously mentioned AND the new Fall Out Boy album which I believe was also previously mentioned.

Here are some youtube links so you can check them out if you want.

Birdy- Birdy Full Album https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VS7Kc...

Imagine Dragons- Smoke + Mirrors Full Album https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=flF02...

Fall Out Boy- American Beauty/American Psycho Full Album https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uMxkS...

So I hope you like them... and Owl City's new album will be coming out later this year and then he is supposed to go on tour!!!!!! SO EXCITED I AM FOR SURE GOING TO THAT CONCERT

Today's tribute is to this weeks most popular songs!

1. Uptown Funk!- Mark Ronson feat Bruno Mars
I don't particularly like this song....

2. Thinking Out Loud- Ed Sheeran
I don't really like Ed Sheeran either....

3. Sugar- Maroon 5
I do like Maroon 5 !!

4. Love Me Like You Do- Ellie Goulding
I like some of her songs but not this one.

5. FourFiveSeconds- Rhianna, Kanye West, and Paul McCartney
I really don't like this one...

6. Style- Tay Tay Swiftie!
I have a love hate relationship with Tay Tay and her music.... I love it but I hate it.

7. Earned It- The Weekend
I don't think I know this song?

8. Take Me to Church- Hozier
I love this one!... so does my sister..

9. Time of Our Lives- Pitbull and Ne-Yo
I have to say I do like Pitbull.

10. Blank Space- Tay Tay Swiftie!
YAY Tay Tay! :/

11. I Don't Mind- Usher feat. Juicy J
Don't like it.

12. Trap Queen- Fetty Wap
What the heck?

13. Lips are Movin- Meghan Trainor
Don't like you gurl...at all.. I ain't about that bass

14. Truffle Butter- Nicki Minaj feat Drake and Lil Wayne
Don't like her either.

15. All Day- Kanye West feat. a bunch of people
Don't like this one either.

Yeah so I don't like a lot of pop. Oh well. Gotta go to tennis practice :/

Have you been to the doctor lately? I think you are lacking Vitamin ME

Did you invent the airplane? Cause you seem Wright to me

I didn't know they made that shirt in boyfriend material?

Oh my gosh....

Guess who got a new phone!!!! Okay so this may kind of seem like bragging but I went from the iPhone 4 to the 6. Huge jump. Not to mention my iPhone 4 barely worked and was a piece of junk. And guess who has an Owl City iPhone case!! It is literally the best case ever. This is the one I got:


Is it not amazing?


So I haven't been on here forever cause I've been sick a lot lately (hasn't everyone) but don't worry I didn't have the measles. Because I've been sick you'd think that give me a huge chance to read. No. I had the kind of sickness where you're head just refuses to do anything and you sit there useless and miserable and then you realize science fair is due in two days. Yep. But it all worked out ok. Kind of.

Have you guys heard Imagine Dragons' new album Smoke + Mirrors ? OH MY GOD ITS BEAUTIFUL !!!!! <3<3 my faves off the album so far are Polaroid, Smoke and Mirrors, Dream, and Shots. This album is way more sad and dark but it's just beautiful. If you haven't heard it, YouTube is calling your name. Go right now.

Well I don't remember all the Owl City lyrics I've ever posted so if I post repeats I apologize but here is


Shooting Star- Owl City

Close your tired eyes, relax and then
Count from 1 to 10 and open them
All these heavy thoughts will try to weigh you down
But not this time

Way up in the air, you're finally free
And you can stay up there right next to me
All this gravity will try to pull you down
But not this time

When the sun goes down and the lights burn out
Then it's time for you to shine
Brighter than a shooting star
So shine no matter where you are

Fill the darkest night with a brilliant light
'Cause it's time for you to shine
Brighter than a shooting star
So shine no matter where you are tonight

Woah-oh, woah-oh, woah-oh

Brighter than a shooting star
Shine no matter where you are tonight

Gaze into my eyes when the fire starts
And fan the flames so hot it melts our hearts
Oh, the pouring rain will try to put it out
But not this time

Let your colors burn and brightly burst
Into a million sparks that all disperse
And illuminate a world that'll try to bring you down
But not this time

When the sun goes down and the lights burn out
Then it's time for you to shine
Brighter than a shooting star
So shine no matter where you are

Fill the darkest night with a brilliant light
'Cause it's time for you to shine
Brighter than a shooting star
So shine no matter where you are tonight

Woah-oh, woah-oh, woah-oh

Brighter than a shooting star
Shine no matter where you are tonight

A thousand heart beats beat in time
It makes this dark planet come alive
So when the lights flicker out tonight
You gotta shine

When the sun goes down and the lights burn out
Then it's time for you to shine
Brighter than a shooting star
So shine no matter where you are

Fill the darkest night with a brilliant light
'Cause it's time for you to shine
Brighter than a shooting star
So shine no matter where you are tonight

Woah-oh, woah-oh, woah-oh

Brighter than a shooting star
So shine no matter where you are tonight.