Rhian c:’s Comments (group member since Dec 25, 2013)

Rhian c:’s comments from the 5 SOS group.

Emma downed the pills and sputtered, she opened the door and slid down the wall. She coughed harshly and continued sobbing.

Emma sat against the tub; sobbing. She opened the bottle and poured half of the contents in her hand, she stared at them, taking heavy breaths.

((Sasha pleaseeee comment!! It's about to get really dramatic!!))

Emma grabbed her sketch book and wrote in beautiful lettering- You see skinny, while all she see's is fat. You see beautiful when she only wants to die.. Emma finished and wrote a small note to Ashton saying Ash, I love you so much, but this is all too much..I'm leaving, don't feel like it's your fault..it's not..I pushed myself to far..I love you, bye -Emma <3 Emma folded it up and set by his door. She went back into her room and locked the door, she grabbed the painkillers from under her pillow and sat on her bed.

Emma got up and walked down the hall to her room, she traced her fingers over her drawings all over the walls, silent tears fell down her her face as she walked around the room.

Emma huffed, "I am the one carrying the child right? Shouldn't I have the choice of weather we keep it or not?"

"I know, I would never ever do that. I was possibly thinking adoption though..but I want the kid to be close so I could him/her when I wanted to.." Emma sat up and looked at Ash.

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Emma sighed, "I'm not either..and I honestly don't want to..I just don't know what to do.." She looked away, "there's so many things I wanted to do, wanted to see..and now..I..can't."

"Accidents happen Ash..it's okay.." Emma smiled softly at him and pecked his lips.

"I've told you this, I don't know if the baby is yours or Mikey's..I'm getting a test done in a couple days.."

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Emma yawned and kissed his nose.

Emma nodded and crawled in with him, "I love you.."

Emma shrugged, "I can't just something I've been committed to for ten years.."

"I promise I won't drop anymore weight, I just want to do the last summer shoot..I was promised the cover if I was right weight though.." Emma chewed on her lip.

"Can I quit after the shoot next week?" Emma looked up at him with begging eyes.

Emma walked over to Ashton and hugged him, " I really am sorry..it was an accident..it'll never happen again.."

((It's okay! :) ))

Emma saw Ashton and set the bottle down, she walked upstairs to his room. Emma leaned into the doorframe, "I don't know who's the dad yet..I'm getting some test done in a couple days..But, if you wanna break up..I'll go live in the shelter.." She lied about the shelter, she knew she would end up on the streets..

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