BREAKING POINT is done! Here's an EXCERPT

It is done.

Today, Dec. 2, at about 4 AM, I finished my 10th novel. Without getting any sleep, I went to work. Then at about 11 AM, I sent it to my editor in New York, and have been trying not to get too worried or depressed since then.

I always have a bit of post-partum depression when I let a book go. I've spent so much time with the characters, been in their heads 24/7 for days and weeks and months — and then they're gone. It leaves an empty feeling. I'm terribly fond of Zach and Natalie and the whole I-Team gang.

It sounds crazy, I know. But it's true.

I feel like the story turned out pretty well. It is absolutely the most action-packed I-Team book to date, and perhaps the scariest.

I hope with all my heart that you enjoy it and find it worth the wait.

To celebrate finishing the book — and to celebrate the fact that it's my 10th novel — I'm sharing an excerpt with you.

Here you go:

From Breaking Point, an I-Team Novel

Natalie took a sip of coffee, studying Zach over the top of her porcelain cup as he devoured what was left of his breakfast. Most of the time when she interviewed someone, she had a good sense of whether that person was telling her the truth. Today, however, her intuition seemed to be taking a vacation.

Maybe the stakes were too high this time. Maybe she was too caught up in her own emotions and too close to the situation to focus clearly. Or maybe Zach was just harder to read than most people.

If only he would put on a shirt!

It wasn't right for any man to be so dangerous and so sexy at the same time. Her adrenaline gland and her ovaries were locked in a shouting match now, the former insisting she needed to run away fast, the latter wishing he'd kiss her again.

And that's why you need to think with your brain.

She set her cup down. "How did you get shot? I've seen the scar."

"A man aimed an AK-47 at my back and fired." He shoveled the last bite of hash browns into his mouth and chewed.

Okay, so he wasn't going to answer that one.

"What's your last name?"

He set down his fork and napkin. "Smith. No, Jones. No, wait — it's Black. I like that better. Zach Black. It rhymes."

He wasn't going to answer that one either.

"If you didn't steal the cocaine, Zach Black, why didn't you just tell me that right away? Why let me believe you're some kind of criminal if you're not?"

"I was afraid you'd start asking a lot of questions, like you always do, and we both had more important things to deal with." His plate clean, he reached for his coffee, then leaned back in his chair, his long legs stretched out in front of him, his pants riding low enough on his hips to expose a trail of dark hair that disappeared behind his zipper. "Besides, it's not like you were going to say, 'Please leave me with the Zetas.'"

He took a sip.

"Why did the Zetas think you'd stolen the drugs if you didn't?"

He seemed to think about this, as if deciding whether or not to answer. "The person I believe stole the shipment drugged me, then handed me over to them and told them I'd stolen it, making me the scapegoat for her actions."

A woman? "She drugged you?"

He nodded. "She called, asked me to meet her at a bar in Juárez, and the next thing I knew, I was a guest in Hotel Zeta."

Hotel Zeta?

More like Hell on Earth.

Natalie couldn't fathom how he could make light about his captivity after what he'd been through. "Didn't she care what they would do to you?"

"I guess she cared more about money." He took another sip.

"That's terrible."

Proof of how much he'd suffered was still visible on his body—from the dark purple bruise on his ribcage to the faint pink electrical burns on his chest and belly to the gauze bandages on his raw, blistered wrists. If what he'd said was true, this person had turned him over to the Zetas, knowing full well he would be tortured and killed.

How could any woman be so heartless?

The next question that popped out of Natalie's mouth was not the one she'd been about to ask. "Was she your lover?"

How incredibly rude! That's none of your business, girl!

Zach didn't answer right away, his lips curving in a smile. "Now why, oh, why would you ask me that, Ms. Benoit?"

"No reason." She felt herself blush. "Just curious."

"Ah, I see." He set his coffee cup down on the tray, the amused expression on his face telling her that he did see—right through her. "No, she wasn't my lover—though not for lack of trying on her part."

So Zach didn't sleep with every woman who threw herself at him. That was good to hear. "Are you married?"

He shook his head. "No."

Natalie couldn't seem to stop herself. "Divorced?"

"No!"

"Gay?"

He came face to face with her in one smooth motion, so close that she could see flecks of gold in the gray of his irises, the spicy-clean scent of his skin filling her lungs. "Oh, angel, I think you know the answer to that one, but if you need proof… "

A big hand slid into her hair, cradling the back of her skull, angling her face upward. Pulse tripping, she found herself looking into his eyes, wondering if he would was really going to do it, if he was really going to kiss her.

And then he did kiss her.

Slowly.

He brushed his lips over hers, the mere whisper of a touch sending shudders through her, making her breath catch. Then he slipped his other arm around her and drew her against his bare chest, the hard feel of his body making her go weak. But still he didn't kiss her full on, teasing her mouth with his, nipping her lips, tracing their outline with his tongue, until her lips tingled and ached and she was trembling.

She shouldn't let him do this. Zach was a dangerous man, a killer. She knew next to nothing about him, not even his last name. All she had was his promise that he wasn't a criminal. But it had been so long since a man had touched her, so long since she'd wanted a man to touch her.

She slid her arms around his neck, arched into him, desperate for more.

He groaned, and the hand in her hair became a fist. And in a heartbeat the kiss transformed, his lips pressing hard and hot against hers, his tongue thrusting deep.

Oh, my stars!

Heat lanced through her, striking deep in her belly. With a whimper, she kissed him back, welcoming his tongue with her own, breathing in the male scent of him, her insides going liquid as his hand moved slowly down her spine.


Mark your calendars. The book will be released on May 3! That's two months earlier than we all expected because someone — that's me — has missed more night's sleep than you can imagine trying to meet that deadline. The story is already available for pre-order on Amazon.com.

Time to rest for a while.

And then, we'll be takin' a journey through time back to Fort Elizabeth, where Connor MacKinnon is in a world of trouble...
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message 1: by ~ Becs ~ (new)

~ Becs ~ Love it - can't wait.


message 2: by Quinn (new)

Quinn

Wow, Pamela! That's fantastic. I, for one, thank you for every lost minute of sleep and know it will all be worth it!

And even though you have surely earned it, please don't rest for too long, Connor is a-calling!


message 3: by Keri (new)

Keri Yea!!! You go gurl! Singing Oh Happy Day here. Go celebrate, you deserve it and then bring on Connor.


message 4: by Mrs. (new)

Mrs. Badass Awesome! Can't wait to read it! Congrats!!!

Happy Holidays, Rest up and Enjoy!


message 5: by Auntee (new)

Auntee Wow!:)


Pamela(AllHoney) I don't wanna wait (stomps around and has a temper tatrum)


message 7: by MBR (new)

MBR Loved the excerpt Pamela. Have marked May 2nd on all my calendars ^_^


message 8: by Beanbag (new)

Beanbag Love Congrats on finishing it, Pamela! Rest assured we readers do appreciate your hard work and loss of sleep for our benefit.

Yummy excerpt. Thanks!


message 9: by Judi (new)

Judi Can't wait to read this one! Thanks for all your hard work and sleepless nights to meet your deadline.


message 10: by Pamela (new)

Pamela I'm so happy you're all enjoying the excerpt. :-)

And, thanks, too, for all of your encouragement over the past few weeks as I was working so hard to finish the book. It really helped. More than that, it meant a lot to me.

I slept last night — sort of. I went to bed, but my body didn't want to seem to shut off. So I was up about every two hours. Weird!

Now it's time to dig out, to put all the BREAKING POINT stuff away, clean the house and take a few long walks. So that's my weekend.

Plus, my sister is arriving from Sweden tomorrow night. She lives in Stockholm, and I see her only once a year. Can't wait! She is SUCH a huge help to me with my writing and spent time online with me doing some hand-holding in the middle of my night (her work day) this past week.

Have a lovely day, everyone! I'll try to come up with some fun ways to celebrate the I-Team and BREAKING POINT between now and May 3. :-)


message 11: by ♡Karlyn P♡ (new)

♡Karlyn P♡ Congratulations Pam! I'm already madly in love with Zach, what a hottie! :-)

Hey, with your head buried in your writing did you notice that Goodreads nominated your last book 'Naked Edge' as a top romance for 2010? You can find the voting banner on the home page. Congrats on that too!


message 12: by Pamela (new)

Pamela Thanks so much, KarLyn! I'm so glad you're liking Zach. He's a pretty special guy — in a way the most heroic of my heroes.

No, I did not notice that at all. What? Wow! That's exciting. I'm really astonished. I'll have to go look and stare at that for a while.

Thanks for telling me!


message 13: by Pamela (new)

Pamela Wow, that's pretty amazing. VERY stiff competition, however.

Thanks again for letting me know, KarLyn. :-)


message 14: by Mrs. (new)

Mrs. Badass I totally voted for Gabe <3


message 15: by Pamela (new)

Pamela Thanks, Erika. Gabe appreciates that. :-)


message 16: by Pamela (new)

Pamela As do I, I should have said. LOL!

I hope you and the kids are well.


message 17: by ♡Karlyn P♡ (new)

♡Karlyn P♡ Pamela wrote: "Wow, that's pretty amazing. VERY stiff competition, however.

Thanks again for letting me know, KarLyn. :-)"


Yes, I agree - your book is in some fine company. But a well deserved nomination! I have my fingers crossed for you.


message 18: by Pamela (new)

Pamela Thanks, KarLyn.

Yes, it's great company to find NAKED EDGE at the end of the year, isn't it?

Gabe does some pretty spectacular stuff in BREAKING POINT. *hint, hint*

Now that it's done, I can't WAIT for the story to come out.


message 19: by *Nan* (new)

*Nan* I am so excited about this book ! I just wish we didn't have to wait until May to read it!


message 20: by Pamela (new)

Pamela Me, too, Nan! Sigh.

So, y'all, here's what still has to happen:

My editor will read the MS and decide whether it passes muster. If there are revisions, she'll let me know. The only time she's made me change anything was to eliminate the 9-months-pregnant sex scene from the end of NAKED EDGE. (Oh, well. I liked it.)

Then she sends it to a copy editor, who looks for typos, style errors, misspelled names, and such using a looong multi-page guide they've created to the world of the I-Team. (I need a copy of that!)

They send that to me, and I approve or disapprove changes. Those changes are made, and then the MS goes to a proofreader who gives it another thorough reading. Again, I get those changes and approve them.

Then the book goes to print. That's about two months prior to the release date. About a month prior, I get my box of author copies.

And then guess what happens? Contests!

Then the book comes out.

So that's what happens. I'll be stopping work on Connor's book to read through BP twice before it goes to print. Sometimes it's exciting (Hard Evidence, Unlawful Contact) and sometimes it's terrifying (Surrender, Naked Edge).
I have no idea how I'll feel this time.


message 21: by Shawna (new)

Shawna WOO-HOO! Congratulations, Pamela! I can't wait! *does happy Zach dance*


message 22: by Pamela (new)

Pamela Shawna, can you videotape that and pop it up on YouTube? I'm dying to see what the "happy Zach dance" looks like. :-)

And thanks!


message 23: by MBR (last edited Dec 04, 2010 07:14PM) (new)

MBR Totally voted for Gabe!! ^_^

There was a 9-months-pregnant-sex scene which involves Gabe and this is the first time I'm hearing about it?? *wails* How can that be?? Mmm.. Is there any of that stuff on your blog or website? *hint, hint*

Yah Shawna, we would all love to see your happy Zach dance ^_~


message 24: by Pamela (new)

Pamela Hmmm.... I seem to remember posting the original scene somewhere. On my blog, perhaps? Search for Naked Edge original epilogue or cut scenes or something like that.

If it's not there, I'd be happy to post it or e-mail it to you.


message 25: by MBR (new)

MBR Pamela wrote: "If it's not there, I'd be happy to post it or e-mail it to you. "

Awesome!! Will look it up! ^_^


message 26: by MBR (new)

MBR Hi Pamela,
I searched through your blog content and couldn't seem to find it. :(


message 27: by Pamela (new)

Pamela I'll hunt for it right now...


message 28: by MBR (new)

MBR Pamela wrote: "I'll hunt for it right now..."

Thank you!!! :))


message 29: by Pamela (last edited Dec 04, 2010 10:25PM) (new)

Pamela SPOILERS SPOILERS SPOILERS....

If you haven't read NAKED EDGE, don't read this!

EPILOGUE
Ten months later
K’ai’bii’tó, Navajoland
Northern Arizona

“And that is what we call Náhookos Biko'.” Kat snuggled deeper into Gabe, pointing to the star that never moved and the four little stars around it.

They lay spooned together on a mattress in the bed of her pickup truck looking up at the night sky, a woolen blanket covering them both, as much to lend them a modicum of privacy as to ward off the September chill.
Gabe repeated the Navajo words, his right arm pillowing her head, his left hand on her belly so that he could feel the baby move. “That means… northern fire?”

“Very good!” Kat was happy that he was learning the Diné language so quickly. “To us, it looks like the fire in the center of the hogaan. Náhookos Bika'ii, Northern Male, and Náhookos Bi'áadii, Northern Female, circle around it. To us they represent the family in their home. We believe all things revolve around the family and the hogaan.”

She felt baby shift, pressing its heel or elbow against the place where Gabe’s hand rested. He gently rubbed the spot, his fingers warm on her skin, then chuckled when the baby nudged again. “It’s crowded in there now, isn’t it, little one?”

He’d been fascinated with her changing body and the growing baby from the day they’d found out she was pregnant last December. Even when he’d been in rehabilitation learning to walk with his prosthetic leg, he’d pampered her, doing everything he could to make her more comfortable during ten long weeks of morning sickness, his love — and his sense of humor—never flagging.

“Look at us,” he’d said one morning after she’d been very sick and pain had kept him awake most of the night. “We’re the eighth and ninth dwarves — Gimpy and Barfy.”

Some men might have grown bitter or demoralized after losing a limb, but not Gabe. He’d faced all of it — the physical pain, his temporary limitations, learning to walk again — with courage that had left Kat feeling humbled and even more in love with him than she’d been before, if such a thing were possible.

“I suppose if I’d lost my leg in a stupid climbing accident, I might be angry,” he’d said one night as the two of them lay together in bed. “But I know why it’s gone. That night, I’d have given anything to keep you safe. Half a leg is not too high a price to pay for the woman I love.”

The loss of his leg — and the circumstances under which he’d fallen — had made him an instant celebrity in the climbing world. People’s fascination with him had grown when, six weeks after losing his leg and almost dying, he was climbing again, using only his arms and one leg to scale several tough routes in the rock gym while people watched and cheered. The sight of him doing what he loved had brought tears to Kat’s eyes, and she’d found herself cheering as loudly as everyone each time he triumphantly reached the top, a smile on his handsome face.

And almost overnight he’d found himself in the position of being a role model for others who’d lost limbs. When a company that manufactured cutting-edge prosthetic legs asked him to come to work for them field-testing legs they designed for elite athletes, he had agreed to take the job, provided he could work it around trips with Kat to the reservation and the needs of the new baby.

“My family is my priority,” he’d told them.

They’d agreed.

Kat knew he was as excited as she was to meet their baby. Although her due date was still nine days away, the midwife in Tuba City had told them last week that the baby could come at any time. And Kat was ready.

She was ready to experience the mystery of becoming a mother, to know what it felt like to bring life into the world, to meet the little person she and Gabe had made together. She knew giving birth would be different than anything she’d experienced so far.

She’d been with Sophie when Sophie had given birth at home to little Addy, and had seen the reality of birth — the hard work, the pain, the blood. Still, she was eager for it.

That’s why she’d come home — to have a baby. Kat wanted to give birth on the reservation so that she could have both Gabe and her grandmother by her side — and so that there would be no doubt that her child was a member of the Navajo Nation. She and Gabe had left Denver two weeks ago, wanting to make sure Kat would have time to meet the midwives who would be with her during the birth. So far it had been like a honeymoon — one that included her extended family.

Of course, this wasn’t the first time Gabe had been to K’ai’bii’tó. They’d come in April to introduce Gabe to her family, to help with shearing the sheep and so that Uncle Ray could sing a Blessing Way for Kat and the baby. Then they’d come again in May to help with the planting of the corn. Gabe had gotten to see her grandmother’s dead-crow-on-the-fence ritual for himself.

“Remind me not to mess with Grandma’s corn,” he’d whispered in Kat’s ear.

But Kat’s grandmother adored Gabe. The two of them had a teasing relationship that relied on a mix of English and Navajo words — Nav-lish Kat called it—for communication.

Kat’s nieces and nephews loved him, too. The smaller children were fascinated by his prosthetic leg, while the older ones seemed to be in awe of him because they understood how he’d gotten it. Only Kat’s mother and her brothers and sisters had given him the cold shoulder, but he hadn’t taken it personally. He’d seemed more upset by the way they’d treated her than how they’d treated him.

“It’s not your fault your mom fooled around, for God’s sake!” he’d said one morning after Kat’s mother had pointed to Kat’s belly and told her that the baby wouldn’t really be Diné. “You’re family, and that ought to be enough for all of them!”

That afternoon, her grandmother had sent Kat and Gabe on an overnight errand to Tuba City and had sat everyone else down inside the hogaan, making them listen while she’d told them in detail what Kat and Gabe had endured to protect Mesa Butte.

“If any one of you still wants to treat Kat and her man as if they are strangers, then I think that person is out of balance and sick in the heart,” she’d told the family. “I wouldn’t want that sickness here in my home.”

Kat had only learned what had happened when she and Gabe returned the next morning to find her mother gone. But after that night, Kat’s brothers and sisters had begun to treat both her and Gabe with respect and even kindness. As much as it had hurt to think her mother still didn’t care about her, she was enjoying getting to know her brothers and sisters. She and Gabe would be staying until they could hold a First Laugh ceremony for the baby, so she hoped to build strong friendships with them.

“Over there, you can see the two stars we call Hastiin Sik'ai'í.” She pointed to the western horizon. “That means ‘Man With His Legs Spread’ or maybe you would say ‘Squatting Man.’”

“Legs spread?” Gabe nuzzled her neck, his hand sliding over the hard bulge of her belly, beneath the elastic waistband of her skirt and into her panties to cup her. “Tell me more about that.”

“Gabe!” Kat couldn’t help but laugh, the sound turning to a whimper as he began to do what he knew how to do so well, his fingers teasing her, the heel of his hand moving in slow circles just where the pressure felt best. “We shouldn’t… Not here.”

“Yes. Here.” He bit and nipped the skin beneath her ear, his hand relentless. “It’s late. All the kids are in bed. No one’s going to bother us.”

“I… I think Grandma knows we’ve been having sex.”

“Mmm, really?” He chuckled. “Why do you say that?”

Kat shivered as Gabe sucked her earlobe into his mouth. “She… she called us… ‘busy bunnies.’”

He laughed, a deep, sensual sound. “Do you think your big belly gave us away?”

“N-no. Silly goat!” It was getting very hard to think, the heat between her thighs demanding all her attention. “I think… you make… too much noise.”

“I hate to break it to you, rez girl, but you’re the noisy one.” He slid a finger inside her, then two, chuckling softly when she whimpered. “See?”

He stroked her with his fingers until she was on the brink. Then he his shifted his weight, drawing her left leg back over his left thigh, pulling aside the crotch of her panties, and sliding into her from behind with a groan.

His hand still busy between her thighs, he began to move inside her, the rhythm building until he was driving into her hard and fast. Kat tried to be quiet, the sensation inside her almost too intense to bear as he sent them both soaring over that bright, sweet edge, the stars seeming to explode and rain down around them, leaving them breathless and contented in the cool autumn night.

They lay there for a while, until Kat started to drift to sleep.

“Come on, sleepyhead. Let’s get you inside where it’s warm.” Despite her protests that she was warm, Gabe helped her sit, then hopped out of the truck and lifted her down to the ground.

Then it happened.

Kat felt a pop — and warm water gushed out from between her legs.

Gabe looked at the small puddle at her feet, then back up at her. “Honey, I think you’re about to have a baby.”


message 30: by Pamela (new)

Pamela There you go. :-)

That's the original first part of the epilogue to NAKED EDGE. So, yeah, spoilers for anyone who hasn't read the story.


message 31: by MBR (new)

MBR Pamela wrote: "There you go. :-)"

Thank you so much! Dang! Now I feel like re-reading Naked Edge and re-visiting Gabe all over again!! ^_^
Mmm.. maybe I should start with Reece *yummy!* Or Marc! *drool* Or maybe Julian?? Hmm..
Ah! I can never make up my mind about the I-Team men! A little bit of everyone served on silver platter please! ^_~


message 32: by Quinn (new)

Quinn Thank you for sharing that, Pamela. Loved it (of course)!


message 33: by Lady Jayne *~*The Beach Bandida*~* (last edited Dec 05, 2010 02:04AM) (new)

 Lady Jayne *~*The Beach Bandida*~*

I only just saw this. YAY for you, Pamela! Well done!! And yes, along with the other ladies, I want to express my gratitude for all your hard work and sacrificing sleep etc. LOVE the excerpt! Thanks for posting it! I'm eagerly awaiting reading Breaking Point next year!

Have a great rest up before you embark on Connor's book and enjoy your time with your sister!! ^_^


 Lady Jayne *~*The Beach Bandida*~* Pamela, thanks for that more "detailed" version of that scene in Naked Edge, too! *grins* Like MBR, you've got me missing those I-Team men now! I will definitely be re-visiting Gabe soon. ^_~


message 35: by Shawna (new)

Shawna OH WOW! Thanks for sharing that extra epilogue goodness, Pamela! I can't wait for "Breaking Point" for more I-Team hotness!

PS. I don't think anyone else wants to see my happy Zach dance...it's probably a frightening affair...LOL!


message 36: by Mrs. (new)

Mrs. Badass ThaNK YOU!


message 37: by Judi (new)

Judi Thanks for posting the epilogue. I went looking for it last night on your website and couldn't find it.


message 38: by Pamela (new)

Pamela You're welcome, Erika!

You're welcome, Judi!

Yeah, I actually had to really hunt for it. I guess when I rewrote it, I overwrote the original version.I find this in the original manuscript that I sent my editor via e-mail. It was attached to the email -- the whole document for NAKED EDGE. So if I had deleted my old SENT emails, it would be gone. I've saved it separately now.


message 39: by Wendy (new)

Wendy CONGRATULATIONS!

Can't wait to read it.


message 40: by Pamela (new)

Pamela Thanks, Wendy. :-)

Here's the verdict from my agent, who just finished reading the manuscript for Breaking Point:

"This just has a broader focus and more depth than any other RS I have read. It contains truth. About human nature, heroism, and life itself. This is a tour de force and amazingly it is the best book so far IMHO. I think that about each one, I have to admit, and then you actually top that and get even better."

::DEEP SIGH OF RELIEF::

Now I just need to wait to hear what my editor things.

Back to gnawing nails...


message 41: by Lady Jayne *~*The Beach Bandida*~* (last edited Dec 05, 2010 09:15PM) (new)

 Lady Jayne *~*The Beach Bandida*~* That's great feedback from your agent, Pamela! Make sure you don't gnaw your nails to the quick now. That hurts! ^_^

I didn't think it possible, but I'm even more excited to read it now!


message 42: by Beanbag (new)

Beanbag Love What a great thumbs up to get from your agent, Pamela! Congrats. It's nice to see that after so much hard work, eh?


message 43: by MBR (new)

MBR Wow!! That is really good feedback! Congratulations Pamela :>

As Jayne said, that has just whetted our appetite for Zach and Natalie much more than before ^_^


message 44: by ♡Karlyn P♡ (new)

♡Karlyn P♡ Wonderful feedback!!


message 45: by Pamela (new)

Pamela Thanks, everyone. It is a relief.

I hope you all had a great weekend. I started my Christmas season by shopping... For me. :-)

Nothing big. Slippers for my silly feet and a couple of sweaters. I was chilly.

Got MTM done and ready post tomorrow.


message 46: by Keri (new)

Keri Pamela, thanks for giving us the other Naked Edge epilogue, I loved it. With BP I am going to be standing at Borders with my nose pressed to the door glass on May 3rd chanting open...open...open. :-)


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