Juliet Cook's Blog, page 138
October 13, 2013
FREE Ghost Magnet
A new one-of-a-kind, hand-painted pottery GHOST MAGNET has been added to the Blood Pudding Press shop and is available FREE with the next Blood Pudding Press purchaser who claims it.
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October 12, 2013
October 2, 2013
October should make me feel happy (I should make myself feel happy), but...
I am feeling bad, sad, upset at myself and self-hating. I'm a writer who expresses myself in all kinds of ways, but yet in recent years I feel like maybe I have trouble expressing myself the way I want to emotionally to someone I might care about, because I am all maybe maybe maybe, i don't know i don't know i don't know (i don't know how he feels; i don't know or trust how i feel; if I don't know what i want then how the heck am i supposed to express it?), i don't want to sound too intense and scare someone away, i don't want to sound too casual (but often I do sound more casual than i actually feel, or else i'd be ridiculously freaking people out left and right)
i didn't always used to be this way, but these days, i don't even have any confidence in how I feel and why and if my feelings can be trusted
these days anything that even comes remotely close to a relationship involving emotions seems/feels unattainable to me. i'm tired of trying things that don't work right and don't last long and then seem to mutate my ridiculous emotions even more. i don't even take any emotion-based pills and yet my emotions frequently shift from over the top to zoning themselves out into uncaring, overly casual, who gives a fuck mode (even though I do care)
messed up, mixed up, non-trusting, non-trustworthy, emotional feeling/unemotional seeming quadruple sextuplet triple threat and nobody's going to win, because it's not a competition, it's mostly just my failure (or at least that's how i'm feeling today)
i didn't always used to be this way, but these days, i don't even have any confidence in how I feel and why and if my feelings can be trusted
these days anything that even comes remotely close to a relationship involving emotions seems/feels unattainable to me. i'm tired of trying things that don't work right and don't last long and then seem to mutate my ridiculous emotions even more. i don't even take any emotion-based pills and yet my emotions frequently shift from over the top to zoning themselves out into uncaring, overly casual, who gives a fuck mode (even though I do care)
messed up, mixed up, non-trusting, non-trustworthy, emotional feeling/unemotional seeming quadruple sextuplet triple threat and nobody's going to win, because it's not a competition, it's mostly just my failure (or at least that's how i'm feeling today)
September 29, 2013
New Thirteen Myna Birds flock - blood spangled glitter heart yelp
A New Thirteen Myna Birds flock, offering work by Jay Sizemore, Carol Peters, Bekah Steimel, Kristine Snodgrass & Scott Sweeney, Roberta Chloe Verdant, Gary Glauber, John Landry, and PC Vandall is here! - http://13myna.blogspot.com/
"angry as neglected volcanoes - how my heart used to pound - what failure felt like - ornamental gardens with broken statuary - make your skin a diary - deep affection, dark memories - you see pink and she hears red - raw and bloody - a coyote pack’s yelp - dancing on a light beam - blood spangled glitter - blue cake icing"
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Also the Myna Birds are currently accepting submissions for our next Halloween-esque update.
The work you submit does not have to be specifically inspired by or focused upon Halloween, but rather on the dark side in one way or another.
"angry as neglected volcanoes - how my heart used to pound - what failure felt like - ornamental gardens with broken statuary - make your skin a diary - deep affection, dark memories - you see pink and she hears red - raw and bloody - a coyote pack’s yelp - dancing on a light beam - blood spangled glitter - blue cake icing"
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Also the Myna Birds are currently accepting submissions for our next Halloween-esque update.
The work you submit does not have to be specifically inspired by or focused upon Halloween, but rather on the dark side in one way or another.
September 23, 2013
What is up with one word definitions?
Several of my friends have posted a link today about how it's “Invisible Majority Bisexual Pride Day” - and nothing against them posting that - and nothing against bisexual pride - but I'm not a fan of the WORD bisexual - and similarly, I'm not a fan of any of those words that supposedly define you by placing you in a group with one word naming it.
Like for example, if you're a poet, why would you want to define your own creative work as academic or as outsider or as mainstream or as non-mainstream or whatever? What if it's parts of all of those things and more? What if it doesn’t fit into any group name or dynamic?
Maybe I slightly diverge from mainstream sensibilities here, because a lot of people seem to really enjoy being involved in groups. I'm reminded of how some sports fans commit to one group (and dislike the others). Plus how many people define themselves politically as either a democrat or a republican. Plus how many people define themselves religiously/spiritually. This team or that team. This group or that group. This belief or that belief. Rah rah rah. Yes or no, wrong or right, black or white, where do you fit in?
Back to bisexual, obviously it’s not black and white (or all kinds of bright rainbow colors like a lot of the gay pride labels) – it’s “invisible” yet the “majority”, but yet needs to be positioned into a group.
What IS bisexual anyway? How do you define it? Why would you define it?
What if you're a woman who is about 98% attracted to men, chemically and sexually speaking (but have sexually experimented with women and might do so again) - but sure like looking at women (including scantily clad women) physically speaking, maybe even more than you like looking at men physically speaking - but when it comes down to getting close up and naked with someone and having some sort of scintillating sexy physical contact with them, then men are prone to making you tingle way more than other women do - but when it comes to mental/conversational contact, you could go either way. Is that bisexual?
Quite a few women I know who identify themselves as bisexual are mainly predominantly involved with men, relationship-wise. If you’re a woman who is primarily involved with men and/or if you’re a woman who is predominantly attracted to men but is also willing to get physical with other women in order to turn men on, is that bisexual ?
Or is that more of an exhibitionist fetish to turn yourself on? Or both? Or neither?
Everyone is an individual who has their own needs/wants/desires, right?
So why do so many people like to classify themselves into a one word group?
Why are so many people so into DEFINING all kinds of things, including feminism (of which there are many different definitions and varieties) and sexual proclivities (S/M, dominant, submissive, kinky, vanilla, bisexual blah blah blah blah blah…).
I’m not against any of those things per se; I’m mainly just saying I don’t understand why people feel such a need to define and place themselves in a group. Maybe part of the reason is to relate to “like minded others” – but obviously not everyone in the bisexual (or other) group is going to be like minded so...
How do you define these parts of yourself and why do you want to?
Is this post of mine partially derived from an exhibitionist fetish streak?
Just wondering and thinking/expressing out loud. Not defining anything.
Like for example, if you're a poet, why would you want to define your own creative work as academic or as outsider or as mainstream or as non-mainstream or whatever? What if it's parts of all of those things and more? What if it doesn’t fit into any group name or dynamic?
Maybe I slightly diverge from mainstream sensibilities here, because a lot of people seem to really enjoy being involved in groups. I'm reminded of how some sports fans commit to one group (and dislike the others). Plus how many people define themselves politically as either a democrat or a republican. Plus how many people define themselves religiously/spiritually. This team or that team. This group or that group. This belief or that belief. Rah rah rah. Yes or no, wrong or right, black or white, where do you fit in?
Back to bisexual, obviously it’s not black and white (or all kinds of bright rainbow colors like a lot of the gay pride labels) – it’s “invisible” yet the “majority”, but yet needs to be positioned into a group.
What IS bisexual anyway? How do you define it? Why would you define it?
What if you're a woman who is about 98% attracted to men, chemically and sexually speaking (but have sexually experimented with women and might do so again) - but sure like looking at women (including scantily clad women) physically speaking, maybe even more than you like looking at men physically speaking - but when it comes down to getting close up and naked with someone and having some sort of scintillating sexy physical contact with them, then men are prone to making you tingle way more than other women do - but when it comes to mental/conversational contact, you could go either way. Is that bisexual?
Quite a few women I know who identify themselves as bisexual are mainly predominantly involved with men, relationship-wise. If you’re a woman who is primarily involved with men and/or if you’re a woman who is predominantly attracted to men but is also willing to get physical with other women in order to turn men on, is that bisexual ?
Or is that more of an exhibitionist fetish to turn yourself on? Or both? Or neither?
Everyone is an individual who has their own needs/wants/desires, right?
So why do so many people like to classify themselves into a one word group?
Why are so many people so into DEFINING all kinds of things, including feminism (of which there are many different definitions and varieties) and sexual proclivities (S/M, dominant, submissive, kinky, vanilla, bisexual blah blah blah blah blah…).
I’m not against any of those things per se; I’m mainly just saying I don’t understand why people feel such a need to define and place themselves in a group. Maybe part of the reason is to relate to “like minded others” – but obviously not everyone in the bisexual (or other) group is going to be like minded so...
How do you define these parts of yourself and why do you want to?
Is this post of mine partially derived from an exhibitionist fetish streak?
Just wondering and thinking/expressing out loud. Not defining anything.
September 21, 2013
September 17, 2013
Missing Finger Twisty Things
NEW One of a Kind Original Painting, Mixed Media, Textural Hybrid - Different Colors, Threads, and Textures
Available within the Blood Pudding Press shop here - https://www.etsy.com/listing/162962909/missing-finger-twisty-things-one-of-a?ref=listing-shop-header-1
SOLD!
Available within the Blood Pudding Press shop here - https://www.etsy.com/listing/162962909/missing-finger-twisty-things-one-of-a?ref=listing-shop-header-1
SOLD!
We Don't Stop Here (New Review of Older Lynch inspired poetry chapbook)
"in which her fingers spread her blue nails shed
like dead sequins"
A tiny snippet from Juliet Cook's poem "Lip Synching", which appears within a brand new review by Sabotage Reviews of an older poetry chapbook, "We Don't Stop Here", based on the David Lynch film Mulholland Drive and published by The Private Press in 2008.
The whole review - http://sabotagereviews.com/2013/09/17/we-dont-stop-here-ed-by-ivy-alvarez/
The Private Press (which has published several different Lynch film inspired chapbooks) - http://zoo.f2s.com/privatepress/store.html
like dead sequins"
A tiny snippet from Juliet Cook's poem "Lip Synching", which appears within a brand new review by Sabotage Reviews of an older poetry chapbook, "We Don't Stop Here", based on the David Lynch film Mulholland Drive and published by The Private Press in 2008.
The whole review - http://sabotagereviews.com/2013/09/17/we-dont-stop-here-ed-by-ivy-alvarez/
The Private Press (which has published several different Lynch film inspired chapbooks) - http://zoo.f2s.com/privatepress/store.html
