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Back to school

I never thought I’d get to write one of these – I’ve seen so many children shown off on their first days back to the next level-up of school, and I’ve always missed out – this year I get to JOIN IN! It’s terribly exciting! I want you all to help me celebrate one of…

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I can’t quite believe I’m writing these words, but this is my last TToT for a month!!! For absolutely the VERY BEST of reasons – my trip to Murica is FINALLY HERE! And that’s why I’m writing this well, well in advance (no whips needed this week, Erin) on Wednesday evening; because there is SO…

On Impotence and Biting Monkeys

Since childhood, I’ve had safe spaces in my imagination. Perhaps because reality often seemed to afford so few of them. Or because the safety of those dark, comforting nooks and crannies I squeezed into as a child to escape painful situations was so rapidly compromised. I still love being in tiny spaces, hemmed in by…

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At some point you’re going to get fed up of my inconsistency (if that’s not already a thing) and begin to understand why I have ten faithful co-hosts, the majority of whom are far better at actually DOING the hopping, unlike me, who seems to fall afoul of Real, and ends up just…not. I’m sad…

I probably won’t have children of my own

After everything which has happened, and all the complications, health, mental-health and relationship challenges I’ve faced, I feel (right now) as though if I were going to have kids, I’d need to meet someone worth having them with yesterday. I checked yesterday – I didn’t meet anyone. So I’m over at Club Mid @ Scary…

What’s in my heart right now

I had a fabulously hilarious post planned, all about my ability to trip over the un-trip-overable (really!) but as the evening’s worn on and I haven’t written it and haven’t written it, it’s dawned on me that I’m blocked because I have other things bubbling away in my heart. Until I write the words and…

PROUD to be one of the “seven”

Jenny told me she and Gabriel were going to be in the newspaper. Initially I thought this would be a good thing, because it might spark people’s interest in them, and engender some help. The reality was the furthest thing from my hope, and even Jenny knew that it might be a double-edged sword. The…

Ten Things of Thankful 114 #10Thankful

I have decided that I might be a ‘touchy feely’ person after all, in spite of being English and uptight and most definitely not into showing affection for anyone, ever. Perhaps this will come as no surprise to people who know me In Real; after all, the people to whom I’m closest will have undoubtedly…

Autumnal Anxiety

It’s coming again. Even whilst (some of) the days are still infused with bright sunshine and glorious warmth, I can tell it’s there, lurking, just around the corner. It’s dragging at the edges of my mind and turning them to cold and darkness and that damp smell of rotting leaves. It’s crumbling away the foundations…

Ten Things of Thankful 113 #10Thankful

Understandably, the first week back after a debilitating illness like shingles was never going to go all that smoothly, but I had absolutely no idea the troughs and peaks which awaited me this week. And thank goodness, too – I sometimes think that if we had access to a functioning crystal ball, we’d none of…