Patti Zarn's Blog
July 22, 2011
Slapping Life in the Face
My sister called me a few days ago to tell me that the wife of a family friend had committed suicide. I've since realized that I'm probably not a good person to talk to immediately after a tragedy such as this, at least not when the pain from the wounds are still oozing from the humans left behind who are picking up the pieces. I'm not a great person to talk to because of my vantage point of Knowing without any doubt that we are eternal beings (having experienced our eternal existence dozens of times myself). My mindset that even those left behind have much to gain from such adversity doesn't go over well with raw emotions and wounds.
Even still, I'm human with my own raw emotions and it is the 14yr old son she left behind that my heart aches for the most. Tragic and sad, yes! But again, his mother is still alive on the other side. When they eventually see each other on the other side it will have been but a moment since they were together and when you look at the timeline of our eternal selves it was no time at all. (Eternity is super long! no disrespect intended) Until then, he has the opportunity here on Earth to gain great strength from this experience if he chooses to.
For me personally, although I still go through the standard stages of grief (denial, anger, grief etc) when something like this happens, I do it rather quickly and end up with the bigger picture conclusion. The conclusion: that everything happens for a reason and even in the case of someone taking their own life we have to shift into an acceptance of that person. In this case, sending the wife our love, compassion and understanding that she was in so much pain that she couldn't cope in her own skin. Yearning for that relief she ended it. I may want to judge her to the point of feeling like it's a slap in the face of God, but I don't think God does. Although our Creator must be a tiny bit disappointed that she threw away this gift of creation that came from Him. He'll probably slap her on the wrist and suggest that she come back and try again. (That's symbolic of the energy of her reprimand, since I see God as the Energy that makes up everything opposed to an actual person, unless He chooses to materialize that way)
In my opinion, suicide is one of the most damaging things one can do for soul growth, even worse than being the murderer of another human. Souls who actually carry it through and end their life, or had some part in their own physical death such as lesser offenses like drunk driving, must take responsibility that they had a hand in their own physical death. Of course, its all relative in everything we do anymore.
But doing it and thinking about doing it are two different things entirely. For those who have contemplated suicide: that has NOWHERE NEAR the same energy of disrespect for the human experience. Its a thought that is not fulfilled. HUGE difference. Its a call for help to deal with your pain. Even an attempt at suicide is not actually completing the act and therefore still not on the same level.
But let me add: you are a brave soul to have come into this life to deal with so much. But think about this- you wanted this. You agreed to "go for it" and gain tremendous growth during this lifetime. So, buck up and get 'er done!
I have never contemplated suicide, so it's hard to be in the shoes of people who have. But people who contemplate "ending it" - but don't ever follow through - are looking for solutions to their pain. I look for solutions to my pain too. So, from that I can speak.
If you trace your pain back far enough you will find that it has to do with the separation anxiety you have of feeling whole. It's as if something is missing and you don't know what it is. That empty feeling will be filled when you are in the vibration vicinity of the energy that makes you whole / the place from which you came. Its a place that feels like the purest of pure energy of love, joy and happiness. (Granted these are just words that we have made up in our world which somewhat match the quality of this vibration I speak of and are the closest to describing who your soul truly is) That pure love, joy and happiness is where you came from and that's why it's so painful to be apart from it in this "hell".
Just for the sake of simplifying the term "Pure Love, Joy, Happiness"- lets shorten it to the word God.
The good news is that God is here too!
While you are here, start with seeking within to the point that you appreciate that this is a great opportunity and the pain you have today is but a moment on the timeline of your existence. Raise your vibration to a manageable place through finding appreciate and gratitude wherever you can. Pain is a wonderful thing when you embrace it-stop resisting it- for when you learn to love your pain it puts you in a receptive mode to allow your innate state of Enlightenment/Love/Joy/Happiness to enter and it taps into your greatest opportunities in life. It will give you tremendous growth! I promise you - that is what you wanted!
So release the shame and guilt you have about the past. Embrace your power and look with enthusiasm toward the future from the perspective of your eternal soul with the attitude of "I chose to deal with this now!"
Reach for Peace,
Patti Zarn
http://www.pattizarn.com/
Even still, I'm human with my own raw emotions and it is the 14yr old son she left behind that my heart aches for the most. Tragic and sad, yes! But again, his mother is still alive on the other side. When they eventually see each other on the other side it will have been but a moment since they were together and when you look at the timeline of our eternal selves it was no time at all. (Eternity is super long! no disrespect intended) Until then, he has the opportunity here on Earth to gain great strength from this experience if he chooses to.
For me personally, although I still go through the standard stages of grief (denial, anger, grief etc) when something like this happens, I do it rather quickly and end up with the bigger picture conclusion. The conclusion: that everything happens for a reason and even in the case of someone taking their own life we have to shift into an acceptance of that person. In this case, sending the wife our love, compassion and understanding that she was in so much pain that she couldn't cope in her own skin. Yearning for that relief she ended it. I may want to judge her to the point of feeling like it's a slap in the face of God, but I don't think God does. Although our Creator must be a tiny bit disappointed that she threw away this gift of creation that came from Him. He'll probably slap her on the wrist and suggest that she come back and try again. (That's symbolic of the energy of her reprimand, since I see God as the Energy that makes up everything opposed to an actual person, unless He chooses to materialize that way)
In my opinion, suicide is one of the most damaging things one can do for soul growth, even worse than being the murderer of another human. Souls who actually carry it through and end their life, or had some part in their own physical death such as lesser offenses like drunk driving, must take responsibility that they had a hand in their own physical death. Of course, its all relative in everything we do anymore.
But doing it and thinking about doing it are two different things entirely. For those who have contemplated suicide: that has NOWHERE NEAR the same energy of disrespect for the human experience. Its a thought that is not fulfilled. HUGE difference. Its a call for help to deal with your pain. Even an attempt at suicide is not actually completing the act and therefore still not on the same level.
But let me add: you are a brave soul to have come into this life to deal with so much. But think about this- you wanted this. You agreed to "go for it" and gain tremendous growth during this lifetime. So, buck up and get 'er done!
I have never contemplated suicide, so it's hard to be in the shoes of people who have. But people who contemplate "ending it" - but don't ever follow through - are looking for solutions to their pain. I look for solutions to my pain too. So, from that I can speak.
If you trace your pain back far enough you will find that it has to do with the separation anxiety you have of feeling whole. It's as if something is missing and you don't know what it is. That empty feeling will be filled when you are in the vibration vicinity of the energy that makes you whole / the place from which you came. Its a place that feels like the purest of pure energy of love, joy and happiness. (Granted these are just words that we have made up in our world which somewhat match the quality of this vibration I speak of and are the closest to describing who your soul truly is) That pure love, joy and happiness is where you came from and that's why it's so painful to be apart from it in this "hell".
Just for the sake of simplifying the term "Pure Love, Joy, Happiness"- lets shorten it to the word God.
The good news is that God is here too!
While you are here, start with seeking within to the point that you appreciate that this is a great opportunity and the pain you have today is but a moment on the timeline of your existence. Raise your vibration to a manageable place through finding appreciate and gratitude wherever you can. Pain is a wonderful thing when you embrace it-stop resisting it- for when you learn to love your pain it puts you in a receptive mode to allow your innate state of Enlightenment/Love/Joy/Happiness to enter and it taps into your greatest opportunities in life. It will give you tremendous growth! I promise you - that is what you wanted!
So release the shame and guilt you have about the past. Embrace your power and look with enthusiasm toward the future from the perspective of your eternal soul with the attitude of "I chose to deal with this now!"
Reach for Peace,
Patti Zarn
http://www.pattizarn.com/
June 24, 2011
Q&A 1 The Most Asked Question
Q&A with author of MAINSTREAM MYSTIC - Patti Zarn
"Are you going to write another book?"
"Are you going to write another book?"
June 19, 2011
June 14, 2011
Q&A Author Patti Zarn. Travel and Dimensions
Q&A Author Patti Zarn answers reader questions from her book MAINSTREAM MYSTIC. Traveling, the boys and dimensions.
www.pattizarn.com Read the INTRODUCTION for free.
www.pattizarn.com Read the INTRODUCTION for free.
June 12, 2011
CELESTINE PROPHECY meets MAINSTREAM MYSTIC
Update from a story told in MAINSTREAM MYSTIC. This is surrounding synchronicities with the book Celestine Prophecy that are surfacing again in my life and the lives of my friends.
Here we are seven years later (and its not done manifesting yet!) SO, the point is to show the viewer that things happen for a reason - even when it may not be clear at the time.
VIEW VIDEO BLOG HERE: http://mainstreammystic.blogspot.com/...
Here we are seven years later (and its not done manifesting yet!) SO, the point is to show the viewer that things happen for a reason - even when it may not be clear at the time.
VIEW VIDEO BLOG HERE: http://mainstreammystic.blogspot.com/...
May 16, 2011
OMG! I'm a finalist in the 2011 Book Awards
MAINSTREAM MYSTIC is a finalist in the National Indie Excellence 2011 Book Awards!!! I am honored...it is very exciting to be acknowledged by the industry.
I spent the last two years learning an entire industry (writing, editing, publishing, printing...) on my own. I am a housewife from Florida competing against seasoned writers and PhD authors. If I can do - any one can! All it truly takes is determination, inspiration and Trust!
Reach for Peace,
Patti Zarn
author of MAINSTREAM MYSTIC: The True Story about the Struggle to Blend Everyday Life with a Destined Path of Enlightenment
View the book trailer or visit the website to read the INTRODUCTION www.pattizarn.com
http://www.amazon.com/Mainstream-Myst...
I spent the last two years learning an entire industry (writing, editing, publishing, printing...) on my own. I am a housewife from Florida competing against seasoned writers and PhD authors. If I can do - any one can! All it truly takes is determination, inspiration and Trust!
Reach for Peace,
Patti Zarn
author of MAINSTREAM MYSTIC: The True Story about the Struggle to Blend Everyday Life with a Destined Path of Enlightenment
View the book trailer or visit the website to read the INTRODUCTION www.pattizarn.com
http://www.amazon.com/Mainstream-Myst...
April 22, 2011
The Future: According to Me
People, who are in the age range of 35-70 years old, are witness to both a life with the electronic-age and a childhood of growing up without it. It was a huge leap from one way of life to the other. It didn't seem that way perhaps, but think of all the ways your life would be affected without the new technology.
I was reminded this week (through a series of synchronicities) just how inter-connected our current Information-Age is to our evolution as a planet and what a possible pole shift could do to change how that "looks" to us in our everyday lives.
My son came home from school this past week with a trunk full of books that he got from the school library. He informed me, rather matter-of-factly, that the school had no need for books any longer since "no one uses them anyway." (The library staff will still be in place because the library will be used for the digital media, research computers and study period.)
This news was hard to swallow. A library with no books! What has the world come to? Well, it's the sign of the times. Life and business' everywhere (notably schools, bookstores and libraries) have all been affected by the Internet.
A few weeks ago, I wrote about my great-grandfather's war letters that I will be compiling into book form to preserve. My children will have no such tangible records for their great-grandchildren to hold. Letters are a lost historical art. Heck, the headline this morning (another synchronicity that affirmed my direction with this blog post) read that schools will be taking penmanship out of the curriculum, teaching typing instead.
It became clear to me that part of the Shift is indeed connected by this age of information. It's the catalyst for the consciousness shift /effect that will occur afterward.
We've all heard it said that it's an exciting time to be alive. Heck, I've said it!
"Exciting" in the bigger evolutionary picture. We will be making history because we are living at the time when the Mayan calendar is coming to an end (Dec. 21, 2012) which is believed to mark the end of an era and a time of accelerated human evolution. Also a time where speculation of the end-of-times is upon us.
My opinion? No, it won't be the end of the world, however; the earth changes that are coming will turn it upside down. But, that's the exciting part! It's the perfect time to do so because right now - we still have those of us that know life without all of that technology. We are still here to help rebuild the "old-fashion" way AND we have all the new generation to rebuild the "new-fashion" technology (if it were to happen too far in the future then the old ways would have been lost.) Cell phones, computers...
What is the Internet? A web of information- which is eerily similar to how science is now describing creative energy of the Universe. What will happen if we have a pole shift and we lose all this communication technology? (Scientist say we are due a pole shift, historically speaking.)
If the earth's magnetic poles switch they will fry all modern equipment. The pulse of EMS's will surge everything, including us. We have EM particles within us too. And I speculate, that the surge will enhance our conscious awareness.
When everything burns out, we will have to go back to the basics -which our generation knows how to do. We will have to start over and rebuild all the wires to accommodate the electromagnetic switch - which the new generation created and works on everyday. If a major earth change happens, it we will take years to fully come back to the point that we are presently. Maybe taking a decade to do so.
I've heard it say that the new age we are coming into is that of the feminine, or Goddess, since we've been in a masculine era. But, I feel the Goddess era was before this current one and NOW we are coming into a more balanced time where both qualities will make for an even more powerful expression of our innate spiritual qualities and connection to our Creator.
Information and Knowledge is literally in the air. The creative energy that made this Universe is what I like to think of as God's Mind and His Thoughts. The mind of God is also the macrocosm of our own consciousness. So, if God's Mind is what we tap into to create our reality than after the pole shift, a balance of energy qualities (yin/yang), and the low quantity of EM's at the time, will raise (or trigger) our consciousness. Potentially opening our higher senses to realms we had previously had a veil over.
Now, if all the content in this post is "crazy talk" to you, I get it. Not that long ago, I wouldn't have wanted to think about it either. It doesn't matter, because if it happens (check the solar flare and weather statistics) you'll adjust and be just fine. I'm not worried about you. ;-))
But for me: I hope I'm right, I'm excited and will welcome the change. It's a great time to be alive!
Reach for Peace,
Patti Zarn
author of Mainstream Mystic
I was reminded this week (through a series of synchronicities) just how inter-connected our current Information-Age is to our evolution as a planet and what a possible pole shift could do to change how that "looks" to us in our everyday lives.
My son came home from school this past week with a trunk full of books that he got from the school library. He informed me, rather matter-of-factly, that the school had no need for books any longer since "no one uses them anyway." (The library staff will still be in place because the library will be used for the digital media, research computers and study period.)
This news was hard to swallow. A library with no books! What has the world come to? Well, it's the sign of the times. Life and business' everywhere (notably schools, bookstores and libraries) have all been affected by the Internet.
A few weeks ago, I wrote about my great-grandfather's war letters that I will be compiling into book form to preserve. My children will have no such tangible records for their great-grandchildren to hold. Letters are a lost historical art. Heck, the headline this morning (another synchronicity that affirmed my direction with this blog post) read that schools will be taking penmanship out of the curriculum, teaching typing instead.
It became clear to me that part of the Shift is indeed connected by this age of information. It's the catalyst for the consciousness shift /effect that will occur afterward.
We've all heard it said that it's an exciting time to be alive. Heck, I've said it!
"Exciting" in the bigger evolutionary picture. We will be making history because we are living at the time when the Mayan calendar is coming to an end (Dec. 21, 2012) which is believed to mark the end of an era and a time of accelerated human evolution. Also a time where speculation of the end-of-times is upon us.
My opinion? No, it won't be the end of the world, however; the earth changes that are coming will turn it upside down. But, that's the exciting part! It's the perfect time to do so because right now - we still have those of us that know life without all of that technology. We are still here to help rebuild the "old-fashion" way AND we have all the new generation to rebuild the "new-fashion" technology (if it were to happen too far in the future then the old ways would have been lost.) Cell phones, computers...
What is the Internet? A web of information- which is eerily similar to how science is now describing creative energy of the Universe. What will happen if we have a pole shift and we lose all this communication technology? (Scientist say we are due a pole shift, historically speaking.)
If the earth's magnetic poles switch they will fry all modern equipment. The pulse of EMS's will surge everything, including us. We have EM particles within us too. And I speculate, that the surge will enhance our conscious awareness.
When everything burns out, we will have to go back to the basics -which our generation knows how to do. We will have to start over and rebuild all the wires to accommodate the electromagnetic switch - which the new generation created and works on everyday. If a major earth change happens, it we will take years to fully come back to the point that we are presently. Maybe taking a decade to do so.
I've heard it say that the new age we are coming into is that of the feminine, or Goddess, since we've been in a masculine era. But, I feel the Goddess era was before this current one and NOW we are coming into a more balanced time where both qualities will make for an even more powerful expression of our innate spiritual qualities and connection to our Creator.
Information and Knowledge is literally in the air. The creative energy that made this Universe is what I like to think of as God's Mind and His Thoughts. The mind of God is also the macrocosm of our own consciousness. So, if God's Mind is what we tap into to create our reality than after the pole shift, a balance of energy qualities (yin/yang), and the low quantity of EM's at the time, will raise (or trigger) our consciousness. Potentially opening our higher senses to realms we had previously had a veil over.
Now, if all the content in this post is "crazy talk" to you, I get it. Not that long ago, I wouldn't have wanted to think about it either. It doesn't matter, because if it happens (check the solar flare and weather statistics) you'll adjust and be just fine. I'm not worried about you. ;-))
But for me: I hope I'm right, I'm excited and will welcome the change. It's a great time to be alive!
Reach for Peace,
Patti Zarn
author of Mainstream Mystic
April 21, 2011
March 26, 2011
Your Angels Will Hit You Upside Your Head!
I had the title of this post -"How To Listen to the Signs and Find Your Joy!
Yuck! That title is so vanilla. I liked: "If At First You Don't Listen, Your Angels Will Hit You Upside Your Head," or, "How I Discovered My Joy Today On Top of a Pile of Dust." A good title will get your attention long enough that you might read my ramblings below. Fingers Crossed. ;-))
It is my style to inspire through my own experiences, hence the birth of the book MAINSTREAM MYSTIC. This post is no different. We are led ever-so gently right to where we are fated to be. But do we listen? I hope you do, I know I have learned to listen. And, I've found that life's questions are so much easier to answer when we are open to hearing that higher guidance that is with us all.
Here's the latest events going on in my world...
My friends and family are often curious as to what's going on spiritually or mystically for me. 9 out of 10 times my answer goes something like this:
"I don't know."
Oh sorry, that was vague.
"I don't know. Everything and nothing? I could elaborate by telling you that something is swirling around but I don't have all the pieces yet. For instance, this week it's something about France. I keep hearing France or the French. I had a dream about a French guy (like I mentioned in the last post), France is in the news regarding Libya, it's mentioned in some old family letters I am reading, I've noticed the word in other's daily speech or on television shows, it's just everywhere! Rather, I am noticing it everywhere. So, I know there is something to it and I will just allow it to come together and then I will Know. I'll Know when I know, until then I keep the attitude of 'what's next?' which keeps me in a receptive mode to allow magic."
This really is what's been happening the past few weeks. France.
I wondered, "Is it Mackey's past life? (referring to the last post titled Missing the Magic Moment). Or "Is it about the current events?" It could be about something new gathering speed and preparing to enter into my life, like a trip to France perhaps?! (wishful thinking ;-))
Then, inevitably, something else will be brewing down the mystical lane so I will let it go for the time being -never knowing which "things that are brewing" are connected to each other. But, here is how this France thing came together finally:
Last week, Cabot (8yrs) made a prophetic comment, seemingly out-of-the-blue. He said to me, "I wonder what instrument Mackey will want for Christmas next year."
Every year, it does seem that Mackey requests a new musical instrument as his big Christmas gift. Last year, he wanted a ukulele. He will generally master whichever one he gets and then teach himself a new one.
A few days later, I was sitting in the living room with both boys when Mackey said, "Mom, I want a violin or a cello for my next instrument."
Cabot and I laughed. I told Mack that Christmas was quite a ways away. (Lightbulb went off), "But...we have Gamama's flute buried in the chest right there. You want to give it a go?"
"YES!"
Stored in "the chest"(the carved wooden chest is my favorite family heirloom and material possession, see photo below) is my mother's childhood flute - along with old photos, family silver and antique knickknacks. Among the collection of items is a box of old letters that my great-grandfather had written. I've never had the desire to read through them. Probably just trivial chatter that's written on old dusty paper that would just make me sneeze. I had forgotten we had them and I doubt anyone- through the years- had ever read them. It's been years since I had even opened the box. But admittedly, my interest in genealogy has increased dramatically since that time. So, thus I began the slow task of reading through the hundred, or so, letters this week.
On about letter #50, I begun to realize that hidden within the daily mundane exchanges is a real story. One letter standing on its own has no depth, but together they build a short memoir of the struggles this young man faced as an ill soldier who had gone overseas to war. That's World War I....... IN FRANCE!
But what does it mean in the synchronistic sense? How does it fit in? As I sat and contemplated the possibilities of this just yesterday, a friend (her family is from Austria- who's Archduke's assassination was the catalyst for the WWI) called to tell me an update on the current events with France! OMG!
Let me ask you something...Are you saying to yourself, "This is just a coincidence that she's hearing France alot"?
Stop doing that! I am telling you that there is rhyme and reason to everything in this Universe!
So, this morning... as we gathered in the living room, I started to catch my son up on what was happening in the letters saga up to the point that I had read thus far. Our young soldier has just gotten word that the war may be over and people are dancing in the streets. He can see them from his hospital balcony which is overlooking the cafes in Nice,France- and he has a beautiful view of the sea...
As I picked up the next letter on the top of the stack, it hit me!
I am to publish these letters in honor of my Great-Grandfather, 2nd Leuit. George "Rainy" Martin.
That's it! As soon as that epiphany hit me it was like a weight had been lifted. The heavy weight of not-knowing was gone and I didn't know it was even there! The air changed and I have been walking on a cloud ever since. Now I know what I am to do! And I will. I will compile the letters into book form.
I know that similar stories have been done, dozens of them in fact.(Hemingway's for one). This project will not be literary genius like his, nor is the content as historically worthy as others, but his letters are NO DOUBT historically significant and I am honored to bring them to life. If nothing else, it's a great way to preserve them for our own family history.
I feel so blessed to have this piece of the puzzle in place so that I could gain the clarity I needed to see this message, and so I begin the next chapter of my journey.
WHOA! I am so excited!
So, "How To Listen to the Signs to Find Your Joy!"???? You just did.
In some way, just hearing my story puts it in your consciousness and you will be more apt to follow your own. It's not hard, it's natural and innate within us. Just don't resist it.
Love and JOY JOY JOY be with you always.
And in memory of "Rainy", I will sign off as he did in each letter...
"May God Keep You Safe and Well" ,
Patti Zarn
Yuck! That title is so vanilla. I liked: "If At First You Don't Listen, Your Angels Will Hit You Upside Your Head," or, "How I Discovered My Joy Today On Top of a Pile of Dust." A good title will get your attention long enough that you might read my ramblings below. Fingers Crossed. ;-))
It is my style to inspire through my own experiences, hence the birth of the book MAINSTREAM MYSTIC. This post is no different. We are led ever-so gently right to where we are fated to be. But do we listen? I hope you do, I know I have learned to listen. And, I've found that life's questions are so much easier to answer when we are open to hearing that higher guidance that is with us all.
Here's the latest events going on in my world...
My friends and family are often curious as to what's going on spiritually or mystically for me. 9 out of 10 times my answer goes something like this:
"I don't know."
Oh sorry, that was vague.
"I don't know. Everything and nothing? I could elaborate by telling you that something is swirling around but I don't have all the pieces yet. For instance, this week it's something about France. I keep hearing France or the French. I had a dream about a French guy (like I mentioned in the last post), France is in the news regarding Libya, it's mentioned in some old family letters I am reading, I've noticed the word in other's daily speech or on television shows, it's just everywhere! Rather, I am noticing it everywhere. So, I know there is something to it and I will just allow it to come together and then I will Know. I'll Know when I know, until then I keep the attitude of 'what's next?' which keeps me in a receptive mode to allow magic."
This really is what's been happening the past few weeks. France.
I wondered, "Is it Mackey's past life? (referring to the last post titled Missing the Magic Moment). Or "Is it about the current events?" It could be about something new gathering speed and preparing to enter into my life, like a trip to France perhaps?! (wishful thinking ;-))
Then, inevitably, something else will be brewing down the mystical lane so I will let it go for the time being -never knowing which "things that are brewing" are connected to each other. But, here is how this France thing came together finally:
Last week, Cabot (8yrs) made a prophetic comment, seemingly out-of-the-blue. He said to me, "I wonder what instrument Mackey will want for Christmas next year."
Every year, it does seem that Mackey requests a new musical instrument as his big Christmas gift. Last year, he wanted a ukulele. He will generally master whichever one he gets and then teach himself a new one.
A few days later, I was sitting in the living room with both boys when Mackey said, "Mom, I want a violin or a cello for my next instrument."
Cabot and I laughed. I told Mack that Christmas was quite a ways away. (Lightbulb went off), "But...we have Gamama's flute buried in the chest right there. You want to give it a go?"
"YES!"
Stored in "the chest"(the carved wooden chest is my favorite family heirloom and material possession, see photo below) is my mother's childhood flute - along with old photos, family silver and antique knickknacks. Among the collection of items is a box of old letters that my great-grandfather had written. I've never had the desire to read through them. Probably just trivial chatter that's written on old dusty paper that would just make me sneeze. I had forgotten we had them and I doubt anyone- through the years- had ever read them. It's been years since I had even opened the box. But admittedly, my interest in genealogy has increased dramatically since that time. So, thus I began the slow task of reading through the hundred, or so, letters this week.
On about letter #50, I begun to realize that hidden within the daily mundane exchanges is a real story. One letter standing on its own has no depth, but together they build a short memoir of the struggles this young man faced as an ill soldier who had gone overseas to war. That's World War I....... IN FRANCE! But what does it mean in the synchronistic sense? How does it fit in? As I sat and contemplated the possibilities of this just yesterday, a friend (her family is from Austria- who's Archduke's assassination was the catalyst for the WWI) called to tell me an update on the current events with France! OMG!
Let me ask you something...Are you saying to yourself, "This is just a coincidence that she's hearing France alot"?
Stop doing that! I am telling you that there is rhyme and reason to everything in this Universe!
So, this morning... as we gathered in the living room, I started to catch my son up on what was happening in the letters saga up to the point that I had read thus far. Our young soldier has just gotten word that the war may be over and people are dancing in the streets. He can see them from his hospital balcony which is overlooking the cafes in Nice,France- and he has a beautiful view of the sea...
As I picked up the next letter on the top of the stack, it hit me!
I am to publish these letters in honor of my Great-Grandfather, 2nd Leuit. George "Rainy" Martin.
That's it! As soon as that epiphany hit me it was like a weight had been lifted. The heavy weight of not-knowing was gone and I didn't know it was even there! The air changed and I have been walking on a cloud ever since. Now I know what I am to do! And I will. I will compile the letters into book form.
I know that similar stories have been done, dozens of them in fact.(Hemingway's for one). This project will not be literary genius like his, nor is the content as historically worthy as others, but his letters are NO DOUBT historically significant and I am honored to bring them to life. If nothing else, it's a great way to preserve them for our own family history.
I feel so blessed to have this piece of the puzzle in place so that I could gain the clarity I needed to see this message, and so I begin the next chapter of my journey.
WHOA! I am so excited!
So, "How To Listen to the Signs to Find Your Joy!"???? You just did.
In some way, just hearing my story puts it in your consciousness and you will be more apt to follow your own. It's not hard, it's natural and innate within us. Just don't resist it.
Love and JOY JOY JOY be with you always.
And in memory of "Rainy", I will sign off as he did in each letter...
"May God Keep You Safe and Well" ,
Patti Zarn
March 22, 2011
Missing the Magic Moment
~~So, last week was an emotional and busy week for me. My dear friend, Jeanette ("Opposites Attract" in the book), fell down outside of her house and busted her face up so bad that you wouldn't recognize her if you knew her. The shades of black, blue and purple on her face would have been exquisite had they not been smeared with the color of red that the blood provided.
Being a squeamish person, I had to suck it up because I was the one who took her to the ER and cared for her afterward, and now I have the visual singed into my brain of the hole that went clear through her lip to her teeth (and now you have it too! Sorry)
The week before this, I had a nagging concerned for her well being. I even called her last week, "Are you okay? I just don't want anything to happen to you."
She teased me, "Do you know something that I don't know?"
"No, I've just been worried about you lately." She's a typical 73 year old and is always telling me about her aches and pains. She had gone to her general doctor the week before and I was afraid she wasn't telling me something with all the health issues she's had in the past, I figure that was why I was worried.
But after her fall, I made peace with the fact that all her wounds were superficial. And if that was the worse thing that happened to her then we'd both be okay!
"But other than that Mrs. Lincoln, how was your day?"
Well, its actually been a beautiful week filled with little nuances of magic. Little things that add up to putting me in a really peaceful place despite my dear friends continued need of care and the emotional drain that it has taken on me (She has been stronger than I have and it's not my face!) I get upset seeing roadkill. Seriously, it will ruin my day.
My kids say, "Why do you even look Mom?"
"To say a pray for the little guy."
~~But onto the lighter side of this post: I continue to receive emails and phone calls from readers of Mainstream Mystic and the blog, telling me about their amazing sychronicites associated with them reading my book. Its fantastic and so inspiring that it really kept me going this past week. So, thank you to each and every one of you! (lightbulb) I should keep a running compilation and put into book form for us.
~~Another little magically moment was when Mackey (my 16yr. old) came in to tell me that he had a dream of a song. He wanted to remember it and play the song on his guitar. Wouldn't that be cool if he wrote his first song because of a dream he had. Paul McCartney had a dream where he heard "Yesterday" and woke to play it for his fellow Beatles. Some inventors dream of their inventions beforehand too.
A intuitive woman once told me that Mackey was the reincarnation of Jim Morrison of The Doors. I just told him that (since he's older and the subject came up) but I hadn't told him before. I did research Morrison because all I knew was he was a rocker and drug addict. Says he was a genius poet and writer and moved to France in the end (and I had a dream about a thin young man with long hair who spoke French that morning of Mackey's dream) and Morrison was born right here in St. Pete, Florida by us.
~~Another VERY COOL experience happened: My mother came for a visit!! (from beyond the veil). I hadn't seen her in awhile.
Bo had gotten up early for work and as I lay there contemplating my day..the energy in the room changed dramatically. I could sort of move my conscious awareness in-and-out of the shifting energy. She stood at my head and was pouring this energy through me. It was fantastic! I kept turning around to see her and she snapped at me to 'sit still!' So I just reached up and held her hands while she did what she was doing. Then it faded and I feel back to sleep in this lingering, soothing, energy. It was really cool and felt different than the energy I felt before. I don't really know how to put it into words.
I was thinking that my mother was helping with shifting my energy and perhaps, assisting with bringing in all the energy that has to do with the Shift. I was so happy for her and excited that she finally got to do this sort of work. She always wanted it while she was here, but never quite got there.
~~This past weekend, my family was relaxing out on the dock. We had spent the day at the Boyscout Pinewood Derby race. (Cabot came in #1 in his Pack and #2 Overall Best in Show) Enjoying the weather and the water, Bowen and I were reminiscing about the times that we consider to be the best time of our lives. The days when our mothers were here and we shared in those "firsts" together. Like getting married, then pregnant, then the first child was born. The "good ole' days."
Our boys were goofing around, laughing and joking with each other. And it hit me... I said to Bo, "In the not too distant future, we will be reflecting on 'this time in our life' and saying that these were the best of times. Here we are almost mourning times gone by when the beauty is right here. Who knows what tomorrow will bring. Look at Japan, I bet they'd give anything to go back to the rut they were in two weeks ago." (I was generalizing with my chosen words but just making a point.)
So the moral of this blog is: Appreciate today - for it will soon be your fondest memory.
How was your week?
Reach for Peace,
Patti Zarn
Being a squeamish person, I had to suck it up because I was the one who took her to the ER and cared for her afterward, and now I have the visual singed into my brain of the hole that went clear through her lip to her teeth (and now you have it too! Sorry)
The week before this, I had a nagging concerned for her well being. I even called her last week, "Are you okay? I just don't want anything to happen to you."
She teased me, "Do you know something that I don't know?"
"No, I've just been worried about you lately." She's a typical 73 year old and is always telling me about her aches and pains. She had gone to her general doctor the week before and I was afraid she wasn't telling me something with all the health issues she's had in the past, I figure that was why I was worried.
But after her fall, I made peace with the fact that all her wounds were superficial. And if that was the worse thing that happened to her then we'd both be okay!
"But other than that Mrs. Lincoln, how was your day?"
Well, its actually been a beautiful week filled with little nuances of magic. Little things that add up to putting me in a really peaceful place despite my dear friends continued need of care and the emotional drain that it has taken on me (She has been stronger than I have and it's not my face!) I get upset seeing roadkill. Seriously, it will ruin my day.
My kids say, "Why do you even look Mom?"
"To say a pray for the little guy."
~~But onto the lighter side of this post: I continue to receive emails and phone calls from readers of Mainstream Mystic and the blog, telling me about their amazing sychronicites associated with them reading my book. Its fantastic and so inspiring that it really kept me going this past week. So, thank you to each and every one of you! (lightbulb) I should keep a running compilation and put into book form for us.
~~Another little magically moment was when Mackey (my 16yr. old) came in to tell me that he had a dream of a song. He wanted to remember it and play the song on his guitar. Wouldn't that be cool if he wrote his first song because of a dream he had. Paul McCartney had a dream where he heard "Yesterday" and woke to play it for his fellow Beatles. Some inventors dream of their inventions beforehand too.
A intuitive woman once told me that Mackey was the reincarnation of Jim Morrison of The Doors. I just told him that (since he's older and the subject came up) but I hadn't told him before. I did research Morrison because all I knew was he was a rocker and drug addict. Says he was a genius poet and writer and moved to France in the end (and I had a dream about a thin young man with long hair who spoke French that morning of Mackey's dream) and Morrison was born right here in St. Pete, Florida by us.
~~Another VERY COOL experience happened: My mother came for a visit!! (from beyond the veil). I hadn't seen her in awhile.
Bo had gotten up early for work and as I lay there contemplating my day..the energy in the room changed dramatically. I could sort of move my conscious awareness in-and-out of the shifting energy. She stood at my head and was pouring this energy through me. It was fantastic! I kept turning around to see her and she snapped at me to 'sit still!' So I just reached up and held her hands while she did what she was doing. Then it faded and I feel back to sleep in this lingering, soothing, energy. It was really cool and felt different than the energy I felt before. I don't really know how to put it into words.
I was thinking that my mother was helping with shifting my energy and perhaps, assisting with bringing in all the energy that has to do with the Shift. I was so happy for her and excited that she finally got to do this sort of work. She always wanted it while she was here, but never quite got there.
~~This past weekend, my family was relaxing out on the dock. We had spent the day at the Boyscout Pinewood Derby race. (Cabot came in #1 in his Pack and #2 Overall Best in Show) Enjoying the weather and the water, Bowen and I were reminiscing about the times that we consider to be the best time of our lives. The days when our mothers were here and we shared in those "firsts" together. Like getting married, then pregnant, then the first child was born. The "good ole' days."
Our boys were goofing around, laughing and joking with each other. And it hit me... I said to Bo, "In the not too distant future, we will be reflecting on 'this time in our life' and saying that these were the best of times. Here we are almost mourning times gone by when the beauty is right here. Who knows what tomorrow will bring. Look at Japan, I bet they'd give anything to go back to the rut they were in two weeks ago." (I was generalizing with my chosen words but just making a point.)
So the moral of this blog is: Appreciate today - for it will soon be your fondest memory.
How was your week?
Reach for Peace,
Patti Zarn
