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June 14, 2021
Music Monday: Better Days
This song isn't from that era of my life, but it does speak to me about this very tumultuous month - as well as to my July Camp Nanowrimo project which sees two of my characters fight to find their way back to each other when they don't even know that together is where they were. Yep, vague, I know.
They keep fighting the good fight as they always have but something is different. All they know is that maybe one day that weird awkwardness between them will fade, that strange longing for someone that they can't quite place will ease, and those all too familiar moments will finally make sense. Just a chance that maybe they'll find better days...
Better Daysby Goo Goo Dolls
And you asked me what I want this yearAnd I try to make this kind and clearJust a chance that maybe we'll find better days'Cause I don't need boxes wrapped in stringsAnd designer love and empty thingsJust a chance that maybe we'll find better days
So take these words and sing out loud'Cause everyone is forgiven now'Cause tonight's the night the world begins again
I need some place simple where we could liveAnd something only you can giveAnd that's faith and trust and peace while we're aliveAnd the one poor child who saved this worldAnd there's ten million more who probably couldIf we all just stopped and said a prayer for them
So take these words and sing out loud'Cause everyone is forgiven now'Cause tonight's the night the world begins again
I wish everyone was loved tonightAnd somehow stop this endless fightJust a chance that maybe we'll find better days
So take these words and sing out loud'Cause everyone is forgiven now'Cause tonight's the night the world begins again
'Cause tonight's the night the world begins again
June 7, 2021
Music Monday: Maps...to the Future
I was on a panel about the songs we use in our writing, and this one also speaks to me about my Orana Chronicles characters and their journeys...especially one very special Clawsharp. No spoilers, though...at least not yet.
So please enjoy Ireland's Eurovision entry for 2021 (did you really think I'd be over that so soon? Please, ask my roommates from this weekend how many times I mentioned watching the Fire Saga movie or just a rerun of Eurovision!), Maps by Lesley Roy.
Mapsby Lesley Roy
I'm gonna let down all the armorLet out the power that I've been hidingNot afraid of the monsters, of the nightmaresThat I've been fighting
Easy to run, harder to stayFinding colours in the greyThought I was done, but I got it wrongI fell twice, I'm twice as strong
I've been searching all the wrong placesI've been trying too many facesOnly one way to goThis is the way back homeI've been searching all the wrong placesI've been trying too many facesOnly one way to goThis is the way back home
I had to take all of the long waysAll of the wrong ways'Cause I couldn't seeAll the signs, all the mistakesPointing one way to get back to me
Easy to run, harder to stayFinding colours in the greyThought I was done, but I got it wrongI fell twice, I'm twice as strong
I've been searching all the wrong placesI've been trying too many facesOnly one way to goThis is the way back homeI've been searching all the wrong placesI've been trying too many facesOnly one way to goThis is the way back home
My soul is a map, my heart is a compassI am the roadThere's only one way to goThis is the way back home
My soul is a map, my heart is a compassI am the roadThere's only one way to goThis is the way back home
I've been searching all the wrong placesI've been trying too many facesOnly one way to goThis is the way back homeI've been searching all the wrong placesI've been trying too many faces (I've been trying)Only one way to goThis is the way back home
May 31, 2021
Not a Music Monday: A Memory Pivot
Early Poster of the Cast of FriendsSo, I somehow forgot that today was Monday. I was behind on my #onepanelvss until late into the afternoon. I kept thinking it was Sunday and wondering why Hubs hadn't called his family yet. I kept forgetting it was Memorial Day because, for us, it is Get Ready for the Deck Guy to come measure and help us plan our deck reno.
So no music today. Instead, this is The One Where Nancy Remembers, also known as I watched the Friends Reunion and laughed and cried...and finally understood why that show was and is such an important part of my life.
Is it problematic? Sure - most shows from that time period are, especially sitcoms like Friends. Could the cast have been more diverse? Of course it could have. Is it a product of its time? Absolutely. And do I love it, even though there are episodes I won't watch for some of the reasons I've just listed? YES.
Friends premiered on NBC in September of 1994. I premiered in my First Adult Job/Internship in June of 1994. I was just a bit younger than the characters in the show, but what they were experiencing was, as one of the creators said in the Reunion show, that time when your friends are your family. I was firmly in that age group at the time.
I had a family. They lived in Georgia and I lived in West Virginia. For a year, I had friends that were far, far away, and I was the loneliest I think I've ever been any time before or since during that year. So I decided to try this show that I'd seen advertised (because TV was my outlet, don't judge me) and at first, I hated it. I hated it for reminding me that all my friends were in Georgia and Tennessee and Ohio and everywhere that I wasn't. But I stuck with it, and soon I could see bits of all my friends in these characters that the six actors brought to life, and as cheesy as it sounds, I didn't feel so alone.
In fact, one of the Friends fans that spoke about the impact the show had on her said that she didn't have family, but these six people became her family. That's what it was for me, and that's why I get teary still at the last episode. I am blogging about it now, because if I try to talk about it, well, could there be louder ugly crying?
So I get that maybe it hits differently if you are watching now, in your late 20s and early 30s, and are trying to make it fit into your life and your world. I know that it is dated and that some of it is more than cringe-worthy. Thankfully, we are more aware now. Our world is so much bigger than it was...wow, this is hard...25 years ago. I don't want to go back to any of that.
But I won't apologize for putting that show on and laughing until I cry at some of the bits or remembering being a scared 22-year-old sitting in an apartment in West Virginia, watching a group of friends and feeling not quite so disconnected from the life I'd known and the life I wanted for myself for a half-hour on Thursdays. I can look back at her, and see that she eventually got her own Central Perk, her own home, and friends that are her family.
May 24, 2021
Eurovision 2013: Loreen - Euphoria - Opening Act (1st Semi-Final)
(Here's Loreen with all those Swedish Deaf and Hearing kids, as well as one of the most beautiful opening sequences I've seen for a Eurovision broadcast - it really shows how this contest brings all of Europe together, and I am here for that.)
Music Monday: One more from Eurovision...
Right, so, Eurovision. An epic part of my life, for just over a decade now. An insane amount of talent, bravery, creativity, and camp all shoved into one glitter-filled week and three amazing nights. After the pandemic canceled Eurovision 2020, all of Europe (and Australia, because why not I guess?) turned out this week for the Eurovision Song Contest 2021 in Rotterdam. The Grand Final was just last night and I'm still reeling - y'all, this is the highlight of my year in a lot of ways. Keep your Superbowl and your Award Season and just give me a bunch of European artists (and, as I mentioned before, Australia because...well, it's Eurovision) each with a song to sing and I am THERE.
Today's Music Monday is not from this past weekend's contest because most of those haven't been uploaded to YouTube yet AND I was not pleased with the result so I'm still tending to that wound for a bit longer. This song is special because it was the winner in 2012, when Hubs and I watched it on my tablet in our HOT hotel room in France on our belated honeymoon, because when Sweden hosted the following year they had a chorus of Deaf kids signing along, and because...well, just watch it. Euphoria, by Loreen (who was in the Song Along from the Fire Saga movie and gives me goosebumps EVERY TIME I watch as she starts down that staircase). Enjoy.
Euphoria by Loreen
Why, why can't this moment last forevermore?Tonight, tonight eternity's an open doorNo, don't ever stop doing the things you doDon't go, in every breath I take I'm breathing you
EuphoriaForever, 'till the end of timeFrom now on, only you and IWe're going up-up-up-up-up-up-upEuphoriaAn everlasting piece of artA beating love within my heartWe're going up-up-up-up-up-up-up
We are here, we're all alone in our own UniverseWe are free, where everything's allowed and love comes firstForever and ever together, we sail into infinityWe're higher and higher and higher, we're reaching for divinity
EuphoriaForever, 'till the end of timeFrom now on, only you and IWe're going up-up-up-up-up-up-upEuphoriaAn everlasting piece of artA beating love within my heartWe're going up-up-up-up-up-up-up
Forever we sail into infinityWe're higher, we're reaching for divinity
Euphoria, euphoriaWe're going up-up-up-up-up-up-upEuphoriaAn everlasting piece of artA beating love within my heartWe're going up-up-up-up-up-up-upEuphoria, euphoriaWe're going up-up-up-up-up-up-up
May 20, 2021
Upcoming Appearance: ConCarolinas!
Launching 30 May 2021!I will be appearing this year at ConCarolinas in Charlotte, NC as an author guest. The Con is 4-6 June 2021, and is in person this time!So last year, ConCarolinas was completely virtual. I did one panel about strong women in history and how they influence our writing. I had a new book out, but nothing really came of it because it was virtual.
This year is a completely different experience. I will be on several panels. I will be in Author's Alley when I'm not on panels, signing copies of all my books including, hopefully, the one there in the picture. Darkness, the first book in the new Guardians of Orana series, releases right before ConCarolinas and I can't wait for folks to read it!
So come see me, grab signed copies of the Nature Walker Trilogy, the Tales of the Forest War, and Rift, and just enjoy the Con! Do note, though, that the Con is requiring attendees to wear masks in all indoor public spaces.
May 17, 2021
Music Monday: No Roots
Most of the time, the songs I choose for MM posts are related somehow to my writing. Sometimes they are related to something happening in the world. But some of them speak to me, who I am, where I come from, and the like. This week's song is one of those.
The United Methodist Church has been in the news a lot over the past few years. The other day, I fell into a debate on social media concerning the North Georgia Conference of the UMC. One of the more prominent churches has recently been involved in a rather public tantrum over the minister being unwilling to accept a change in appointment. That is not how the UMC works - if you want to stay in a church forever, there are other Christian denominations. But what drew me out was a comment from a supposed fellow preacher's child who claimed that her upbringing involved being moved around willy nilly as a child with no explanation. If that was her experience then she needs to address that with her parents, not with the conference.
It led me to think about my own childhood - we did move about every four years until I was in high school. I learned early that if you try to hang on to your past it will just hurt. A lot. There were a lot of tears surrounding those moves - tears that served no real purpose. I was thinking about that when I heard this song, and it hit me. I've got no roots, but my home was never on the ground. Never.
No Roots - Alice Merton
I like digging holes and hiding things inside themWhen I grow old I hope I won't forget to find them'Cause I've got memories and travel like gypsies in the nightI build a home and wait for someone to tear it downThen pack it up in boxes, head for the next town running'Cause I've got memories and travel like gypsies in the night
And a thousand times I've seen this roadA thousand times
I've got no roots, but my home was never on the groundI've got no roots, but my home was never on the groundI've got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ootsI've got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ootsI've got no roots, but my home was never on the groundI've got no roots, but my home was never on the groundI've got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ootsI've got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oots
I like standing still, boy, that's just a wishful planAsk me where I come from, I'll say a different landBut I've got memories and travel like gypsies in the nightI count gates and numbers, then play the guessing gameIt's just the place that changes, the rest is still the sameBut I've got memories and travel like gypsies in the night
And a thousand times I've seen this roadA thousand times
I've got no roots, but my home was never on the groundI've got no roots, but my home was never on the groundI've got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ootsI've got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ootsI've got no roots, but my home was never on the groundI've got no roots, but my home was never on the ground
I've got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ootsI've got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oots
I like digging holesHiding things inside themWhen I grow oldI won't forget to find themI like digging holesHiding things inside themWhen I grow oldI won't forget to find them
I've got no rootsNo roots
I've got no roots, but my home was never on the groundI've got no roots, but my home was never on the groundI've got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ootsI've got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ootsI've got no roots, but my home was never on the groundI've got no roots, but my home was never on the groundI've got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ootsI've got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ootsNo!
May 15, 2021
Notes from Exile: ...Exile?
Swatch...masks.Well, that proverbial light seems to be shining, faintly, at the end of the pandemic tunnel. First, our governor (though I think that we're playing fast and loose with that word because it usually means someone in charge) decided on his own that the mask mandates were over and went so far as to ban the mandates. Thankfully, most businesses (outside of the school systems here) decided to keep their mask mandates in place, especially for indoor activities.Well...on Thursday the Center for Disease Control announced that people who have been fully vaccinated - please hear that, FULLY VACCINATED meaning a complete series of vaccine jabs and the two weeks post-vaccination required for the mRNA to do their thing - no longer have to wear masks. I don't know how I feel about that.
Mind you, I don't love wearing a mask. It's one of the reasons I've stayed home and isolated for most of the past 14 or so months. So in that respect, I'm happy. I can be around my friends that are also vaccinated and not worry. The big events, such as ConCarolinas in June, are still requiring masks for indoor spaces. I will probably still wear one when I go places like Costco and Trader Joe's because I don't know everyone there.
But what worries me most is that this relaxing of rules will lead to another spike. There are still too many folks that have not been vaccinated - some of them for ridiculous reasons and some for very legit reasons. Other countries are relaxing lockdowns but not mask regulations, and I think that might be the way to go.
For now, though, get your jab if you haven't yet. Wear a mask until you do and you are two weeks out from finishing that requirement. Wash your hands. Take care of each other. There's no room for selfishness anymore - we've seen what selfish can do, for the last 14 months, and I don't know about you but I'm over it. Completely.
May 10, 2021
Music Monday: Road Trip Mix Tape
I heard this song in the car recently, and I was immediately transported back to many happy road trips during my uni days. Summer isn't really what it was back then - and not just because of the pandemic or the fact that I'm not in my early twenties or working at a summer camp. So it was nice, for a few minutes in the car, to sing along with this classic and pretend I was still 21, still naive, and still looking at that side of middle age.
Also, from now until we have to start being SERIOUS ADULTS AGAIN because it is AUTUMN and we are looking for CARDIGANS, Music Monday is going to take a hiatus in favor of Road Trip Mix Tape. Don't know what a mix tape is? Oh, my sweet summer child...it was a playlist, but because I'm old, we're going to go full-on nostalgia and call it a Mix Tape. Enjoy.
Southern Cross - Crosby, Stills, and Nash
Got out of town on a boat goin' to Southern IslandsSailing a reach before a followin' seaShe was makin' for the trades on the outsideAnd the downhill run to PapeeteOff the wind on this heading lie the MarquesasWe got eighty feet of the waterline nicely making wayIn a noisy bar in Avalon I tried to call youBut on a midnight watch I realized why twice you ran away
Think aboutThink about how many times I have fallenSpirits are using me, larger voices callin'What Heaven brought you and me cannot be forgottenAround the world (I have been around the world)Lookin' (lookin' for that woman girl)Who knows she knows (who knows love can endure)And you know it will
When you see the Southern Cross for the first timeYou understand now why you came this way'Cause the truth you might be runnin' from is so smallBut it's as big as the promise, the promise of a comin' daySo I'm sailing for tomorrow my dreams are a-dyin'And my love is an anchor tied to you (tied with a silver chain)I have my ship and all her flags are a-flyin'She is all that I have left and music is her name
Think aboutThink about how many times I have fallenSpirits are using me, larger voices callin'What Heaven brought you and me cannot be forgottenI have been around the world (I have been around the world)Lookin' (lookin' for that woman girl)(Who knows love can endure)And you know it willAnd you know it will
So we cheated and we lied and we testedAnd we never failed to fail it was the easiest thing to doYou will survive being bestedSomebody fine will come along make me forget about loving youAnd the southern cross
May 4, 2021
Notes From Exile: There was no circle, nor were there dots...
Quite possibly the worst pic of me, ever.Well, I've done the thing. Two of the things, to be exact. That picture there is what I look like when I'm so scared that even my hair is trying to run away.I have mentioned before my fear of needles - and to be honest it is also a fear of injections, my partner and I have figured out. With the first shot, I was more freaked out by the feeling of the vaccine actually going into my arm than the pinch of the needle.
I was NOT freaked out to get the vaccine because I am against vaccines. Not even a little bit. I don't understand the arguments against it that include fears of microchips in the syringe so that the government can track us - y'all, if you have a mobile phone, you're being tracked. I am not an anti-vaxxer. I'm just a big old chicken.
I want to share my experience because I have spent a lot of time looking up after-effects of House Moderna - none of them ended up being the undeniable urge to belt out Dolly Parton songs. I also want to encourage everyone to get vaccinated if you can, whatever vaccine is available to you. I know that I blogged before about waiting for the Janssen just because I wanted to do a one-shot rather than two, but my DayJob worked with a local pharmacy to offer the Moderna and help us get appointments, so I put on my big girl pants and went.
Since then I have had "Covid Arm" or welts that itched and were hot on my arm near the injection site, my arm is still sore, and I've had a few visual migraines. That's all. No debilitating symptoms like friends have had. And now, in just over a week's time, I will be fully vaccinated and able to breathe a little easier.
It was much different than the cootie shot I mentioned in the title, but the cooties are different now. Get vaccinated if you can. We are all in this together, and we all need to do our part. And if you figure out how to trigger a mini-concert of Jolene at top volume, I'm ready.
