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Best Books of 2022

Are you in the liminal space — the time between Christmas and New Year that lingers at a languid inbetween pace? I feel neither here nor there. It’s not a bad feeling, really, but there is a quality of un-presence that feels a distant cousin to uncertainty.

Where are you? Can you hear me calling into the void?

The end of year is traditionally a time of reflection. We wrap up, weigh, evaluate — just before diving headstrong and determined to do things differently. Uggh, no resolutions for me. I’ll stick to my time-worn commitment: read, sleep, eat.

On that note, let’s wrap up the year with books. Here’s a list of favorite books enjoyed in the past year.

NON-FICTION

Rough Magic: Riding the World's Loneliest Horse Race
by Lara Prior-Palmer

I'm not a horse-person and I loved this book. An unexpected story that ventures well beyond the typical sports-story drama. The writing is drifting, descriptive, poetic, and oddly wonderful. The story unfurls in thought-full pondering with a fallible narrator who tenders unexpected realness. 

I Am, I Am, I Am: Seventeen Brushes with Death
by Maggie O'Farrell

A story of health challenges beautifully and deftly told. This kind of creative and intense literary skill is what turns readers into writers; we long to write with such beauty and weight.

Wild Game: My Mother, Her Lover, and Me
by Adrienne Brodeur

An emotionally complex and extremely addictive memoir that reads like a captivating novel.

FICTION

Notes on Your Sudden Disapearance
by Alison Espach

Stunning! This novel is a sad and heavy story but so, so, good. Masterfully rendered and alive with characters written with depth, perception and tenderness.  (Also recommend her earlier novel: The Adults)

The Five Wounds
by Kirstin Valdez Quade

A tender and redemptive novel spanning one year in a family of five generations. This novel is an unexpected gem, rich with characters who are beautifully flawed. I quickly grew attached to this complicated family and I'm eager for the next novel from this author.

I Married You For Happiness
by Lily Tuck

This is a love story that is tragic, ordinary, and extraordinary — all at the same time. Beautifully told in elegant stops and starts that mimic memory and grief.

POETRY (AND DICTIONARIES)

Bough Down
by Karen Green

Lovely, unusual, beautiful and sad. This evocative 'story' is told in spare but full language that makes you both slow and rush, all at once — combined with small images of text-based art.

Dear Memory: Letters on Writing, Silence, and Grief

The Trees Witness Everything by Victoria Chang

This was the year I found Victoria Chang (she's written nearly a dozen books, what took me so long?!). In Trees, Chang constrains language and by distilling thought she masterfully enlarges emotion. In Memory, she weaves letter, poetry, and memory to create a moving story of family, past and present.

The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows
by John Koenig

I read the dictionary.
I thought it was a poem
about everything.
— Steven Wright

This unusual reference book is a "compendium of new words for emotions" — and from the first passage I'm hooked. Page after page, word after word, this is an evocative and utterly original exploration. It's not a poetry book, or a traditional reference book. It's a door, an entry, a delight for thinkers, writers, readers, feelers. 

All the Words
by Magda Kapa

Poet and photographer Magda Kapa created an innovative "private dictionary of aphorisms, epigrams and "naked verses."  Each entry is no more than 140 characters, creating an economy of essential thought and feeling.

Mistake: mostly done again and again until it has a name.

Light: the idea of a tomorrow.

Dream: memory fast forward.

Age: our body's cage


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What are you reading? Any favorites from 2022?

The world turns on words, please read & write. 

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Thankful Thursday: Library

Isn’t a library a sort of heaven?

The library is my church: a place of peaceful reflection, sanctuary and retreat, a quiet pull of possible worlds.

The best libraries have natural light and nooks where you can comfortably tuck into your thoughts. There is a hush of concentration and discovery, with a quietude that carries tender clarity.

When I am urged to “think of your happy place” I do not imagine a tropical beach. It’s always a library I see.

On this Thankful Thursday I am grateful for the public library. Let us hail these places of refuge and discovery! And now, as censorship is at an all time high, public libraries are working harder than ever to provide equity, diversity, and inclusion in their communities.

The pandemic hit hard and low-income families and people of color struggled more than most. Across the nation, libraries stepped up to meet the need. My local library, for example, has a dedicated bilingual outreach librarian who has spent the last two years going door-to-door, park-to-park, giving free books to children. She’s encouraging youngsters to read and thrive.

During the early days of the pandemic — when we all stayed home — I began borrowing digital books, thanks to the free service offered by my library.

This free service, along with online book holds, allows me to access library books at a distance and at absolutely no cost. It still amazes me that we have this enduring system across the nation: free books!

I’m especially thankful for my library because I have been away for over two years. In my world, the pandemic is not over. Covid cases are ticking up once again, and for the elderly and those with chronic health conditions, these numbers demonstrate that vigilance is still required. This week I visited the library and when I saw librarians wearing masks, I sighed with relief.

This may sound silly to you. Most have moved on, tossed the mask, and forgotten about the old and sick among us. Still, nearly 9 out of 10 deaths are now in people 65 or older, the highest rate since the pandemic began, according to the Washington Post and other sources.

It’s true we now have better tools to address the virus, such as vaccines and medicine. And while most covid cases are now more mild, long-covid still racks many and for the medically fragile catching covid introduces a swarm of complications.

When I was just five and learning to read, I spent six months in the hospital for the treatment of severe asthma. Unable to run or spend much time outdoors, I found my life in letters and books.

When I was 25 and a tumor took my lung, I recovered in the company of books.

It’s been years since I’ve suffered a severe asthma attack. While I still have days of wheezing and tightness, with a steady regime of twice daily medications I’m able to bike and ski and live a ‘normal’ life. But I’m always aware of a sniffle or stumble that can upset the balance.

I share this (or perhaps overshare) not for sympathy but for understanding. There are scores of people in similar situations; they are healthy and vigorous individuals who are held in place with medicine, science and trust. These last few years have left many of us feeling battered and left behind.

We can’t live isolated forever, I know. Like you, I want to attend parties and eat in crowded restaurants. I want to fly without fear. But I remain cautious. And maybe this is why I find profound comfort in libraries and books. In a story, I am transported. I am here and not here. I am not alone.

PRAISE SONG

Praise the light of late November,

the thin sunlight that goes deep in the bones.

Praise the crows chattering in the oak trees;

though they are clothed in night, they do not

despair. Praise what little there's left:

the small boats of milkweed pods, husks, hulls,

shells, the architecture of trees. Praise the meadow

of dried weeds: yarrow, goldenrod, chicory,

the remains of summer. Praise the blue sky

that hasn't cracked yet. Praise the sun slipping down

behind the beechnuts, praise the quilt of leaves

that covers the grass: Scarlet Oak, Sweet Gum,

Sugar Maple. Though darkness gathers, praise our crazy

fallen world; it's all we have, and it's never enough.

— Barbara Crooker

Please join me for Thankful Thursday, a weekly pause to express appreciation for things small and large, from the puny to the profound. Joy expands and contracts in direct relation to our sense of gratitude. What are you thankful for today?

Cozy Companions: 5 Good Books!

Brrr!

Here’s a mystery: Why does winter come so quick and last so long?

I crave sun and love summer. The best thing about winter — aside from cashmere sweaters and skiing — is the chance to spend hours tucked in a blanket, reading good books. Really, this is my ideal winter weekend.

Just as the weather has turned suddenly cold, my reading tastes have made a turnaround, too. Instead of my usual diet of sad novels, I’ve been tearing through mystery/thrillers. And surprise, it’s been easy, breezy and fun! Sure, I’ve read a few duds, but overall this genre has me completely hooked.

Here are a few of my latest favorites:

Who Is Maud Dixon? by Alexandra Andrews
When an assistant steals a famous author’s life, a complicated web unravels. This smart mystery, written by a first-time novelist, will hold special appeal to writers (and voracious readers).

The Mutual Friend by Carter Bays
Sharp, sad, kooky, telling, touching and original — this of-the-moment novel is a masterful mystery of engaging, and surprising, humanity.

The Lies I Tell by Julie Clark
An accomplished con artist reinvents herself with strategic precision. I couldn’t put down this compelling mystery.

The Golden Couple by Greer Hendricks and Sarah Pekkanen
In this easy-to-read thriller, a ‘perfect’ couple is far from ideal. The authors are former journalists who have co-authored numerous best-selling mystery novels.

What Alice Forgot by Liane Moriarty
This is an easy-to-read, not-quite-light but not-too-breezy mystery with great attention to detail and tone. Moriarty, a best-selling author, is an expert at weaving taut, addictive tales.

YOUR TURN: What’s on your good books list? What should I read next? I love your suggestions. Winter is long, keep ‘em coming!

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Let Yourself Maybe

Start small. Write a line, draw a circle, paint a moment, carve a minute. It doesn’t matter how or when or why. Don’t think or blink. Move the hand, move the mind. Make something.

Why?

Because expression expands head and heart.
Because something is stirring that longs to stretch.
Because your something is different than my something.
Because it feels good.

Start small.

Don’t try for “Art” — find instead the tiny seed of a thing that may (or may not) lead to another thing, better thing, bigger thing. Maybe not. Let yourself maybe.

Set aside self-awareness. Let the hand glide and collide. Let go.

The act is the art.

This week I quickly made these “Hurry Up Horoscopes.”

Because I was exercising the writing muscle.
Because my journal writing was stagnant and stale.
Because I was tired of my own words.

I like these acts that have no point or purpose or intentional ‘art-ness’ — just fun. Remember when making was fun, with no pressure to perform?
Remember when making would take you to places deep and hidden, rich and full, all inside just waiting for your attention?

I want to feel that surprise again, to know the suspension of expectation.

And you — do you open hands & heart and leap across the divide of

here and there / stuck and struck?

What are you making?

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You can't imagine a stillness that's not

The pine branches, bent sideways by wind, suggest I shut my eyes.

Shut your eyes and you shall see better.

Are you sad? You look so sad, I tell the trees.

We only look sad because you can't imagine a stillness that's not.

 
— from Rough Magic, by Lara Prior-Palmer

  

1.
What did we once say — that silence swallows and grows?

I'm still chasing both. The light, the light, pouring through windows, inching across bare floor, slipping through cracks and under doors. Turning gray to gold.

And then, the hunt for silence in which the light can grow. The plant you gave me one year ago is just now blooming, first flowers from a long suffering.

Don't you, too, hold your breath when the light arrives, fearful sound will shutter the calm, dim the glow? It's why we step outside in exclamation — what a beautiful day, we say, naming what we can't control.

2.
We travel to a big landscape with a dry, austere beauty. The days are pinecone quiet and we listen for birds and search for sheep edged along steep basalt cliffs. The nights are starry and immense. We see so much and nothing at all. Darkness turns everything meaningful and meaningless. 

In a small cabin, we dance to a song we've pressed through time. Of course, I cry — not a sob but a few silent tears. Of course I feel too much, more than the moment, a thousand days collected in this one. Maybe it’s relief, or shadow, or light, or a stillness that is not sad.

3.
The world whispers. We swallow light. Our stillness grows.

 

Surfacing

So much depends upon

morning light,

            its quiet presence

its pressing withdrawal.

So much depends upon

suppose and repose

how we stretch or

                        slow    

the angle of action,

the shine of almost.

— Drew Myron

* with a nod to Williams Carlos Williams
for the borrowed line, “so much depends.”

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What Does It Take?

PROCESS

Everything is change.
We find our voices in making.
Discovery can feel like a tightrope,
the essence of faith.

— Drew Myron

A room, a pen, a slice of light? Coffee, cocktail, tepid tea? A mood, a mindset, a muse? What does it take to move you to make?

Do you stretch limbs long and lean, or curl in a huddle of hangover and hope? A prayer, a poem, a bit of prose? Potato chips, cigarette, a rush of gumption, a grove of trees? What do you need to hum and thrum, to hive and thrive, to step into and out of your self?

Tell me, what’s your process?

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Old Tricks

The Art of Dying Well

First you try everything —

memory, gratitude, light.

The trees witness everything

and your braided heart

beats with advice:

let the world

surprise you.

I’m up to my old tricks — collecting words and lines from the nearest thing: cereal box, junk mail, horoscope and bookshelf. This poem is composed of titles from a stack staring at me while I drink my morning coffee.

For writers, readers and word believers, challenge is found at every turn: Write a poem with just six words! Write a letter that includes items from your grocery list! Rearrange these words and make new sense!

Toss me a word, a line, an idea — I’ll make a poem, a ponder, a piece. It’s all taunts and tricks, and these teasers stretch my writing mind and muscle. But mostly they usher me in to possibility.

Poetry is everywhere, says James Tate, it just needs editing.

My book title poem is created from these books: Dear Memory, First You Try Everything, Advice for Future Corpses, The Art of Dying Well, The Trees Witness Everything, A Braided Heart, Gratitude — and a line from horoscope author Holiday Mathis who recently urged Pisces to let the world surprise you.

The element of surprise, combined with attention, stirs the mind and sparks play. Word catching is the start. The rest is add, subtract, hold and release.

Poems hide. In the bottoms of our shoes,

they are sleeping. They are the shadows

drifting across our ceilings the moment

before we wake up. What we have to do

is live in a way that lets us find them.

— Naomi Shihab Nye, from Valentine for Ernest Mann

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Thankful Thursday: Filled

Please join me for Thankful Thursday, a weekly pause to express appreciation for things small and large, from the puny to the profound. Because attention attracts gratitude and gratitude expands joy, let us gather thanksgivings.

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Where I live, the land is now flush with fresh food, an abundance of orchards and vineyards. Every field is thick: blueberries, blackberries, apricots, peaches, apples, pears, grapes.

Further on, the fields turn dry in a sepia patchwork of wheat as solitary tractors crawl across hill and slope. A different kind of plenty. A different sort of beauty.

Closer to home, neighbors share their garden bounty, come to me with arms full of tomatoes, cucumbers, and kindness. I am filled.

On morning walks, the sun burns bright. I pass thickets of bachelor buttons and sunflowers with heavy heads. The wind calms and I move into stillness, break through the racket in my head.

At night when windows are wide open, soft air arrives, wraps me in sleep.

Oh this world, this aching beauty.

SEPTEMBER

This far north, the harvest happens late.

Rooks go clattering over the sycamores

whose shadows yawn after them, down to the river.

Uncut wheat staggers under its own weight.

Summer is leaving too, exchanging its gold

for brass and copper. It is not so strange

to feel nostalgia for the present; already

this September evening is as old

as a photograph of itself. The light, the shadows

on the field, are sepia, as if this were

some other evening in September, some other

harvest that went ungathered years ago.

 

— Dorothy Lawrenson

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10(ish) Great Books I Read This Summer

Just like writing, my reading pleasure travels through peaks and valleys. This summer I’m on a ride of really good books.

POETRY

The Trees Witness Everything by Victoria Chang

A brilliant collection of short, powerful poems that are both ethereal brushes and in-the-gut punches.

Passage

Every leaf that falls
never stops falling. I once
thought that leaves were leaves.
Now I think they are feeling,
in search of a place —
someone’s hair, a park bench, a
finger. Isn’t that
like us, going from place to
place, looking to be alive?

Also recommend her other new book: Dear Memory: Letters on Writing, Silence, and Grief

Bough Down by Karen Green

You really can judge a book by its cover. I chose this book for its great design: a vellum wrap cover with interior pages that feature short blocks of poetic prose and ample white space — places to breathe and rest. The evocative 'story' is told in spare but rich language and combined with small images of text-based art, that makes you slow and rush all at once.

Vintage Sadness by Hanif Willis Abdurraqib

Inspired, influenced, and infused with a wide range of contemporary music — from Kanye to Kirk Franklin and lots more — this poetry collection sings!

My fave: And What Good Will Your Vanity Be When the Rapture Comes.

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FICTION

I Married You For Happiness by Lily Tuck

This is a love story that is tragic, ordinary, and extraordinary — all at the same time. Beautifully told in elegant stops and starts that mimic memory and grief.

Afterlife by Julia Alvarez

A slim, quiet novel with deep reverberations. The story reveals one life jolt after another and asks: What do we owe those in crisis? And how do we live in a broken world without losing faith in one another or ourselves?

NON-FICTION

The Invisible Kingdom: Reimagining Chronic Illness by Meghan O’Rourke

“Only a few friends realized at the time how much physical suffering I was undergoing. We are bad at recognizing the suffering of others unless we are given clear-cut clues and evidence. And so invisible illnesses often go unacknowledged.”

Brilliant, insightful, scholarly and thorough. Blending the personal and universal, this books provides a sweeping examination of chronic illness —from mysterious symptoms to failed diagnoses, elusive treatments, and the devastating toll disease can take. With clarity, compassion and painstaking research, the author calls for a seismic shift in our approach to disease — and I am cheering her on!

The Art of Dying Well: A Practical Guide to a Good End of Life by Katy Butler

A no-nonsense guide for living, aging, and dying with meaning and joy. Katy Butler offers clear advice with warmth and wisdom, with an emphasis on a life of quality-over-quantity. Also recommend her earlier book: Knocking on Heaven’s Door: The Path to a Better Way of Death.

In Love: A Memoir of Love and Loss by Amy Bloom

Amy Bloom writes with humanity and humor.While heartbreaking, this story of an end-of-life decision is told with such wit and candor that it left me in triumphant tears.

These Precious Days: Essays by Ann Patchett

A surprising and moving meditation on family, friendship, reading and writing.

“The trouble with good fortune is that we tend to equate it with personal goodness, so that if things are going well for us and less well for others, it’s assumed they must have done something to have brought that misfortune on themselves while we must have worked harder to avoid it. We speak of ourselves as being blessed, but what can that mean except that others are not blessed, and that God has picked out a few of us to love more? It is our responsibility to care for one another, to create fairness in the face of unfairness and find equality where none may have existed in the past.”

SOME THOUGHTS
There are things you don’t notice until you share your reading choices:

• I’m reading a lot of books about illness and death. (Don’t worry, I’m fine).

• I’m reading a lot of books about marriage. (Don’t worry, I’m happily hitched).

• I’m reading books with tree titles that have little to do with trees:
The Trees Witness Everything and Bough Down

• I’m not trying to read anything. That is, my book choices are random and mostly spontaneous. I keep a running list of books I want to read but an interesting cover or great title can change my course, as does the proliferation of Little Free Libraries.

• Reading is my mental health medicine of choice. What’s yours?

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Writing, Not Writing

Are you doing the work of being a writer?

1.
I let the question simmer, an hour, a day, a week, more. In my head I explain, defend, whine and walk away. Your question is innocent. You know what's important to me and you're offering a gentle encouragement. Not what are you writing, or why aren't you writing but the kindness of a gentle lob that asks:

Is your heart beating, your hand moving?
Do you still move in the world touching everything you want to feel?

2.
I've been numbed into an old exhaustion of caring and not caring. Everything matters so nothing matters. The world is weighty and my words are not able to sustain these winds.

 3.
"I remember nodding as if I was fine. I was fine. I had language. And it would be the one thing that would keep returning, like light," writes Victoria Chang in Dear Memory: Letters on Writing, Silence, and Grief. “Language felt like wanting to drown but being able to experience drowning by standing on a pier."

4.
Years ago, a poet-friend stopped writing, for an entire year, by choice. You can read about her experience here. “This decision came as a relief,” she said. “Immediately a kind of cocoon began to form around my deepest self.”

At the time of her announcement, I was energized with my own world of writing, reading, teaching, and couldn't imagine why anyone would push words away. I’d lived through writing blocks and serious slumps but to willingly cease seemed so forced and unnecessary.

Time, however, may have softened my view.  

5.
Swimming, I hear my own ragged breath as a sort of secret language. My arms slice through silence and I kick to shore. It's never easy, the strokes, the breathing. I have to think. But all these years, the still water holds me. Is writing the same — instinct and breath?

6.
Find the light, you say.
But the day is dimming and how can I hold what I cannot see?

7.
Don't try so hard.
Give yourself a break.
(but stop whining)

8.
This is your fallow season, you say. Write anyway.

Nearly every day of his life poet William Stafford rose early and wrote a poem.

“It is like fishing,” he explained. “If I am to keep writing, I cannot bother to insist on high standards . . . I am following a process that leads so wildly and originally into new territory that no judgment can at the moment be made about values, significance, and so on . . . I am headlong to discover.”

9.
Today in the forest, tree roots provide a path.

Thick, tangled, ancient, a staircase and walk, a cragged way forward.

Is paying attention a poem, or just a good first step?

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