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Tea and Jeopardy Episode 28 – Juliet Mushens visits the tea lair

The twenty-eighth episode of Tea and Jeopardy is now live and you can find it here.

In this episode, the remarkable literary agent Juliet Mushens visits the tea lair in ancient Rome and chats about having multiple authors at conventions, what makes a book successful and the merits of leopard print….

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Tea and Jeopardy video edition – Toby Whithouse visits the tea lair

Hello my lovelies,

In case you missed my mentions of it, my best friend died unexpectedly three weeks ago. Her name was Kate Harding and she was one of the most talented, gentle and amazing people I have had the privilege to know and love. I have never experienced such an intense grief.

Three weeks before Kate died, my Mum was diagnosed with cancer. It’s treatable and her chemo is underway, but let’s just say that times are tough in this little household.

I haven’t been able to record a new Tea and Jeopardy as a result, so a couple of days ago Peter and I released a video to our patrons along with an apology. Now they’ve had a chance to enjoy it, I’d like to offer it to you here to enjoy in lieu of a new podcast.

This was recorded in September, at Fantasycon in York. Apologies for the poor sound quality; you may well have to turn up the speakers as our teeny tiny camcorder thingy had to be positioned in the aisle among the audience so it picks up all the background noise too. Many thanks to the lovely Toby Whithouse who came into the tea lair and survived the silliness and mild peril with grace and good humour.

I hope you enjoy it. I don’t know when I’ll be able to record the next episode, but it will be as soon as I am able. Much love to you all.

Em xx

Kate

Even though I have worked from home for years, Monday mornings still bring a particular energy with them. I like to sit down and plan out my goals for the day and then week, to get my mind back to the working places they were in before the weekend and the parenting that features more heavily then.

That’s why I find myself here on Monday morning even thinking about work when it seems like the most absurd thing I could conceive of. Kate Harding, my dearest friend – for whom there needs to be a more adequate word – died on October 2nd 2014. The days since then have just been… hell.

You know, as much as I hate Facebook, I have never needed it so much than in the last few days. The community that shared Kate’s life have come together in a way we haven’t since university days and I’ve seen glimpses of the many different spheres that Kate moved in. It’s so clear that she touched so many lives, so deeply. So many people are hurting now and I’ve been crying for them as much as for Kate and my own personal loss.

I have been envious of my friends who have been able to remember the specific occasion they met her. I can’t and no matter how much I beat the inside of my brain there is nothing. I remember so much, but not in any kind of useful narrative. In fact, it’s as if my memories of Kate refuse to be confined by such a logical framework. The closest I can get to that is dividing it all into phases; my life before I knew her, the deepening of our friendship and running around in a special group of people doing crazy things, the last four years or so when we were the closest we’d ever been and now the last phase, the one I find myself starting now, weeping and unwilling.

Even as I write this, I still can’t believe she’s gone.

Before I got the news of her death I had planned to work on the Split Worlds this week. It seems impossible now. I need to tell you why and I need to write about a day we spent together in Oxford and Oxenford, so I can press that memory between pages like a flower. It will fade and never be so brilliant as when it was happening, but perhaps I can preserve something more than if I don’t try.

Kate loved the Split Worlds. It got to the point when I was writing the novels as much for her as for me, because she loved me to read them to her as I wrote them. I would either go to her flat for a weekend or she would come down to us and we would sit together for hours, she sewing, me reading.

You see, story was so important to Kate. There was a bit of her that just lit up at even the hint of being whisked off into another world, be it through roleplaying or me reading to her. Apart from my husband, she was the only person I would read unpublished work to. The Split Worlds novels were hers long before they were anyone else’s.

I would read until I was going hoarse; she could listen for hours. It would get so late and her eyes would be too tired to sew anymore and then she would either snuggle up in my duvet to listen more, or if we were at her flat she would come and rest her head in my lap, positioning me until she was comfortable. “We should probably go to bed,” I would say and she would smile and have this glint in her eye and say “just one chapter more” and it would of course be three.

I was staying at her flat the night I met Lee Harris at Adam Christopher’s book launch and went back to her, all fizzing, saying that the editor of my favourite publisher might read Between Two Thorns! (I was planning to self-publish it all at the time). She was so excited, so happy for me. “He’ll want to buy it,” she said. I denied it. She shook her head. “The Split Worlds are really special, Em,” she said. “I believe in them.” She said that many times. Not only did she believe in them, she believed in me. When I never could. Oh Kate! I need you to believe in me now!

I cannot describe the joy at hearing her gasp when something happened or shout “OH, WILL! NO!” at several points. I loved how Rupert made her laugh, the gargoyle too. There’s a passage in Any Other Name, I think, that made her tearful. I stopped and asked if she was okay and she was shocked that I paused the story to ask. She said something about it being beautiful and important. How privileged am I to have had these moments with her. How strange to be filled with such happiness and gratitude at the same time as this crushing grief.

When the time came to write the third book, All Is Fair, I knew I wanted it to be partly set in Oxford and told Kate about it. Research revealed that Lincoln College would fit well into the background history of the Great Families and I couldn’t resist making it one of the primary locations because it was Kate’s college and I wanted to make it even more magical for her. She was delighted and arranged a research trip for us.

We met in the street outside Lincoln College. It was cold and she swept up the street in that long dark coat of hers that I’ve always loved, backpack on back, little wheelie case pulled behind her, jeans frayed at the heels. I hugged her, enjoying the usual elation at seeing her and holding her again. We were both so excited to be back in Oxford together again and after settling in at the room, we tromped around the streets of our student years, both then and in the nineties again. She’d discovered a place in the Covered Market sold these warm cheesy gluten-free snacks so we went and found it just as it was closing and bought the last ones. We stood there, making happy noises, marvelling at how good they were. We went back to the stall the next day and ate so many we couldn’t manage a proper meal. They will be forever “Cheesy puffs!” as called by Kate in her Cartman voice.

She’d arranged for someone at the college to give us a tour and little details about the room a couple of scenes in All Is Fair came from that. We laughed about how we asked bizarre questions. Kate pointed out things I never would have seen. They went in the book.

That evening we went to Pizza Hut of all places and sat in a booth and chattered excitedly about the live games we wanted to run together, some in the Split Worlds, some outside of it. We ran one at the first Nine Worlds convention and there were plans to do more. So many plans. We thought we’d have time.

I remember the waiter being far too over the top, calling us beautiful and doing all the things that make me retreat into my introvert shell. But Kate was gentle and kind with him, graceful in a way so natural for her. We walked around Oxford again, that time by streetlight and it was like being in RPGsoc again. I told her stories about places there and how they fit into the Split Worlds and she delighted in all the tiny details. I felt so happy, so…. useful, being able to weave another magical world for her from one with enough of its own magic for the both of us.

The next day we went on a tour of the Bodleian and went into places we never saw as students. I was filled with excitement about the location and details, there were more cheesy puffs afterwards and a trip to the bookshop-cum-strange-stationers opposite Lincoln where we spent so long cooing over beautiful things we couldn’t afford.

I dedicated All Is Fair to “the one who sews as she listens” and now you know who she was. I said on Facebook yesterday that I didn’t think I could write about her, as it would be like trying to capture the ocean in a cup. This post is far too long yet only captures one drop. I said I would write about her for the rest of my life and I will. I didn’t think I would be able to do it today, but here I am, writing about her.

I also decided yesterday that she will be in all the books I write from now on, a way to keep her roleplaying. I won’t tell anyone which character she is playing in each one. She would have loved that. Not that I feel I can ever write a word of fiction again, let alone the Split Worlds.

There was one evening, in the penultimate flat she lived in, when I had to go home. I’d been reading to her lots that weekend and it was always such a wrench to leave. We both hated the real world creeping back in at the edges. She hugged me so tight and said “You know you can’t die, don’t you? Not until you’ve finished the Split Worlds.” I was appalled at the very thought of death coming between us. “Of course not, don’t say things like that!” I said, or something to that effect.

And now I have to write the last two books of the series without her and the thought is simply unbearable. But I have to, somehow, otherwise she would be so outraged and like every single thing she ever did, she did outrage perfectly.

Forgive my selfish indulgence. I love you, Kate.

Tea and Jeopardy Episode 27 – Gail Carriger visits the tea lair

The twenty-seventh episode of Tea and Jeopardy is now live and you can find it here.

In this episode, the utterly splendid author Gail Carriger is invited into the secret tea lair. We talk about etiquette, the many ways in which octopi are remarkable, archaeology and some of the strange things Gail has eaten.

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Tea and Jeopardy Episode 26 – John Hornor Jacobs visits the tea lair

The twenty-sixth episode of Tea and Jeopardy is now live and you can find it here.

In this episode, the deeply lovely author John Hornor Jacobs is invited into the secret tea lair. We talk about giving up smoking, what we’d order at the bar if the universe is about to end and the things we forgot were in Ghostbusters.

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My Fantasycon 2014 schedule and an invitation to take tea

Somehow September is happening approximately three months sooner than my brain thinks it should be. That means it’s Fantasycon 2014 in a matter of days and I need to tell you about my schedule so you can say hello if you’re going (and if you want to) and also so I can get my head around it too.

Friday 5th September

5:30 pm Signing session

7.00pm Panel – Podcasting for beginners

What makes a really good podcast? Which are the ones you should be listening to? How can you make your own?

Peter Newman (m), Alasdair Stuart, Emma Newman, Stephen Aryan

Saturday 6th September

12.00 Noon Panel – Dead Parents, Burned Homesteads and Wicked Stepmothers

Is it essential to write out the parents before youthful characters can head out on adventures? Are adult figures always unhelpful or malign? Should writers search for ways to keep parents around — or do fantasies of a world without parents fulfil a real need?

Marc Gascoigne (m), Edward Cox, Emma Newman, Sophia McDougall, Glenda Larke, Laura Lam

1pm – Launch of 221 Baker Streets

I have a story in this anthology being launched by Abaddon Books. You can see the gorgeous cover and a review here.

4.20pm – Reading

7.00pm – Tea and Jeopardy with Toby Whithouse

Join the Hugo-shortlisted podcast team of Emma Newman and her butler Latimer, as they grill Guest of Honour, Toby Whithouse. Warning: Contains mild peril!

Emma Newman, Peter Newman, Toby Whithouse

Yes, this is a live stage version of Tea and Jeopardy, so please come along and enjoy the spectacle! And the fudge…

9.00pm – Super Relaxed Fantasy Club

Super Relaxed Fantasy Club is a gathering of like-minded SFF fans, getting together for an extremely informal chat about our favourite things. With an emphasis on parity and inclusivity, we have readings and Q&A sessions with writers from a wide range of genres, punctuated by a lot of catching up and gossip. It’s as simple and as relaxed as that. Readings by Laura Lam, Edward Cox, Emma Newman and Niel Bushnell. We’re also thrilled to announce we have a short interview with Simon Spanton from Gollancz, with James Barclay.

Would you like to take tea with me?

Are you going to Fantasycon? Would you like to meet up for a nice cup of tea? If so, leave a comment below so I can get in touch to arrange a time.

Tea and Jeopardy Episode 25 – NK Jemisin visits the tea lair

The twenty-fifth episode of Tea and Jeopardy is now live and you can find it here.

In this episode, the absolutely brilliant author N.K. Jemisin is invited into the secret tea lair. We talk about writers and the connection to introversion, gaming, conventions and the merits of knees and elbows inside the core of an AI in the far future.

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Hugos thoughts and some Split Worlds news

Even though I wrote a post about Nine Worlds and Worldcon last week, I wanted to write a little something about my experience at the Hugos.

Tea and Jeopardy was nominated in the Best Fancast category and I still couldn’t quite believe it right up until I collected my pack at registration and found the tiny silver rocket pin inside.

Seriously, I never, ever thought I would get one of those! I spent the next four days worrying I was going to lose it in the Excel centre.

I was so busy at Worldcon that I barely had a chance to get really nervous until the day of the awards. There was a rehearsal in the afternoon in which we were shown where to get up on the stage if we won, where to stand for the photo and how to hold the Hugo without breaking it and/or looking like we were doing something… inappropriate.

I must admit that when we were shown where to stand after being given the award I started to lose it. I looked out at the auditorium and saw hundreds and hundreds of seats. I imagined people sitting in them, looking at me. I imagined the flash of cameras. I started to shake. A lot.

We were shown where to go backstage and then how to dismantle the Hugo for travel. By that point I was barely holding myself together. Once the briefing was over I changed out of the shoes I was practising in and then totally lost it.

Reader, I ugly cried.

It was simply too much. The prospect of being up on that stage was too terrifying to bear. I shifted from wanting to win so badly, to hoping we didn’t so I wouldn’t have to go up there! And can I just say that Mary Robinette Kowal is an amazing person to have around if you’re imploding? She knew exactly what to say and is just a gorgeous human being.

The outfit I made for the Hugos. This was taken by Annie at 2am – we looked tidier at the start.

A couple of hours of sewing my outfit, reassurance from my husband (and co-nominee!) and mental preparation in my room got me over the tearful stage and by the time the pre-ceremony reception was in full swing I actually got to the point when I could enjoy it. Perhaps the glass of wine was a factor. Either way I had a magical moment outside of the reception with my dear friend Adam Christopher when we both stepped back and went “Whoa! This is cool!” before plunging back into it.

Then we were escorted to our seats and I had the strangest experience of seeing a huge version of my current author pic being shown on the screen in the auditorium. And people cheered when it was shown! Blimey!

Luckily our category was quite early on in the running order and I was so delighted when SF Signal won, for two reasons: 1: They really deserved it after so many years of hard work and 2: I didn’t have to go up on that stage and have pictures taken of me! YAY!

I really enjoyed the rest of the evening, mostly because none of the bigots managed to game the system enough to win. No, more than that; because the vote was a clear message that we are moving towards an inclusive future for our community.

As I said that night and the morning after; I felt proud of my community. I felt part of it. And I felt I could not love it more.

But we need to stay vigilant. History shows us – again and again – that without continued efforts, things slide backwards again. Let’s build on this; there’s still a long way to go.

The ‘some Split Worlds news’ part

I had a reading slot on the morning of the Hugos and my goodness, some of that anxiety leaked into it! I made an announcement there that I want to share here too:

I will be Kickstarting the 4th Split Worlds novel!

I plan to launch a campaign to fund the production of the fourth Split Worlds novel in mid-September. I can’t keep this book cooped up in my head any longer! I will obviously reveal more closer to the time, I just wanted to let the people who were hoping that there is going to be one and that I am going to do all I can to make sure it makes it out into the world in the best shape possible. And for me, that means raising funds to pay for a professional team including Sarah J. Coleman who designed the beautiful covers for the first three books.

Scary stuff! Exciting times!

Oh! Speaking of exciting; I am delighted to be able to announce that I will be one of the Guests of Honour at Octocon 2015 (The national Irish science fiction convention) which will be held in Dublin. YAY!

Tea and Jeopardy Episode 24 – A Chat with Ramez Naam

The twenty-fourth episode of Tea and Jeopardy is now live and you can find it here.

In this episode, the quite frighteningly clever (but absolutely lovely) author Ramez Naam is invited into the secret tea lair. We talk about what Mez didn’t do whilst working for Microsoft, how science may help us to solve the world’s problems (and those which it can’t) and Hollywood science.

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Nine Worlds and Loncon 3

When I’m at conventions I am so fully immersed it takes me a long time to be able to order my thoughts well enough for a blog post. Sometimes I never get round to writing about the particularly intense cons because there’s simply too much trying to get out of the narrow funnel from my brain to my fingers. As I said to a friend earlier, trying to write about Nine Worlds and Loncon 3 back to back is like trying to stuff a pillow down the nib of a pen.

By the same token I never take pictures whilst I’m there; it never occurs to me. I’m in it, not watching through a lens. I suppose I’m saying: the following account will be imperfect in the extreme and I wish I had more pictures to illustrate.

We’ve just had two conventions back to back and straddling the two I had another kidney infection. The first was Nine Worlds and the second was Loncon 3 (Worldcon) and they were both amazing.

Nine Worlds

I came down with the kidney infection on the first full day of the con, so my partying and ability to just sit and absorb the con and attend panels was severely curtailed. I managed to meet all of my commitments (panels and tea dates) but very little else.

However, I was present enough to be filled with a passionate love for the space that the creators of Nine Worlds have created. I felt safer there than at any other convention of that size and larger I’ve been to. And I’m not just talking about safe from harassment, I’m talking about the sense of being held gently, of being in a place where not only I felt safe but others too – people I rarely see at other cons. There was greater diversity, a younger crowd and – most importantly for me – a vast array of gender fluidity that was being celebrated and enjoyed in a way I’ve never seen before. Seriously, I want to live in that world all the time; a world where people are feeling safe enough to express who they are in a way that’s impossible in the current society we live in.

On the Saturday night when I had to retire to my room and bemoan the dreadful state of my kidneys I felt tearful when I thought about how beautiful that space was. I want to publicly laud Dan, Ludi and Erich and everyone else who have made Nine Worlds into one of the most important dates on the annual convention circuit. I will be there next year, and every year it’s on, if I possibly can be.

Loncon 3

Still on antibiotics and with that unmistakable ache in my lower back, we arrived in London for my third Worldcon.

Honestly, it was incredible. And now I want to gush about a million details but if I did we’d be here all day and I doubt it would be as exciting for you! Suffice to say that it was the first Worldcon at which I felt not only actively welcomed, but genuinely part of a bigger community. I think I have to devote an entire other post to the Hugos and just how special and important that night was to me.

Something I do want to talk about right now is the generosity of people I met – most for the first time – at these two cons. For the first time in my life I was given gifts by people who love what I create (we, in the case of Tea and Jeopardy) and, quite frankly, the written word – nay, the spoken word too! – is (are?) simply unable to capture how thrilling that is.

Let me share them with you.

First up, the lovely Ron Davis created a crest for the Order of the Sacred Tea Cup (people who support Tea and Jeopardy through Patreon). In fact, he created two so we could pick our favourite!

A lovely lady called Laura (@Lbebeard) made us a bag full of little Keep Calm and Drink Tea & Keep Calm and Eat Cake badges for the newbies we held a tea meet-up for at Nine Worlds. I gave the few that were left to those who came to my Kaffeklatsch at Worldcon, Laura, I hope you don’t mind! They were just too sweet to be left in a bag unloved.

Actually, I need to give a really big thank you to the lovely people who helped me look after the Nine Worlds newbies, including Andy Piper, Annie Tchaikovsky, Steven Ellis and Marcus Gipps.

Then M Horst gave us a special blend of tea from Chateau Beeblebrox with this splendid description on the label: “This fine white tea is guaranteed to turn completely black in the presence of even mild peril“!

I met up with the very splendid Jane Hanmer (@pipsytip) who crocheted a Loki for me. LOOK AT THIS DARLING!

[image error]I would be a benevolent queen. If you brought me tea and cake regularly.

Thanks to the Loncon3 organisers for a fantastic event and to all the people who made me feel welcome. There is so much I haven’t talked about here (surviving I’m Sorry I Haven’t A Clue being one of them) but suffice to say it was the most amazing Worldcon I’ve experienced yet. Stay gorgeous, SFF fandom.