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February 16, 2017
In Limbo
It is past 9:30 AM. Kids are in school, the kitchen is as clean as I can muster energy for, the laundry is done and I am showered and ready with nowhere to go. I walk around the home mentally going over the list of people I could call. I give up and put the … Continue reading In Limbo →
February 14, 2017
February 12, 2017
Interwoven
I am in the bathroom, putting away hairbands, picking hair out of brushes and generally attempting to bring order to what seems chaos in front of me. My phone otherwise mute, dings with the telltale sign of a message. Positive it is from a friend I am expecting that evening I turn it on and […]
February 9, 2017
The Hamster Wheel That Is Parenting
I watch the wet grinder turn, the steel drum distorting my image as it moves. I watch mesmerized, catching a break in what has been an exhausting day. I take a moment to wonder why I feel like this almost all days and realize it is not one thing or one day. It is the […]
February 5, 2017
Musings On Biology
Late Sunday morning I found myself on a pretty patterned couch across from two women and a child I was meeting for the first time at my friend’s home. We were there for lunch and a Valentine card making get-together. My posture was stiff, I sat at the edge of the sofa, my back erect. […]
February 3, 2017
Paying Tributes Over Time and Space
I eye the phone longingly. My fingers itch to dial Amma’s cell phone number but I desist. I can picture my family this morning. All of my dad’s siblings and their spouses gathered to observe the yearly anniversary of my Thatha’s passing. I imagine the kitchen busy, bustling. I can almost see my aunts and […]
January 28, 2017
The Very Many Firsts
The window over my sink lets in a mottled mix of sun and clouds. A grey sky putting up a good resistance to the Sun. I stand there rooting for the Sun and smiling a goofy smile. I sip on my coffee and reach for my phone. I scroll through my pictures selecting randomly. Each […]
January 27, 2017
Embracing The Otherness
I sit on a chair Ammu on my lap, her cheek pressed to mine, nuzzling as if in want of reassurance. I squirm and hug her tight before trying to dislodge her from me. We are in front of the twins’ class. Over twenty children and two teachers are looking at me expectantly. I clear […]
January 24, 2017
Like A Boss: Mind Over Matter
Just like fire, burning up the way If I can light the world up for just one day Watch this madness, colorful charade No one can be just like me any way I heard the words as I crooned along waiting to make a right on to the highway. I felt cheerful. Scratch that. I […]
January 22, 2017
Aftershocks
I stand by the kitchen island sprinkling chopped coriander on a tray of steaming jeera pulav. I stop to admire the subtle yellow color that the strands of saffron have infused the rice with. The pots of dal, paneer and curry sit side by side. My arms are stiff from the effort of having rolled […]
