C. Lee McKenzie's Blog, page 26
May 8, 2017
Newsy, Reedsy, and IWSG

This is going to be a newsy post. There's so much happening that's exciting. Did you see this? #IWriteBecause is a Reedsy idea. Authors are invited to submit a 30 second video, telling why they write. Reedsy will donate $10 for each video to the Room to Read Organization. Take a look at what Mark Dawson says about why he writes. There are a lot of other videos posted and they're fun to watch.
Help Reedsy's #IWriteBecause to trend today on Twitter. Here are a couple of tweets you can post with a quick copy, past, Tweet.
Why do you write? Tell us & Room to Read gets $10. #IWriteBecause @ReedsyHQ @RoomtoRead http://bit.ly/2oZyUgs
Do you write? Why? In a 30 sec. video, share your reasons & @ReedsyHQ donates $10 to @Roomto Read. http://bit.ly/2oZyUgs
Oh, and Reedsy loves #IWSG. You will, too, because if you're a #IWSG member, you get 25% off all kinds of amazing help with editors, designers and marketers that authors need to publish their books. Why are you still here? Go to REEDSY and get your deal. . .just kidding. Read the rest, then go.

You are a #IWSG member, aren't you? No? It's not too late to sign up HERE.
Of course, I know you want my Tomato Report. Can't leave before that. So here 'tis.
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My Tomato Report: They are stable and about half an inch taller than last week. I'll have to pinch back the first cluster of blossoms, and that's the hard part for me, but Tomato Bob says I must. Tomato Bob knows all. Just look at his harvest!
Quote of the Week:

Sliding on the Edge, C. Lee McKenzie, WestSide Books, Spring '09
The Princess of Las Pulgas, WestSide Books, Fall '10
The First Time, Fall '11 (Anthology story: Premeditated Cat)
Alligators Overhead, Outskirts Press, Fall '12
Two and Twenty Dark Tales (Anthology story: Into the Sea of Dew
Published on May 08, 2017 04:30
May 3, 2017
Please Pass the Repellent!

Remember, the question is optional!
May 3 Question: What is the weirdest/coolest thing you ever had to research for your story?
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This WIP stinks.
I'll never be a perfect writer.
Everybody writes better than I do.
Why did I ever think I could write a good story?
Nobody likes what I write.
Nobody will ever read this, but me.
Please pass the repellent. It's really called Buzz Off!

There are no perfect writers, just people practicing.
Everybody writes differently. Appreciate your uniqueness.
If you thought you could write a good story once, then you probably can, unless you stop trying.
Not everybody will like what you write, but a lot of people will.
Somebody will read it if you put it out there. Otherwise, you are 100% right.
The answer to the question of the month is I can't answer it. If our democracy fails and a totalitarian regime takes over and monitors our searches, I'll be arrested based on my research history. They'd pegged me as an arsonist, a gun runner, a juvenile delinquent dodging the police, a failed suicide and a potential rapist. Then there are the drugs and the illegal smuggling operations and the armed robberies that I'm probably planning. I should start writing picture books. They won't arrest writers for looking up bunnies, will they?

Amazon. Barnes & Noble. Books-A-Million. Kobo.
So there you have it. Another first Wednesday and another #IWSG post to kick off a new month. Enjoy May. Buy Hero Lost and if I'm arrested for suspicious online searches and need character references, I hope I can count on you.
Beware the White Rabbit (Anthology: They Call Me Alice), Leap Books, Summer '15
Sliding on the Edge, C. Lee McKenzie, WestSide Books, Spring '09
The Princess of Las Pulgas, WestSide Books, Fall '10
The First Time, Fall '11 (Anthology story: Premeditated Cat)
Alligators Overhead, Outskirts Press, Fall '12
Two and Twenty Dark Tales (Anthology story: Into the Sea of Dew
Published on May 03, 2017 04:30
May 1, 2017
Featured Follower, Cathrina Constantine & Are U Ready For IWSG Wednesday?

I took April off from a lot of my usual activities to let my wretched hand/shoulder heal. It's now much better, and I'm back to typing with all of my fingers! One day I'll have a Story To Tell about this.
But today I'm featuring another author. Here's Cathrina Constantine
Featured Follower for the month of May.
Her newest book has one of those covers that makes you stop, look and want to open it. Here's my Amazon Review.

"From its psychedelic beginning to its sweet, poignant ending I loved this story." ~ Nana Prah, Best Selling Author.
If you hurry, you can enter to win a copy on her Rafflecopter Giveaway
Speed Interview with Cathrina: Her FAVORITES
Song ~ Just about every song gets my heart pumping and my feet tapping, it's almost impossible to pick just one. For this moment in time, I'll say, Rolling in the Deep by Adele.Movie ~ Soooo many, so many. I'm a movie fanatic. I think I've watched Harry Potter a zillion times.Author ~ I have an ardent desire for dozens of authors. They all helped to light the flame of my imagination and my writing. I'm sorry, I can't pick just one...Time of Day ~ That's an easy one, the early morning when the birds are just starting to sing.Book ~ The Bible.Place to think~ Taking a walk in the woods behind my house.And there are some little tidbits about this author. Want to ask her more about herself? Leave that in your comments.

It's just about time for another #IWSG Wednesday. Are you ready? Clock's ticking and the first Wednesday of May almost upon us. Here's your optional question: What is the weirdest/coolest thing you've ever had to research for a story? Or you can just go ON and ON about your current insecurity. :-)
A lot of you have heard that Joylene Butler has a new book out, but that just before launch day she took a tumble and broke some bones. Surgery during a book launch? I don't think so. Here's her book. It looks like a super read.

Quotes of the Week: I had to post two today, variety being the spice of life!
"Every year, back comes Spring, with nasty little birds yapping their fool heads off and the ground all mucked up with plants. Dorothy Parker
If you've never been thrilled to the very edges of your soul by a flower in spring bloom, maybe your soul has never been in bloom. Audra Foveo
Beware the White Rabbit (Anthology: They Call Me Alice), Leap Books, Summer '15
Sliding on the Edge, C. Lee McKenzie, WestSide Books, Spring '09
The Princess of Las Pulgas, WestSide Books, Fall '10
The First Time, Fall '11 (Anthology story: Premeditated Cat)
Alligators Overhead, Outskirts Press, Fall '12
Two and Twenty Dark Tales (Anthology story: Into the Sea of Dew
Published on May 01, 2017 04:30
April 24, 2017
Let Me Tell You A Story & #AtoZChallenge 2017 & Tomatoes On The Way!
Let me Tell You A Story about my movie cast for Double Negative. This is my last post about this movie cast, so here's one more character from the story, and I loved casting him.
Mathew McConaughey
Jimmy, Hutch's dad, isn't a bad guy, he's just disillusioned by the cards he's been dealt. When he realizes he can actually do something to help his son, he does.
Meet Jimmy!
So what’re we gonna do about this school thing, Hutch?” Dad’s “thing” still comes out “thang” even after twenty years living away from Texas.When I answer him, I’ve already picked up that sound and Texas is in my voice, too. “I guess I’ll have to stop ditching?”"You get to Kranski’s office and talk over the problem. If he wants a conversation, you best give him one, son.”
Double NegativeAmazon. Evernight Teen. Barnes and Noble
I'm really enjoying stopping in at different blogs and seeing what they're posting for this year's A to Z. Here's one that caught my attention, 55 Word Crime Stories. It's very clever. Take a look. And if you like movies as well as the alphabet, by all means, visit BB Creations.
Tomato Report: It's happening. Just look at all that potential. There's a metaphor circling my cerebral cortex and I'm oh so tempted to break into metaphor right now. But I'll spare you that. . .for today.
Quote of the Week: “Tomatoes and oregano make it Italian; wine and tarragon make it French. Sour cream makes it Russian; lemon and cinnamon make it Greek. Soy sauce makes it Chinese; garlic makes it good.” – Alice May Brock (I confess I know her not at all.)
In Double Negative some people get a second chance. Do you believe in giving second chances? Are you stopping by some A to Z bloggers and saying hi? Do I have you primed for a tomato feast? And who is Alice May Brock?
Beware the White Rabbit (Anthology: They Call Me Alice), Leap Books, Summer '15
Sliding on the Edge, C. Lee McKenzie, WestSide Books, Spring '09
The Princess of Las Pulgas, WestSide Books, Fall '10
The First Time, Fall '11 (Anthology story: Premeditated Cat)
Alligators Overhead, Outskirts Press, Fall '12
Two and Twenty Dark Tales (Anthology story: Into the Sea of Dew

Mathew McConaughey
Jimmy, Hutch's dad, isn't a bad guy, he's just disillusioned by the cards he's been dealt. When he realizes he can actually do something to help his son, he does.
Meet Jimmy!
So what’re we gonna do about this school thing, Hutch?” Dad’s “thing” still comes out “thang” even after twenty years living away from Texas.When I answer him, I’ve already picked up that sound and Texas is in my voice, too. “I guess I’ll have to stop ditching?”"You get to Kranski’s office and talk over the problem. If he wants a conversation, you best give him one, son.”
Double NegativeAmazon. Evernight Teen. Barnes and Noble


Tomato Report: It's happening. Just look at all that potential. There's a metaphor circling my cerebral cortex and I'm oh so tempted to break into metaphor right now. But I'll spare you that. . .for today.

Quote of the Week: “Tomatoes and oregano make it Italian; wine and tarragon make it French. Sour cream makes it Russian; lemon and cinnamon make it Greek. Soy sauce makes it Chinese; garlic makes it good.” – Alice May Brock (I confess I know her not at all.)
In Double Negative some people get a second chance. Do you believe in giving second chances? Are you stopping by some A to Z bloggers and saying hi? Do I have you primed for a tomato feast? And who is Alice May Brock?
Beware the White Rabbit (Anthology: They Call Me Alice), Leap Books, Summer '15
Sliding on the Edge, C. Lee McKenzie, WestSide Books, Spring '09
The Princess of Las Pulgas, WestSide Books, Fall '10
The First Time, Fall '11 (Anthology story: Premeditated Cat)
Alligators Overhead, Outskirts Press, Fall '12
Two and Twenty Dark Tales (Anthology story: Into the Sea of Dew
Published on April 24, 2017 04:30
April 17, 2017
Let Me Tell You A Story & #AtoZChallenge 2017 & Those Tomatoes!
Let me Tell You A Story about. . .my movie cast for Double Negative. For a few weeks I'll be sharing my cast and a bit about them.
Amy Schumer
Casting Nyla and Maggie was challenging. I imagined them as strong, unique females characters.
Here's a Nyla line after one of the "mean girls" tries to embarrass her in class:
“I would take the time to tell you exactly how inane, how deplorably bad your taste and sense of propriety are, but since you do not have the capacity for processing more than a single syllable or a single idea at a time, I won’t waste my breath.”
Yay for Nyla!
Maggie was a joy to create. Smart, feisty, 70, and now facing a final challenge in her life. While writing this story I wondered who was saving whom. Was Maggie saving Hutch or Hutch saving Maggie? Here's Maggie as I imagined her, and one short scene where she's describing her appointment with a psychiatrist.
“Oh, he meant well, but that last question made me snap. ‘Who’s the president?’” “Uh oh.” The priest leans back in his chair, his hands behind his head. “And you told him, right?”“You bet. A tax and spend liberal who shouldn’t be licensed to drive a car let alone run a country. That’s who.” Heather’s rubbing her eyes.“Of course, then I backed up because I realized this kid had voted for him.” She turns to her daughter. “I gave him the answer, Heather.”
One Reviewer Says: "I really loved Nyla and Maggie. They're very different, but both brilliant and—in Maggie’s case—hysterical, and I am literally sitting here at my computer grinning just thinking about them."
Double NegativeAmazon. Evernight Teen. Barnes and Noble
Here are a couple more #AtoZ Challengers that I'm enjoying from the sidelines this year. Give them a visit, and you won't be disappointed. The theme here is Materials in Mythology and Speculative Fiction, so if you're a sci-fi reader, this one's for you! And if you want some Speculative Fiction with a Telepathic twist, visit J. Lennie Dorner on his daily post from A to Z.
Tomato Report: They've been moved to the sunnier greenhouse and soaking up the rays of this April.
Quote of the Week: This meme says it all!
Do you like to read about feisty female characters regardless of their age? Are you visiting some interesting A to Z blogs this year? Are you at all passionate about garden-fresh tomatoes?Beware the White Rabbit (Anthology: They Call Me Alice), Leap Books, Summer '15
Sliding on the Edge, C. Lee McKenzie, WestSide Books, Spring '09
The Princess of Las Pulgas, WestSide Books, Fall '10
The First Time, Fall '11 (Anthology story: Premeditated Cat)
Alligators Overhead, Outskirts Press, Fall '12
Two and Twenty Dark Tales (Anthology story: Into the Sea of Dew

Amy Schumer
Casting Nyla and Maggie was challenging. I imagined them as strong, unique females characters.
Here's a Nyla line after one of the "mean girls" tries to embarrass her in class:
“I would take the time to tell you exactly how inane, how deplorably bad your taste and sense of propriety are, but since you do not have the capacity for processing more than a single syllable or a single idea at a time, I won’t waste my breath.”
Yay for Nyla!

Maggie was a joy to create. Smart, feisty, 70, and now facing a final challenge in her life. While writing this story I wondered who was saving whom. Was Maggie saving Hutch or Hutch saving Maggie? Here's Maggie as I imagined her, and one short scene where she's describing her appointment with a psychiatrist.
“Oh, he meant well, but that last question made me snap. ‘Who’s the president?’” “Uh oh.” The priest leans back in his chair, his hands behind his head. “And you told him, right?”“You bet. A tax and spend liberal who shouldn’t be licensed to drive a car let alone run a country. That’s who.” Heather’s rubbing her eyes.“Of course, then I backed up because I realized this kid had voted for him.” She turns to her daughter. “I gave him the answer, Heather.”
One Reviewer Says: "I really loved Nyla and Maggie. They're very different, but both brilliant and—in Maggie’s case—hysterical, and I am literally sitting here at my computer grinning just thinking about them."
Double NegativeAmazon. Evernight Teen. Barnes and Noble


Here are a couple more #AtoZ Challengers that I'm enjoying from the sidelines this year. Give them a visit, and you won't be disappointed. The theme here is Materials in Mythology and Speculative Fiction, so if you're a sci-fi reader, this one's for you! And if you want some Speculative Fiction with a Telepathic twist, visit J. Lennie Dorner on his daily post from A to Z.
Tomato Report: They've been moved to the sunnier greenhouse and soaking up the rays of this April.

Quote of the Week: This meme says it all!

Do you like to read about feisty female characters regardless of their age? Are you visiting some interesting A to Z blogs this year? Are you at all passionate about garden-fresh tomatoes?Beware the White Rabbit (Anthology: They Call Me Alice), Leap Books, Summer '15
Sliding on the Edge, C. Lee McKenzie, WestSide Books, Spring '09
The Princess of Las Pulgas, WestSide Books, Fall '10
The First Time, Fall '11 (Anthology story: Premeditated Cat)
Alligators Overhead, Outskirts Press, Fall '12
Two and Twenty Dark Tales (Anthology story: Into the Sea of Dew
Published on April 17, 2017 04:30
April 10, 2017
Let Me Tell You A Story & #AtoZChallenge 2017 & Tomatoes?
Let me Tell You A Story about. . .after the fun of seeing Double Negative in print, I decided to have some more fun and create a movie cast for my characters. For a few weeks I'll be sharing my cast and bit about them.
Brant Daugherty
The MC was easy. Brant Daugherty's the perfect Hutchison McQueen. He's a bright kid who's virtually illiterate and living in home where he's either abused or ignored.
Here's the first time you meet Hutch.
Kranski’s office might as well be home. I spend more time with him than I do with Dee Dee, and for good reason: the principal’s friendlier than my mom.
Double NegativeAmazon. Evernight Teen. Barnes and Noble
AND I have Winners to Announce:
Rachel, Cassey, Laurel, Katy, Katie, Theresa
Their books are on the way!
While I didn't take the challenge this year, I have been visiting some bloggers who did. Here's someone I just discovered and enjoyed a lot. You might want to give Chris Votey a visit. His theme is great fun. Don't miss Hilary's posts. As always they're the best and D will have you in stitches. Ducks do that!
And about those tomatoes! I'm going to start my Monday Tomato Report. I never plot my books, but each year I plot how I'm going to have the juciest, the freshest, the most amazing tomatoes on the planet. And this year, I'm going to share that progress with you.
SEEDS from Tomato Bob!
Yes, there is a Tomato Bob, and each year I order my hybrid seeds from him. He sends me a cheery note and these delicate little packets of potential. Then in February I plant all of that potential in loamy soil and set them in the greenhouse.
Here are my little greenhouse darlings in March!
Quote of the Week: "Knowledge is knowing that a tomato is a fruit. Wisdom is knowing not to put it in a fruit salad." Brian O'Driscoll, Irish Athlete
Does Hutch get to you with this beginning? Are you doing or following others on the A to Z Challenge? Do you wait all year for the perfect tomato?
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Sliding on the Edge, C. Lee McKenzie, WestSide Books, Spring '09
The Princess of Las Pulgas, WestSide Books, Fall '10
The First Time, Fall '11 (Anthology story: Premeditated Cat)
Alligators Overhead, Outskirts Press, Fall '12
Two and Twenty Dark Tales (Anthology story: Into the Sea of Dew

The MC was easy. Brant Daugherty's the perfect Hutchison McQueen. He's a bright kid who's virtually illiterate and living in home where he's either abused or ignored.
Here's the first time you meet Hutch.
Kranski’s office might as well be home. I spend more time with him than I do with Dee Dee, and for good reason: the principal’s friendlier than my mom.

Double NegativeAmazon. Evernight Teen. Barnes and Noble
AND I have Winners to Announce:
Rachel, Cassey, Laurel, Katy, Katie, Theresa
Their books are on the way!

While I didn't take the challenge this year, I have been visiting some bloggers who did. Here's someone I just discovered and enjoyed a lot. You might want to give Chris Votey a visit. His theme is great fun. Don't miss Hilary's posts. As always they're the best and D will have you in stitches. Ducks do that!
And about those tomatoes! I'm going to start my Monday Tomato Report. I never plot my books, but each year I plot how I'm going to have the juciest, the freshest, the most amazing tomatoes on the planet. And this year, I'm going to share that progress with you.
SEEDS from Tomato Bob!

Yes, there is a Tomato Bob, and each year I order my hybrid seeds from him. He sends me a cheery note and these delicate little packets of potential. Then in February I plant all of that potential in loamy soil and set them in the greenhouse.
Here are my little greenhouse darlings in March!

Quote of the Week: "Knowledge is knowing that a tomato is a fruit. Wisdom is knowing not to put it in a fruit salad." Brian O'Driscoll, Irish Athlete
Does Hutch get to you with this beginning? Are you doing or following others on the A to Z Challenge? Do you wait all year for the perfect tomato?
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Sliding on the Edge, C. Lee McKenzie, WestSide Books, Spring '09
The Princess of Las Pulgas, WestSide Books, Fall '10
The First Time, Fall '11 (Anthology story: Premeditated Cat)
Alligators Overhead, Outskirts Press, Fall '12
Two and Twenty Dark Tales (Anthology story: Into the Sea of Dew
Published on April 10, 2017 04:30
April 5, 2017
#IWSG Peeps. . .Why Tackle the Alphabet in April?

#YASH is still on until 4/9 NOON. Check out the hundreds of books to win!

Thank you Alex J. Cavanaugh
The question is optional!
April 5 Question: Have you taken advantage of the annual A to Z Challenge in terms of marketing, networking, publicity for your book? What were the results?
The awesome co-hosts for the April 5 posting of the IWSG will be Christopher D. Votey, Madeline Mora-Summonte, Fundy Blue, and Chrys Fey!

I can't even remember how or why I started doing the A to Z Challenge. What attracted me to it was all of the fascinating themes people chose. I learned so much that I had to repeat the experience for several years in a row. Not only did I learn from others, but I learned a lot about the theme I chose. I'm missing it this year, but I hope to be back in 2018.
As to the second part of this question, I'd say the results were that I connected with a lot people who in turn connected me with others.
Learning new things and connecting with others are two reasons I keep coming back for a month of alphabetizing.

How's everyone doing on the Insecure front these days? Are you doing the A to Z Challenge 2017? Why? Why not?
Beware the White Rabbit (Anthology: They Call Me Alice), Leap Books, Summer '15
Sliding on the Edge, C. Lee McKenzie, WestSide Books, Spring '09
The Princess of Las Pulgas, WestSide Books, Fall '10
The First Time, Fall '11 (Anthology story: Premeditated Cat)
Alligators Overhead, Outskirts Press, Fall '12
Two and Twenty Dark Tales (Anthology story: Into the Sea of Dew
Published on April 05, 2017 04:30
April 4, 2017
It's #YASH Time Again!

Welcome to YA Scavenger Hunt! This bi-annual event was first organized by author Colleen Houck as a way to give readers a chance to gain access to exclusive bonus material from their favorite authors...and a chance to win some awesome prizes! But play fast: this contest (and all the exclusive bonus material) will only be online for 72 hours!
April 4, Noon-April 9, Noon

There are FIVE contests going on: 1. BLUE Team 2. RED team 3. GOLD team 4. PINK team 5. PURPLE team for a chance to win a whole different set of books!

To enter, you need to know what my favorite number is. Being number 2 has never appealed to me, so I try to win all the time. Now add up all the favorite numbers of the authors on the BLUE TEAM and you'll have all the secret code to enter for the grand prize!
Entry Form : Once you've added up all the numbers, make sure you fill out the form to officially qualify for the grand prize. Only entries that have the correct number will qualify.
Rules: Open internationally, anyone below the age of 18 should have a parent or guardian's permission to enter. To be eligible for the grand prize, you must submit the completed entry form by April 9, at noon Pacific Time. Entries sent without the correct number or without contact information will not be considered.
Today I'm so lucky to be featuring Printip Dunn. She's giving us a very special treat by letting us read the beginning of her new novel, Girl on the Verge. And her sample is great! So here's Pintip Dunn.

I am so excited to share the never-before-seen beginning of my new novel, GIRL ON THE VERGE, which releases on June 27! Hope you enjoy! Printip Dunn
A fish swims beneath the open staircase in my Khun Yai’s house. A real live fish, with its translucent fins fluttering in the water, its belly gold-scaled and bloated from regular feedings.
If I part my knees, I can catch long glimpses of its lazy swimming through the gap in the stairs.
Of course, I’m not supposed to part my knees. It’s not ladylike for a twelve-year-old girl, not here, not in Thailand. The land where my parents grew up; the place that’s supposed to be my home, too. That’s what the banner said when my relatives came to pick us up at the airport. “Welcome home, Kanchana.”
Never mind that I only come to Thailand every couple years.
Never mind that I don’t look like anyone else here, with my American build and my frizzy, out-of-control hair. Never mind that I don’t look like anyone in my hometown, either, since I’m the only Asian girl in school. Never mind that the only reason we’re here now is because my father’s dead and my mom can’t keep it together.
For a moment, pain lances through me, so sharp and severe that it might as well slice my heart in half, like in one of those video games my friends like to play. I squeeze my eyes shut, but that doesn’t keep the tears from spilling out. Neither do the glasses sliding down my nose. And so the tears drip down, down, down, past my unladylike knees, through the gap in the stairs, into the fish basin below.
The drops scare the fish, who swims away with its tail swishing in the water, no longer languid, no longer lazy. So, even this creature wants to get away from me—from my grief, from my strangeness—as quickly as possible.
“There you are, luk lak,” Khun Yai says in Thai, coming down the stairs. She is my mother’s mother, and since we arrived, she’s used the endearment—child that I love—more often than my name.
“You’re up early.” She pats her forehead with a handkerchief. It’s only seven a.m., and already sweat drenches my skin like I’ve taken a dip in the basin. No wonder they take two or three showers a day here.
“Couldn’t sleep. Jet lag.”
“I’ve been up for a couple hours myself.” She eases onto the step next to me, her knees pressed together, her legs folded demurely to one side.
Immediately, I try to rearrange my body to look like hers and then give up. My legs just don’t go that way.
“What do you want to do today?” Khun Yai asks. “More shopping?”
“Um, no thanks.” I make a face. “Didn’t you hear those salesgirls at Siam Square yesterday? They rushed up as soon as we entered and said they didn’t have anything in my size.” My cheeks still burn when I think about their haughty expressions. She sighs. “The clothes there are just ridiculously small. We’ll go to the mall today. They should have something that will fit you.”
I stare at her diminutive frame and her chopstick legs. “One of the salesgirls asked how much I weighed. Another grabbed my arm and said I felt like a side pillow.”
“They didn’t mean any harm. It is just the Thai way to be blunt.” She catches my chin and tilts up my face. “You are so beautiful. I wish you could see that.”
I could say so many things. I could tell her that I’m ugly not only in Thailand but also in the United States. Even though I’m not big by American standards—far from it—I could confess how the boys call me Squinty. How those Thai salesgirls snickered at my poodle-fuzz hair. I could explain how I’m from two worlds but fit in neither.
But I don’t. Because my words will only make her sad, and there have been enough tears in our family.
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CONTINUE THE HUNT. . .To keep going on your quest, you need to check out the next author! Tobie Easton. And please let me know in your comments what you think of this hunt. Is it something you'd participate in if you wrote YA?
Beware the White Rabbit (Anthology: They Call Me Alice), Leap Books, Summer '15
Sliding on the Edge, C. Lee McKenzie, WestSide Books, Spring '09
The Princess of Las Pulgas, WestSide Books, Fall '10
The First Time, Fall '11 (Anthology story: Premeditated Cat)
Alligators Overhead, Outskirts Press, Fall '12
Two and Twenty Dark Tales (Anthology story: Into the Sea of Dew
Published on April 04, 2017 12:00
April 3, 2017
Alert! Busy Week Ahead

I started blogging only on Mondays a while back to save my sanity and get a few other things done, like, write some books and talk to my friends and family more frequently. It worked. But this week I'm doing a bit extra and I'll be posting about a special event on Tuesday! So I hope you'll give me another look--NOON TOMORROW.

This is my second year to participate in the #YASH. It's short. It's fun and there are tons of free YA books. I'm on the BLUE TEAM! A perfect color for the book I'll be giving away (first cover, top left), don't you think?
Hope you'll check in tomorrow, enter to win, and perhaps meet some other bloggers/writers that you might not otherwise.

Meanwhile, don't forget to sign up for #ISWG Book Club on Goodreads! We're reading Chapter After Chapter, so don't miss the discussion.

Get your #IWSGPit Pitch ready. There's going to be tons of opportunity to show agents and publishers your work.
Will you enter the #YASH to win a few books? Will I see you at the #IWSG Book Club? How about the Pitch Party?
Beware the White Rabbit (Anthology: They Call Me Alice), Leap Books, Summer '15
Sliding on the Edge, C. Lee McKenzie, WestSide Books, Spring '09
The Princess of Las Pulgas, WestSide Books, Fall '10
The First Time, Fall '11 (Anthology story: Premeditated Cat)
Alligators Overhead, Outskirts Press, Fall '12
Two and Twenty Dark Tales (Anthology story: Into the Sea of Dew
Published on April 03, 2017 04:30
April 1, 2017
Cookies and Milk for all #A to Z Challenge Peeps

I can't do the A to Z this year, but here are some cookies and milk for you guys who are. Oh, and some encouraging pep talks.



Beware the White Rabbit (Anthology: They Call Me Alice), Leap Books, Summer '15
Sliding on the Edge, C. Lee McKenzie, WestSide Books, Spring '09
The Princess of Las Pulgas, WestSide Books, Fall '10
The First Time, Fall '11 (Anthology story: Premeditated Cat)
Alligators Overhead, Outskirts Press, Fall '12
Two and Twenty Dark Tales (Anthology story: Into the Sea of Dew
Published on April 01, 2017 07:55