K.C. Kendricks's Blog, page 11
September 20, 2023
Finding excuses and dragging my feet

It's been a day. Heck, it's been a month! I had a Yard Sale with my cousin, attended a baby shower for another younger cousin, met a group of classmates for dinner, contracted with a tree service to take down the leaning maple, did a rash of home canning, went on a day trip with the spousal unit, burned the brush pile, and I'm in the midst of tearing out the 2023 garden.
Do you see writing mentioned anywhere in that mess? Nooooo.
I need to finish Sumner's Garden, but finishing the story closes the book on Andy. I don't want that to happen. You see, Andy has been with me for a very long time. He was first brought to life in the book, Shine A Light, and I always wanted to tell his story. Now I am. But I want him to stay.
This may be a conundrum many writers face, but what to do about it? Moving off the center means moving closer to losing Andy as he is in my mind. I know how his story completes, but getting there will be a loss, at least to me. For those readers who have been with me for years, it will be their gain.
I've been down this road before and it's time to stop dragging my feet and give Andy his due. But here's another thing - I've been writing for a long time now. What if Andy is my swan song? Is Andy a good place to hang up the wireless keyboard? I don't want to get involved with putting my name on a story written by artificial intelligence and that is the direction fiction is moving in. I don't need to pursue the financial end of writing so I'm not pressured to produce, produce, produce the way many writers are. When I publish a book, well, if you know then you know. How's that for a bit of ego?
There are new characters to get to know and established ones to revisit. I know this. I also know those two things won't happen until Andy gets his happy ending. And he will get it. I hope you'll be there to share in it.
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KC KendricksMy home on the web- Between the Keys:
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Visit my bookshelf at:
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September 14, 2023
Doing what does not make us happy

This morning I finally took the hard road and cancelled my web hosting service. It wasn't my first choice of action. It was my only choice. There are myriad reasons for the cancellation.
The cost of the service jumped $17 for one quarterThe website software couldn't be downloaded the way the old Sitebuilder wasWorking online with an AI assistance was too difficultLack of options in building a page templateThere is no doubt the old Sitebuilder software spoiled me. I was able to work offline and then upload the pages. I could start with a blank template and add whatever background I wanted. Each page could have a completely different look if I so choose. But Yahoo webhosting became Luminate (or something), which became Aabaco (or something), which became Verizon, which became Turbify which apparently was sold again.I can't keep up with all of it, mostly because I don't want to keep up. I simply want an inexpensive web hosting with software that allows me to create the look I want. I don't want a cardboard cut-out website. I'm not a cow in the herd.
It wasn't an easy decision. I've grappled with it for some time and it just so happened that today was the day I tackled the problem.
Where I go from here for web hosting, I don't know. I kept the domain name, or at least I hope I did it correctly to keep the domain name. Who the fuck knows? I guess I'll find out for sure when it's time to renew it, or when I decide on other web hosting.
It annoys me that they kept selling the product without actually improving the service. Call me old-fashioned, but I still look for value in the products I use. A product that is too difficult to use and doesn't give you the end result you're paying for is not value.
So here I am. Between the Keys has been my real home on the web for quite some time. If Google ever decides to start fucking around with altering Blogger, I guess I'll vanish.
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KC KendricksMy home on the web- Between the Keys: http://kckendricks.blogspot.com Visit my bookshelf at: https://kckendricks.blogspot.com/p/the-bookshelf-of-kc-kendricks-and-rayne_3.htmlSocial media links:Life through the eyes of my black Lab, Greenbrier Smokey Deuce: deucesday.blogspot.com My country life at The Hideaway/Holly Tree Manor: hollytreemanor.blogspot.com Snips and clips on my YouTube channel: KC Kendricks Between the Keys twitter.com/kckendricks facebook.com/kckendricks
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August 29, 2023
Levi & Stacy - a limited edition
August 29, 2023
Levi & Stacy
Levi and Stacy hold a special place in the booklist. Shining Victory is written from Stacy's point of view. No One But You is from Levi's. It has long been the plan to write another segment from Stacy's pov, but fear of mucking it up has thus far prevailed. Do not abandon hope. It may yet happen.


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August 25, 2023
And speaking of distractions...

August 25, 2023
The end of summer is upon us. I gaze through my office window and there is a smattering of leaves on the ground. In years past, those leaves would be bright yellow from the poplar tree but we cut that tree down last summer. This coming winter, its wood will keep us warm.
I should not be gazing out the window. I should be writing, and not blogging. The current work-in-progress has languished this week while I did...what? Looking back at my daily notes, what I did was not much. Organizing the music CDs in one fell swoop was hardly necessary. The task could have been broken down into smaller segments across more days, days in which I wrote first. I didn't do it that way. There was also a trip to town for groceries and a test run of the log splitter. And then there was Twitter or X as it is now called.
What to do about Twitter/X? I've actually thought about leaving it, but the platform itself isn't the problem.
I spent far too much time on that platform, whatever the hell you want to call it. My feed is full of beautiful American muscle cars and I can't take my eyes off the shine! I click the little heart and I get more cars. And I do love American muscle cars. But I should be writing.
One of the deciding factors in retiring from employment last year was my desire to get back to writing, so why am I allowing distractions to keep me from it? It's a fucking lack of discipline, that's what. I recognize it. I just don't do anything about it.
That needs to change. I've been home for over a year now and I admit that settling in with the spouse was important. I tried to be deliberate about the adjustment of us being together 24/7. We're both armed. Shooting each other would not have been productive. Now we've reached the point where we believe we can accommodate each other. Leaving him to his own devices so I can write shouldn't be a problem but I enjoy spending time with him. Still.
There are deer on the other side of the window. We had a large group of fawns born this year and they dance around like little sprites. I've seen it before but I always stop what I'm doing to watch. The nature around me feeds my soul. Is that an excuse for not writing?
It's obvious I'm going to struggle with the distractions surrounding me. No self-help book will help me if I'm not willing to shut it all out and write. And I already have the tools necessary. I know I need to set aside a block of time each day for writing and stick to it. The real question is why am I not getting that done?
Maybe I need to close the drapes.
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KC Kendrickshttp://www.kckendricks.com My home on the web- Between the Keys: http://kckendricks.blogspot.com Visit my bookshelf at: https://kckendricks.blogspot.com/p/the-bookshelf-of-kc-kendricks-and-rayne_3.html
Social media links:Life through the eyes of my black Lab, Greenbrier Smokey Deuce: deucesday.blogspot.com My country life at The Hideaway/Holly Tree Manor: hollytreemanor.blogspot.com Snips and clips on my YouTube channel: KC Kendricks Between the Keys
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August 22, 2023
A new, but necessary distraction

August 22, 2023
Distractions. Writers may try to avoid them, but it's as if the Universe simply can't stand to have a writer peacefully clicking away on her/his keyboard. I've written about distractions before, but this time? THIS time it's a distraction that put me in crisis mode! My faithful (now not so faithful!) CD player has given up the ghost and is headed to electronic disposal.
I don't have a clue how many music CDs we actually own. Not a clue. Hundreds is my best guess. I won't lie and say I play CDs every day, but the prospect of not having all that music available to me with the push of a button is, well, scary. When I'm in the mood for some Elton John, I want to hear it NOW!
What to do? Purchase a new player, you say. That makes sense, but my sound system is ancient. I'm not sure a new player will plug in and play. A new system would be smaller ✅, have a remote control ✅, and have a USB playback ✅✅✅✅✅!!
A USB playback. I love having that in my car. I have a favorites playlist for in the vehicles with almost fifteen hundred songs on it. This could really work!
Yeah, it could work if I had all my music loaded onto the computer so I could slide it right over to a jump drive.
Guess what the distracted writer is doing today?
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My home on the web- Between the Keys:
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Visit my bookshelf at:
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August 16, 2023
Pesky Promotion Pitfalls

If there is one thing I don't like about being a writer in 2023, it's doing promotion. I didn't like it twenty years ago and I like it even less now.
Back then, before Amazon slayed the epublishers, if you had a good website, you did okay. Amazon is no one's friend. It exists to make money, plain and simple. Many, many, many voices have been silenced due to Amazon.
Yahoo used to have groups, as did MSN and Google. They're gone now and we're left with Facebook groups and other social media such as Twitter and YouTube. Doing promotion in the Facebook groups is like navigating several thousand landmine fields.
"Do this, don't do that! Can't you read the signs????"
Don't misunderstand me - there are myriad groups that are really great for promo. Post and go because an author's time is valuable, at least mine is. Other groups have a lot of rules, which I add to my spreadsheet.
I've mentioned the FB spreadsheet before. It's full of KC shorthand, but it works. I know which book I've promoted and when. I know if it went into review, when it posted, and if it's still pending a month later.
Really, folks. If you're going to review each post, DO IT. My spreadsheet has five worksheets and one page is for groups I've abandoned like a hot potato because I don't have time for nonsense.
In the past week, I've moved ten groups to the abandoned worksheet. It'll save time in the long run. One group removed my first five promo posts but not the sixth (the first was in January so they were spread out). I don't care what the issue was. I simply cut the group out of my rotation.
It's not like I enjoy abandoning a particular group. Sure, the groups are full of other writers, but writers are readers, too. Between October and March, I read at least four books a week. April through September are the outdoor fun months, so I probably read four books a month. The point is, writers read.
And since writers read, I'll stick to posting in the groups that are truly writer-friendly. And on the social media formerly known as Twitter. And YouTube if I can get off my butt long enough to go make a video. Beyond that, I really must figure out what to do with Patreon. But I don't like the idea of having people pay for special treatment.
That's enough whining for today. Promotion needs to happen, but I don't have to enjoy it.
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KC Kendrickswww.kckendricks.com
My home on the web- Between the Keys:
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Visit my bookshelf at:
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August 10, 2023
We now communicate via the meme

Over the past several years, we the people have become uncomfortable with speaking our real and true opinions, and we certainly don't post them online. There is always someone lurking about who is delighted to tell you how wrong you are. I'm too exhausted to listen to them. I'm not about to change my mind on core issues.
I enjoy a witty meme. I found the one pictured on Twitter...excuse me...X... and it took me down a musical memory lane. Those five words say a lot. In my youth, I loved the music of Simon & Garfunkel, and The Sound of Silence remains a favorite. The song has weathered well the test of time. Go listen to the Simon & Garfunkel version. No one else does it as well and they did write the song.
And the people bowed and prayed to the neon god they made. And the sign flashed out its warning in the words that it was forming. And the sign said, "The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls and tenement halls and echoed the sound of silence."It got me thinking about all the memes filling up my Twitter and Facebook feeds. I know someone who never posts any sort of update about her life. It's a political-themed meme or nothing. She gets flamed continually and I think she likes the abuse. Maybe she thinks any attention of whatever form is good. I disagree. Showing your ass and saying, "LOOK AT ME!" is never in good form.
Freedom of speech is the first right given to us by our Constitution. Congress, that is to say, our government, is to make NO law prohibiting freedom of religion and speech. Cancel culture has made the exercise of that right so onerous, that we now communicate through the meme.
You dislike a particular politician? Post a meme.You hate your job? Post a meme.
You like to drink alcohol? Post a meme.
You want to bash the police? Post a meme.You want to support abortion? Post a meme.
You want to bash fat/skinny/old people? Post a meme.
You want to talk about heaven? Post a meme.
You want to tell everyone to rescue a dog or else? Post a meme.
This is how we avoid having conversations. If we try to have a conversation, we get attacked, often unfairly. We are entitled to have an opinion.
I'm as guilty as the next person of withholding my opinion. I get annoyed when I read things like "ALL conservatives/liberals [fill in the blank]."
Not many of the memes I see are like the one pictured above. They don't take us back in time or remind us with melodic words we still have work to do to improve society. Today's memes more often than not based on an underlying hatred of someone or something. This is what disturbs me the most about them.
You'll have to excuse me if I don't join you in your hatred. Have you ever considered keeping it to yourself?
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My home on the web- Between the Keys:
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Visit my bookshelf at:
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August 3, 2023
July 2023: My version of a newsletter for the month

We made it through July! It was a hot month here, but July always is. Historically, in my location, it is the hottest month of the year. We're suddenly into August, and like flipping a switch, it's cooler and a lot less humid. This year, I'm missing the yellow leaves that always began to fall off the big poplar tree that was just outside my sunroom office window. I could mark the first of August by the first leaves dropping. I miss the tree, but not the threat it posed to the house.
July was a big month tending the garden. Everything was growing and it was time to feed the plants, as well as water the plants every day. I was able to start harvesting tomatoes, but not the ones I'd hoped for. I planted seeds purporting to be Beefsteaks, but were cherry tomatoes instead. I wasn't pleased but I made use of them in pizza sauce.
I made good use of our little pool, too. Deuce enjoyed splashing around in his little pool for a couple of days, but then he lost interest in it. Thankfully, he abandoned it before I purchased him a larger pool.
The writing didn't go as well as I'd hoped, but it never does. It's a mystery how if I can type a solid 60 words per minute, I can't type 3600 words an hour. The math doesn't prove out! The upside is the current work-in-progress IS progressing and I did get the cover completed. I really need to expand my knowledge of the Photoshop program I have, but that takes time. I hope to have the "blurb" written soon and a book page posted.
One of the storefronts I use is now offering a service for book covers. I won't pay upwards of $100 for one cover and not have it be significantly better than what I can make, which they are not.
I spent waaaaay too much time on Twitter in July, so this month I'm on a bit of a Twitter... excuse me... X...holiday. I'll allow myself to check in once in the morning and once before I retire for the night. That should suffice. I didn't spend enough time on Facebook putting up promos. I doubt I'll do much better in August, but we'll see.
I'm actually going back to work soon. My replacement is expecting a baby in mid-September, and I'll be filling in for her while she's on maternity leave. I agreed to help on the condition I could do the bulk of the work at home. That was approved. I hope I'm not too rusty to actually be a help!
July flew by! I accomplished something every day even if I did jump from chore to chore and project to project like a squirrel. Life has taught me that sooner or later, it all gets done.
Here's to August! May we all stay safe and healthy!
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My home on the web- Between the Keys:
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July 27, 2023
I tried not to snicker at the letter, honest I did!

July 27, 2023
Periodically, our local power company sends out a report to its customers informing them of how their energy usage stacks up against one's neighbors. Here are some facts:
My house is 40+ years oldThere are two cranky retirement-age adults in the house 24/7We have two desktop computers running eighteen hours a day (his and hers and never the two shall be shared)We keep the thermostat on 74F year-round. We have a freezer and a freeze-dryer.We have a washer and dryer.I can fruits and veggies so the stove runs a lot.We run a dishwasher three or four times a week.We have a fully wired shed/workshop with all the things.There is a TV set to a music channel eighteen hours a day.We just have all the things!We do not do anything special to conserve. We turn off lights when not in the room. We don't leave exterior doors hanging open. We don't leave outside garden hoses run. You know - we pay attention but we don't skimp on comfort. We haven't made upgrades to the windows or insulation, either.
Ten years ago, when we received one of these letters, it said we used over 20% more energy than our neighbors. We have done nothing and yet now we use 4% less than the "efficient" homes in our neighborhood. It's a mystery!
Here's one thing that is not a mystery. It comes straight from a public report. Our local power company generates 29% of its salable energy from coal and 31% from natural gas. A whopping 34.5% comes from nuclear plants. Only .26% comes from solar. That's right - only 1/4 of 1% from solar. Only a total of 5.42% is from renewable energy.
We know people who work at the local power company and they are taking steps to become more relevant in today's political climate. They know the government is going to put restrictions on them that they cannot meet. Their customers will be shut off from power.
When that happens, well, I thank the good Lord I live on a mountain and have a wood stove and a private water source. People in the cities will suffer more than I will.
It's time to be reasonable about people's lives and what it really takes to survive. These "feel good" letters don't protect us from anything. We need coal, natural gas, and oil to create electricity.
Will we ever get to the place where more than 5.42% of our local electricity comes from renewable sources? I believe we will. But I also believe we need to take care of people as we work toward that goal, and our current government doesn't care about people.
Allowing people to have the secure energy to live a good life as we transition to more renewable energy is the right thing to do. People living in dark misery under a cloud of uncertainty suffer. The more you make people suffer, the less likely they are to work or think of innovating. No letter in the world can fix that.
Without people, nothing will be accomplished, and that is where we are headed.
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KC Kendrickshttp://www.kckendricks.com My home on the web- Between the Keys: http://kckendricks.blogspot.com Visit my bookshelf at: https://kckendricks.blogspot.com/p/the-bookshelf-of-kc-kendricks-and-rayne_3.html
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July 25, 2023
I hope you win

July 25, 2023
Elon Musk and all that nonsense aside, I'm enjoying spending time reading my TWITTER feed. These days, it's full of shiny AMERICAN MUSCLE CARS that are truly eye candy to someone who grew up in and still travels in circles of car culture. I'm not sure how I managed to get all that on my feed, but I'm willing to go with the flow.
My TWITTER (I don't care for the X idea) feed also pops up the occasional meme that actually contains a pearl of wisdom.
"I hope you win the war you tell no one about."Wow. That gave me pause. I stared at that for a few moments and let it speak to me, and speak to me it did.
"I hope you win the war you tell no one about."
Who among us hasn't fought a private war? Maybe you, like me, are waging a private war right now. Mine is not a battle for health, thank God. It's more a battle of reconciliation with self.
It's not the first battle of my life, and I doubt it will be the last. It's disturbing to have reached this point in my life and still be waging war with myself, though.
I'm not sure I won every battle. My first marriage was a disaster. My current partner is increasingly difficult to live with. What do I need to do for my own sanity?
That's a glimpse into one of my wars. There are many. None of us are so singular that we don't have battles to fight on many fronts. Many people have fights larger than mine, and I do wish them victory, especially with physical and mental health.
Being able to persevere is a blessing. We second-guess ourselves into exhaustion. We hide behind meeting the needs of others instead of ourselves. No matter what, we can't outrun the battle. We must address it as the enemy it is. And we must persevere at all costs.
Sometimes my tunnel is very dark. I think of all that's happened in my life - I was kidnapped at age seventeen, my home burned to the ground, my ex-husband got another woman pregnant, I buried my father, and I lost the last years of my mother's life to Alzheimer's Disease. I was unable to have children. I lost good jobs when companies failed. I've had friends betray my confidence. I've lost two old lovers, one to cancer and one to Covid.
I look back at all this and I know I will win this war, just like I have the others before it. I know this because I learned the lesson of perseverance.
Keep going. If you feel too tired to continue - keep going. If you feel too alone to continue - keep going. You will win your war if you don't give in or give up.
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My home on the web- Between the Keys:
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Visit my bookshelf at:
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