Ivan Veljanoski's Blog, page 3

The Blind Witness

. . . The midday news told more about yesterday's murder. They said that some bandits who had committed a robbery at the local bank had been approached by a detective , and they killed him . Then they had taken him to the river and thrown him into the water . I had seen something completely different , much worse and more mysterious .
My older brother is a policeman , employed at the same organisation , but how could I tell him when I know that he is an honest man , and this will really get to him . Not only that , I might involve him in this unexpected , dirty , and dangerous game . What shall I do ? I cannot stand this any longer . . . I feel pressure in my back , at the right side . It's all over ! I am finished !




[ from , Drunken Democracy ]

Chase my Father's Shadow

Father - naive ,
instant of watching
for your three bastards
you believed in others .
Your past -
killed my future .
The dream is broken -
reality has expired .
Now - my unseen joy :
Watching my brother -
I see you ,
and on my mother
I'm constantly thinking .

Bitter Water

Mammy -
You want water ?
Oh ! I want . . .
Why is it sour ? !
Sour ? . . .
But I thought -
The milk has expired
and instead of cheese
pus was created .
Then again -
I went for water
but already
you become a mud .

Crooked Justice

When I was born ,
I was baptised in water .
When I grew up ,
I was left in the fire .
Later ,
I was blown by the wind .
Now ,
the soil is after me . . .
But I'm already a beast .

Chase a Crooked Past

I was on a visit yesterday
at one of my schoolmates,
who I have not seen
for more than three decades.
Now he is a physician , but I am an philosopher.
When I entered his office -
not only he did not shake hands with me,
he did not even get up from the chair.
We were talking a crooked past,
even for a clean future.
Physically elderly, but not much grown up...
Did not offer me to sit,
let alone coffee .
After a brief conversation,
I greeted with my half-raised arm,
but he with his half-duck head.
When I was living
I remembered the filled balloons...
I have to go home -
and they are visiting .

GRAVE

Grave
above him
birds sun stars
grave over them
Grave
over him a day
leaves flowers gardens
roads trees mountains cities
as many graves as worlds
Grave
below it night
freeze beauties
unforgettable death faces
fogs winds rains
as many graves as darkness
Above me grave
over it
again








[ from, PAIN ]

Spring Elegy

The sun smiled and approved of yet another day . There was not one single cloud in the sky . The air was clean as if you were breathing in pure oxygen . Merry birds were joyfully singing . The brook was murmuring and carrying clear water . Flowers were blooming and leaving memories . Trees were spreading and making new roads . Winds were cooling us slowly .
Everything is awake : children running around and playing ; young girls wearing spring dresses . . .
What a beauty , I am setting down . . .







[ from, DRUNKEN DEMOCRACY ]

Crooked View

Today , verily I saw you .
Older , but still beautiful .
And as before the shadow of the past
I began to grieve ;
While your naked eyes
for our love lost whispered .

Scared Shadow

The fear encompassed me;
I'm afraid -
Mother !
How long is it to be like this?
How long...?
It's all over!
I am finished !

The Planet of the Women

Last night, I dreamed I went to another planet where the women ruled. It was talked, planned, and worked only for the women and their so-called problems - about them being despised, undervalued, discriminated, and whatnot! But in reality, they enjoyed all the rights of this strange planet.
All the legislation was created in a way to protect the women while the men were left out. They were already half men, half women. There were no families. Family life was not possible. It was impossible to educate and school children normally. There was a huge number of divorces, and most of the population were divorced or single. The number of mentally ill and sexually disoriented people was huge. Everything was dead, loneliness ruled.
I came here for a better life, and once I realised my mistake, I got frightened and decided to ran away. Instead of that , I woke up scared and looked between my legs...
Good, I am still a man.




[ from, DRUNKEN DEMOCRACY ]