Jessica B. Kelly's Blog, page 17
July 18, 2015
The Mirror
I look in the mirror and this I see. Hate, apathy, and all in between. You look in the mirror and what do you see? Love, compassion, and all in between. Which one of us is lying? I gave an interview last weekend on the intersection of Antisocial Personality Disorder and relationships. Part theory, part experience, […]
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July 17, 2015
Not Today – Psychopathy’s Silent Destroyers
I’m twitching like a cockroach in its death throes. Every time that I think I make progress, I take two steps back. Impulsivity will eventually ruin me, but not today. Maybe I’ll be a parasite to a host that fights back. Maybe my lack of foresight and goals will catch up with me. It’s quite […]
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July 16, 2015
Heading into the Fire – All-Out War with no Army
A Tumblr user asked: What are your current motivations for blogging and speaking so relentlessly? I seethe. I’m tired of seeing disproportionate sentences handed out to my brethren. I’m angry at the stigma that I face for not possessing affective empathy. I curse this existence that seems so monochrome, so shallow. I head into the fire, […]
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Stay Awhile and Listen: What Brought Me to Where I am Today
Long time readers have picked up on my diagnosis story from posts I’ve written over the years. The same readers are surely aware of my disdain for self-diagnosis. However, newer readers may not be as familiar with these facts and concepts. What follows is a fairly lengthy post giving a brief background of myself and […]
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July 15, 2015
Two Years Later – Approaching the Mountain Top
It was July 17, 2013. After a long turn of events after I had finally kicked Bipolar depression thanks to electro-convulsive therapy, my therapist had given me a diagnosis of Antisocial Personality Disorder. On this night in particular, I was going to find out if something more informative lie behind the mirror. A few days […]
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July 14, 2015
Respecting the Few: The Self-Aware Antisocial
I’ve seen an interesting trend among those who have ASPD and / or psychopathy and are committed to discourse. They often get called out as “fake”. Now, some of these people are undoubtedly fake, but the not so subtle message is clear: those with ASPD can never be mindful enough to realize restraint. The restrained […]
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July 13, 2015
The Gospel for the Underground – More on Thought Crimes
If I had to think of one phrase that sums up the promise for the underground, it is this: they haven’t taken our thoughts away … yet. We can commit any crime that we want in our heads and no one yet has the authority to punish us for the sins between our ears. Neurologically speaking and […]
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July 12, 2015
ASPD, Psychopathy, and “Coming Out” – Should You? Would You?
Should one reveal to another person their ASPD and / or psychopathy? How would one even do that? Before the reader’s eyes roll out of their head, I ask them to hear me out. I believe that one of the keys to mitigating the negative consequences of these disorders is to be open and authentic […]
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July 10, 2015
An Exxxplicit, Tragic Pornography – Overcompensation of Empathy
I am convinced that altruism in part, or in full, exists as a competition. In a society that champions empathy (except for when it doesn’t), there is a large incentive to show oneself as more empathic or society-driven than another individual. Who can help the most old ladies across the street and hold the most […]
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Conversations about Cluster B Disorders – Accommodation Vs. Respect
So let’s say that you are tired of wearing your mask. You are some fashion of Cluster B in nature (Antisocial Personality Disorder, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, etc.). You are tired of the contortions you must go through on a daily basis to be welcomed in society. You realize that there are facets of your disorder […]
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