4.5 stars
I absolutely understand why this is divisive but wow, it landed for me.
Why you may not like this book: This is a very atmospheric, gothic story that captures a moment in time-- specifically the three years that Ines attends Catherine House. Because this is a "this is what happens during these years" story, it isn't plot driven. We aren't really trying to solve anything or go toward anything. It's easy, while reading, to trick yourself into thing that we are working toward some sort of resolution and if you do, I think the ending and experience will be disappointing. Catherine House is an institution that existed way before Ines (and we) find it and it exists after Ines's story. That's the story.
This is also very strange and eerie, in a way that is somewhat explained, but perhaps not enough for readers who need a bit more explanation and concrete world building.
Finally, Ines is an apathetic character. She moves through this dreamlike story in a dreamlike way, never really owning her actions or her story. It's purposeful, in context, but if you are not a fan of apathetic characters, this will probably be a frustrating experience.
Why I loved this book: While what it sets out to do is not ~for everyone~, it's hard to argue that this book doesn't do what it sets out to do amazingly. It is beautifully atmospheric and haunting. It's disarming in the way it feels like nothing and everything is happening. I felt off balance at times, hearing the author very clearly explain things to me, but still feeling like I was a world away from understanding. My body was clenched through the last chapters, knowing that there was no true happy ending, but hoping against hope that there would at least be an escape.
I loved all of the characters and the found family aspect. Something very central to this story, and to Catherine House working, is the idea that all of these characters are seeking connection and somewhere to fit. They feel safe in those connections and in the way that Catherine provides, so it's easier for them to accept the ways that Catherine takes. The dialogue was funny, the weird antics of the students believable, and I appreciated how diverse and three dimensional they were.
I think, though, the thing I loved the most about this story is that it invites the reading to think a little more about what we are reading. I can see readers wondering what the point was here, but I felt it had so much to say, particularly about institutions of higher education. The themes of identity, of cognitive dissonance, and of the ways people buy into obviously broken systems were particularly fascinating.
This is a book I will think about a lot for a long time to come. I hope Elisabeth Thomas has a long career!