It is important to note that the majority of the themes explored in this book deal with sensitive subject matters. My review, therefore, touches on these topics as well. Many people might find the subject matters of the book as well as those detailed in my review overwhelming. I would suggest you steer clear of both if this is the case. Please note that from this point forward I will be writing about matters which contain reflections on the death of an animal, child endangerment, extreme graphic sexual violence against a child, psychological distress, extreme violent crimes against a child, body decomposition, self-mutilation, suicide, mental illness, grief, & others.
I would like to highlight the content warning placed at the beginning of this review with great levels of severity. If you are someone for whom reading repeated instances where both graphic descriptions & dedicated insinuations regarding the abuse of children, leads to feelings of overwhelm, triggering sentiments, debilitating emotions and/or train of thought, or others; this is a book I would encourage you to put aside. The subject matter in this book deals entirely with the actions taken by sexual predators. Very little of this story does not impart mental reflection on the realities these children were forcibly subjected to throughout many years. Therefore, please be kind to yourself & do not pursue this book or my review if you are not in a position to be faced with this matter.
Our story opens in the middle of an instant, a ticking time slot on the clock, the discovery of the murdered corpse of The Man From Primrose Lane. What ensues is a delectably horrific, morbidly despicable story of David Neff—an author debonair who rose to fame from the single success of his non-fiction work which brought light to the inequities of the United States Justice System & its subsequent reliance on the death penalty. Throughout the time it takes the reader to become acquainted with David we learn that we have known him all along. He was, The Man From Primrose Lane, just as he was the victim of suicide off the Y-Bridge, as well as being Uncle Ira & most probably a jumble of the men our initial main character saw throughout his life.
I came upon this book, nestled snuggly, in my ever-growing list of books I want to read. This, after a long couple of weeks wherein I could not seem to get my hands on a good book; a story that would see me flying through the pages no matter the length, unaware of the passage of time. I am glad that a version of me in the past saw fit to add this book to the roster. Had I known there would be a time that my brain would be consumed by the fog of dreadfully dull stories, poor writing, terribly long-drawn-out premises without promise? I should like to say that yes, there I was wandering in the past, eager to give myself the chance to repose the streak of reading that drained me of the enthusiasm I have fostered all the years of my life.
In a way, I have become familiar with this book's essence—the premonition of intention for events yet to transpire as well as the precognitive ability to impart alterations in a line that is non-linear whilst remaining transparent to the human eye. The structure that this story takes to transmit its message is gloomy, & riddled with legitimately horrific sentences. Yet, Renner weaves a tapestry that glimmers alone in the dark; blissfully wafting in a stagnant air encumbered by the forgotten memories of a lonesome entity. What the author has accomplished is phenomenal. Renner’s story takes part in the present—the one as we know it—while sifting seamlessly to a time in the past which also imparts droplets of futures yet unknown. In all the travels that the reader undertakes, there was not a single instant in which the story became jumbled—Renner clearly states his intention & follows through in a mind-bending fashion.
With that being said, let us begin at the start. The Man From Primrose Lane is a man whom no one knows. He has been living at the house on Primrose Lane for a number of years uncalculatable by locals. He is seldom seen but, when he is, his hands are coated by the warm yarn of Irish knitting. His brutal murder leaves the local policing body muffled by the cause of such graphic violence. The opening scenes depict mounds of larvae swimming in the cavity forced by a bullet in the man’s chest. On the kitchen counter, squashed by razor blades of the subdued blender, are the ten fingers of the unidentifiable resident. Who would do this?
There are parts of this story that might require the reader to disregard the other options available to the investigation. Perhaps, one might wonder why fingerprints were the only aspect of identification the police force sought to access. One might wonder why they did not seek dental work or perhaps collect DNA material from the man’s ear. In essence, there are particulars of the plot that saw me pondering the course of action. I do not think this ruined my sense of enjoyment nor did it leave me curious if I should trust the narrative or not. One need not live in the town of this book to understand the complexities that transpire in real-life investigations. Seldom are criminal occurrences as swiftly sealed as they might appear by the brilliantly efficient minds of “Criminal Minds” (2005).
Because the identity of the deceased is hidden from the reader for the bulk of the story, the plot drives a swift left & becomes another story entirely. It was at this part where I became confused as to the length that the author was taking to recollect events that transpired during the legal proceedings of Trimble’s acquittal of the charges of the murder of a young child. Of course, everything in this story held a purpose & was certainly tied to something else, even if that particular aspect was not yet revealed. However, the middle section of this book was long—not boring or unpleasantly written but long. That being said, this sequence of events introduces the weaving through time that makes this story pointedly unique.
As David Neff is faced with the possibility of endeavouring into a new crime; a new premise to include in a book, a new predator, & a new case file to solve, he remembers how all-encompassing it was for him to write his first work. Certainly, he has fond feelings of those times even if the reality differs quite starkly from the imagined experience. I would like to take this time to include the particulars of the criminal cases that take place in this story. The details of these events are severely unpleasant, dastardly, & revolting; reading about the particulars of the acts committed against children was severely disgusting. What renders stories like this to be so overwhelming is the reality that the instances depicted reflect a truth. They are not confined to the fictional world wherein we might find justice & reprieve. They exist alongside us in this world.
Just as the David that we know as the main character became obsessed with the Trimble child abuse case, so too did the David of the past. Every version of David saw him become, literally & technically speaking, obsessed with a young girl who was murdered by a serial killer & violent sexual predator of children. What draws interest within these moments is the oblivious nature that David—in all his alternatives—maintains. Just as we read about David’s overwhelming dedication to being linked romantically to Elizabeth, so too do we see him delve head-first into an aspect of reality for which he is unprepared.
Ultimately, the good that David seeks to achieve is what leads the reader to follow his actions. It is not appealing to read about a man bewitched with the details of sexually violent crimes against children, for no reason in particular. What renders these cases so inspiring as to lead David to travel through time with the intent of saving this child? Perhaps this question is better left unanswered for in a different timeline, we see David seek a sexual relationship with the girls who grew into women, having been saved by the alternative David.
This might be confusing but, simplistically speaking, Renner incorporates details of Chaos Theory into the plot that linger whilst asking the reader to face a constant overwhelm of moral dilemmas. If we are to follow some of the more condensed explanations of Chaos Theory we know that for every action there is a reaction—we know this thanks to Newton’s Law of Motion. Therefore, a child is killed which sets in motion the synapses in David’s brain that engage his desires for involvement; leading him to act in ways that promote travel through time. When David saves the child that he became obsessed with knowing, the equal & opposite reaction is, that in another timeline an alternative series of events takes place.
By saving the child David became obsessed with ultimately gifting himself the ability to fall in love—or infatuation, whichever way you choose to describe his behaviour—with this same person in an alternative timeline. The problem that arises with these scenarios is that we are faced with the impossibility of highlighting an antagonist. Is it wrong for David to love Elizabeth when he actively sought to save her & her twin sister, Elaine, for over 30 years in an alternative timeline? Does that make some form of his mental state as sick for, in all the time he knew Elizabeth for the bulk of his existence to ensure that she survived, she was a child? How can we grant ourselves permission to accept that David’s infatuation with Elizabeth was healthy & not as wildly inappropriate as the predatory stalking that took place by the serial killer? Elizabeth had no free will. Her actions were dictated by what David chose to do & how he chose to behave.
In every timeline, David is the driving force behind the explosive wingspan of the butterfly. As if to reinforce this, every interaction David has with a woman is drenched in sexual proclivities. This would be my main qualm with the book given I found the interactions to be as wildly unfounded as could be. For example, the first instance in which Elizabeth & David have a ‘proper’ conversation is during a debate in the class wherein the subject matter of the ‘American Dream’ is put forward & whether or not this is an achievable feat. After they both leave the classroom in a dramatic fashion, David proclaims his love for Elizabeth based solely on the aspects of her that he noticed—none of which are who she is.
Elizabeth’s actions are dictated by the world around her & given that David is flying through time a thousand times over, it is not wrong to deduce that much of her actions—coping mechanisms, reactions, behaviours—are founded as a result on a decision that David made. He is in love with the person he shaped Elizabeth to be. This is even more dreadful given the total lack of awareness that David sustains throughout his relationship with Elizabeth who exhibits severe levels of Depression. I am not in a position to comment on the accurate depiction of Depression from either a professional or personal standpoint. However, what I am trying to say is that the introverted nature of Elizabeth’s dissociation from the social world, her clearly necessitated daily structures, her habits, & her reliance on familiarity, all exude a mental state that does not foster calm & healthy living.
When Elizabeth’s mother asks David how he hadn’t known that she was mentally ill, he said he just thought she was sad because ultimately, David is not here—in any capacity—because he cares for the people these women are. David is here because he wants to solve a mystery, he wants to be right, & he wants to feel fulfilled in the face of a challenging opponent. The women in this story are calamities that simply get abused, killed, married, deranged, etc.
Katy’s character is simply a caricature of Elizabeth. I’m still unsure as to whether or not I was meant to believe that Katy’s blatant talk about ‘jerking off to her Facebook pictures’ was said in irony or earnest. What was the purpose of including Katy’s character in the story except to have a person who grovelled at David’s feet, always wanting to be around for no reason in particular? What aspect of David’s character enticed her in the least? I suppose that what I found to be annoying about these interactions was the fact that all the women were empty—that is probably the goal of this story. Regardless, it was tiring to read about because I wanted the plot to move forward, I didn’t want to have to try & figure out why Katy would be naked with a man who was experiencing medical withdrawal.
In tandem with the exploration of moral conundrums posed by the ability to change devastating events, the reader is shown the disparity between what people view as a sober mind & a rotting carcass—the mind of the mentally ill. David is initially accused of murdering his wife—whom we are told was found dead in a car crash but whose neck was evidently strangled…bizarre that no one noted that during the original autopsy but, I digress—because he is not emotionally evocative when told that she has died. During this time, David is on medication set to regulate his emotions due to being diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD).
While in court, in an attempt to bring justice to the crimes of continued child abductions & murder, David’s testimony & research is invalidated because he was experiencing PTSD throughout the research process & it is therefore deemed inadmissible because he was not in his ‘right mind’. Though some of the aspects of this discourse are presented in extreme ways they are not untrue. There remains a stigma about mental illness that sees people ostracized for things that are set against them, literally what is stuck in the membrane of their most important organ.
It is not wrong to admit to needing help, such as David did in court. The jury deemed it wrong in the face of a person for whom circumstantial evidence pointed in excess to their involvement in violent crimes against children. Yet, those crimes were less important than defaming someone who was experiencing mental illness. How much do we value the freedom we have in this life? If we could, what would we change? Would our alterations be accepted? Or would our efforts for a better world be scoffed at by those who view the world in a different way than us?
Ultimately, I found this book to be grisly, repugnant, vulgar, & sickening, in the most enthralling way. I am glad to have read this story. I am glad for the effort that is done in this life; those moments of déjà vu. The instances wherein the moral high ground is simply a stilt to the left rather than a Goliath hill to climb. Just as David returned hundreds of times to fix the past, & alter the occurrence of terrible crimes, so too did those around him restart. A new portrait to paint, a new story to write, another day on the job, another missing person.
In all the days of our lives, there will be presented to us, riddles, poems, illustrations, & melody, a demand to decode a series of events that have not yet been exposed to us; hidden in the tomorrow of yesterday by the version of ourselves that remembers familiarity, hoping that the intentions we take set the precedence for a more enjoyable today.