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Out of the Dark
As a contented wife and mother, Linda Caine should have everything to live for. Yet a blackness has started to leak into her thoughts. Linda believes there is something malign inside her, and she often contemplates suicide. The raw and powerful journey Linda takes with her psychotherapist Robin Royston to discover what lies at the heart of her depression will leave you shocked. The secrets in her African childhood and adolescence are buried so deep that revealing them may destroy her completely.
448 pages, Paperback
First published January 1, 2003
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February 18, 2017
I found this book a fascinating read which gripped me from start to finish. It is co-written by Linda Caine and her psychotherapist (also a trained physician)detailing her therapy over a two year period in which together they explored her childhood deeply buried memories. This is a painful book to read in many ways because Linda faced more trauma than any child or young adult should ever have to but it is also a hopeful story. Linda's faith was very important to her healing but this is not a book that sets out to try and convert anyone rather it simply details how it played a role in her recovery.
May 17, 2012
As an account of Jungian psychoanalysis, I found this both fascinating and informative. The story unfolds gradually, creating mystery and suspense, and the resolution is satisfying and complete. I recommend this for anyone who has been affected by depression or psychic disturbance, either directly or indirectly, as it helps remove some of the misunderstanding and stigma associated with mental illness.
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July 7, 2014Highly personal. I sympathise with the story and like 'The Kid' its such an honest account of real life events that I don't think I could pick this book up again.
I'm not sure how to 'rate' this. On some levels I think it's disrespectful to put 'stars' against the narrative of this persons life.
I'm not sure how to 'rate' this. On some levels I think it's disrespectful to put 'stars' against the narrative of this persons life.
June 29, 2013
Critiquing from the point of view of the reader that I've become, this book ended just as how I predicted it would and at some point, that's not a good thing. This book gave me creeps at night resulting to not getting any sleep but I managed to finish it because yea, the ending justifies this claim. If you're into psychology, read this book. If you're suffering from depression, READ THIS BOOK.
November 3, 2011
Quite good. Nice to see patient and psychologists sides of illness. Linda Caine went through a lot in her life. The end dragged a little and kept covering the same ground so if shorter would have been perfect in my view.
July 21, 2016
Captivatingly written, this is an interesting look at one families struggle with depression and an insight into the reason behind it and the reasons for types of treatment.
Possibly not the best choice if you are feeling emotional and it definitely has triggers for self harm and suicide in it.
Possibly not the best choice if you are feeling emotional and it definitely has triggers for self harm and suicide in it.
February 26, 2011
absolutely incredible and moving. Cried my eyes out, recommend it to anyone who has intrest in depression or has been through it themselves.
April 24, 2014
Given that mental illness headlines public discourse these days, Out of the Dark tells a story that should be read and discussed. This highly readable, true account will grip you like a suspense novel and help you understand what people who experience trauma suffer, how Jungian therapy can help and what the mystery of God’s healing looks like.
Linda’s healing process is intense and slow but ultimately a testament to the power of will, patience and love. Knowing that Linda is Christian, I was surprised that her faith wasn’t mentioned until over halfway through the book. A statement she made toward the end of the book explains why. She writes, “For me, faith and prayer are like living and breathing.” This was an aha moment for me. I’ve often wondered why I shy away from talking about my faith. How often do we discuss functions that are a natural part of us? Instead, we tell stories.
Having met Linda recently at a conference, I was questioning my own sanity toward the end of this book. I reached a point in her story where I thought she would not survive her ordeal and had to remind myself that she must have because I’d just met her. Only a miracle can save this woman, I thought. I was right.
Linda’s healing process is intense and slow but ultimately a testament to the power of will, patience and love. Knowing that Linda is Christian, I was surprised that her faith wasn’t mentioned until over halfway through the book. A statement she made toward the end of the book explains why. She writes, “For me, faith and prayer are like living and breathing.” This was an aha moment for me. I’ve often wondered why I shy away from talking about my faith. How often do we discuss functions that are a natural part of us? Instead, we tell stories.
Having met Linda recently at a conference, I was questioning my own sanity toward the end of this book. I reached a point in her story where I thought she would not survive her ordeal and had to remind myself that she must have because I’d just met her. Only a miracle can save this woman, I thought. I was right.
March 5, 2016
Is this really a true story?? More like a cleverly written novel.
OK ,Linda suffers from depression and spends alot of time in a mental hospital where she is able to smash so many windows so many times? Surely there would be toughened glass, even in the nineties? At one point it is arranged that Linda is allowed to escape her room by an agreed door but then this never seems to occur as the staff don't let this happen. Also Robin is ALWAYS on hand, never seems to have to see to other patients and can drop everything every time he's called to come running. And if a patient this mentally unstable and has already harmed herself on several occasions how come she is allowed to keep a craft knife in her room? One final point, Linda really couldn't cope in the hospital with sleeping as it scared the hell out of her, but when she returns home, she seems to deal with it much better. I found a lot of this book a little too far fetched.
OK ,Linda suffers from depression and spends alot of time in a mental hospital where she is able to smash so many windows so many times? Surely there would be toughened glass, even in the nineties? At one point it is arranged that Linda is allowed to escape her room by an agreed door but then this never seems to occur as the staff don't let this happen. Also Robin is ALWAYS on hand, never seems to have to see to other patients and can drop everything every time he's called to come running. And if a patient this mentally unstable and has already harmed herself on several occasions how come she is allowed to keep a craft knife in her room? One final point, Linda really couldn't cope in the hospital with sleeping as it scared the hell out of her, but when she returns home, she seems to deal with it much better. I found a lot of this book a little too far fetched.
January 30, 2013
I found this book a fascinating read which gripped me from start to finish. It is co-written by Linda Caine and her psychotherapist (also a trained physician)detailing her therapy over a two year period in which together they explored her childhood deeply buried memories. This is a painful book to read in many ways because Linda faced more trauma than any child or young adult should ever have to but it is also a hopeful story. Linda's faith was very important to her healing but this is not a book that sets out to try and convert anyone rather it simply details how it played a role in her recovery.
October 19, 2011
Certainly a very different tale written by a doctor and his patient who suffers from emotional problems that start manifesting more and more as time goes by. She is hospitalised during her treatment and seemingly to no avail. The story spans several continents and the secrets of her childhood in Africa seem likely to destroy her.
Her breakdown and recovery make for interesting reading and reinforce how we tend to blot things out to avoid dealing with them, the repercussions bringing their own set of problems.
Her breakdown and recovery make for interesting reading and reinforce how we tend to blot things out to avoid dealing with them, the repercussions bringing their own set of problems.
March 13, 2009
Amazing book, and interesting...time when I gone to Paris, I couldn't stop read...
I learn, how God can help in your lifes...and that so many people around who have problems, but we will not know...
I learn, how God can help in your lifes...and that so many people around who have problems, but we will not know...
December 14, 2011
Facinating insight into depression but also growing up in Africa....and that there is always light at the end of the tunnel.
November 14, 2024
weird relationship with africa
April 22, 2024
Out of the Dark" by Linda Caine and Robin Royston is a gripping memoir that delves into the harrowing journey of overcoming trauma and finding healing. Caine's raw and honest narrative, combined with Royston's clinical insights, creates a powerful exploration of the human psyche and the resilience of the human spirit. The book offers hope and inspiration to those facing similar challenges, showcasing the transformative power of therapy and self-discovery.
Out of the Dark" is not only about personal trauma but also intertwines elements of mystery, keeping readers engaged as they uncover the layers of Caine's past. The authors skillfully weave together a narrative that keeps you guessing, revealing shocking truths and unexpected twists along the way. As the mystery unfolds, readers are drawn deeper into Caine's journey, eagerly anticipating each revelation and resolution. Overall, it's a compelling read that sheds light on the complexities of trauma and recovery.
If you're interested in memoirs that delve into the complexities of the human experience, "Out of the Dark" may be worth checking out.
Out of the Dark" is not only about personal trauma but also intertwines elements of mystery, keeping readers engaged as they uncover the layers of Caine's past. The authors skillfully weave together a narrative that keeps you guessing, revealing shocking truths and unexpected twists along the way. As the mystery unfolds, readers are drawn deeper into Caine's journey, eagerly anticipating each revelation and resolution. Overall, it's a compelling read that sheds light on the complexities of trauma and recovery.
If you're interested in memoirs that delve into the complexities of the human experience, "Out of the Dark" may be worth checking out.
May 26, 2021
Very hard to read. The first half of the book took me several attempts because of my own experience dealing with depression and anxiety. This book took me on a dark path a couple of times. But a few days ago I decided to pick it up again with the intention of finishing it and I’m glad I did. Linda’s story gives me hope. Beautiful and heartbreaking story and loved the poem written by her son at the end.
June 12, 2021
Sometimes a difficult book to read but what a read it was. To have an insight from not just the patient but the doctor as well really, for me, gave me something more then other books like this. This book has helped me through a tough time myself and knowing that asking for help is not weak but a sign of strength and knowing there is a light at the end of this tunnel meant everything to me.
February 13, 2025
I would warn anyone reading this enthralling but excruciatingly sad and frightening story , NOT to read it in the dark (as per the title). It was heartening to read of the author's testimony in and through one traumatic event after another all through her childhood years into young adulthood.
January 2, 2026
I liked how this book didn’t rush into anything. With Dr Royston we got to slowly uncover Linda’s mind and got to uncover this mysterious persona that was taking over her life. I didn’t see the end coming and it was truly shocking and haunting.
December 18, 2017
Only God will completely heal and deliver you from the darkness. Love this book.
January 28, 2018
Screaming.... Get on with it!
Brilliant book but oh did it drag on through the middle, brilliant at the start and the end but got lost during the middle, repeated itself so much
Brilliant book but oh did it drag on through the middle, brilliant at the start and the end but got lost during the middle, repeated itself so much
March 11, 2018
Amazing insight into a woman's journey through depression and suicide ideation. Gripping, raw and heart warming all at the same time.
May 5, 2020
A real rollercoaster of a read. One woman's journey through mental illness.
December 27, 2024
Amazing! I couldn’t put it down. As someone who struggles with dreams and getting trapped the psychology of dreams is incredible.
January 1, 2021
This true life story tells the tale of Linda and the difficulties she faces when coming up against her past.
This is not a light read but interesting and well written.
This is not a light read but interesting and well written.
July 15, 2012
Reviewed in the Dominion Post, 11 July 2003
Out of the Dark
Linda Caine & Robin Royston
Bantam Press, $37.95
Reviewed by Philippa Jamieson
An outwardly happy woman plans the perfect suicide: driving off the road after a shopping trip. That way it will look like an accident – who would kill themselves going home with the groceries?
Linda Caine seems to have everything going for her. She's happily married with two children, living a comfortable life in England. So why does she suddenly feel depressed and suicidal? Out of the Dark is the courageous personal account of her breakdown and the two year process of psychotherapy she went through to discover what led her to this point.
What sets this apart from similar books is that Caine co-wrote it with her psychotherapist. The two authors pass the thread of the story back and forth, making for a balanced view of mental illness from inside and out, and interspersing the increasingly harrowing story of the patient with the therapist's objectivity and compassion.
In diary entries, dreams, conversations with Robin Royston and straight narrative, Caine gradually puts together the jigsaw of her childhood in Rhodesia and Zambia. The missing pieces are three years that she has blocked out totally.
Royston uses his skill and intuition in guiding her to the place where she can finally face the shocking truth. He comes across as a sensitive practitioner with immense patience, and is careful not to ask leading questions or put ideas into her head. This recovered memory, at least, seems to be real.
One of the most interesting aspects of the book was the Jungian dream analysis. Caine had excellent recall of her vivid dreams that offered symbolic insights into what was going on inside her mind.
Caine's supportive family and her Christian beliefs were major factors in her recovery. Her faith offered her a final healing epiphany during a prayer session.
Money also played a part in Caine's survival – her medical insurance allowed her excellent care and individual attention at a private psychiatric institution. I could not help but think of how many others must have committed suicide because they didn't have the same advantages.
Out of the Dark is often bleak, and does drag at times with mundane details and repetition. But ultimately it offers hope and inspiration to people who have been brought up in abusive, dysfunctional situations. Indeed few readers would remain untouched by this triumphant story of the human spirit.
Philippa Jamieson is a freelance writer from Dunedin who is travelling around New Zealand as a volunteer on the Willing Workers on Organic Farms scheme.
Out of the Dark
Linda Caine & Robin Royston
Bantam Press, $37.95
Reviewed by Philippa Jamieson
An outwardly happy woman plans the perfect suicide: driving off the road after a shopping trip. That way it will look like an accident – who would kill themselves going home with the groceries?
Linda Caine seems to have everything going for her. She's happily married with two children, living a comfortable life in England. So why does she suddenly feel depressed and suicidal? Out of the Dark is the courageous personal account of her breakdown and the two year process of psychotherapy she went through to discover what led her to this point.
What sets this apart from similar books is that Caine co-wrote it with her psychotherapist. The two authors pass the thread of the story back and forth, making for a balanced view of mental illness from inside and out, and interspersing the increasingly harrowing story of the patient with the therapist's objectivity and compassion.
In diary entries, dreams, conversations with Robin Royston and straight narrative, Caine gradually puts together the jigsaw of her childhood in Rhodesia and Zambia. The missing pieces are three years that she has blocked out totally.
Royston uses his skill and intuition in guiding her to the place where she can finally face the shocking truth. He comes across as a sensitive practitioner with immense patience, and is careful not to ask leading questions or put ideas into her head. This recovered memory, at least, seems to be real.
One of the most interesting aspects of the book was the Jungian dream analysis. Caine had excellent recall of her vivid dreams that offered symbolic insights into what was going on inside her mind.
Caine's supportive family and her Christian beliefs were major factors in her recovery. Her faith offered her a final healing epiphany during a prayer session.
Money also played a part in Caine's survival – her medical insurance allowed her excellent care and individual attention at a private psychiatric institution. I could not help but think of how many others must have committed suicide because they didn't have the same advantages.
Out of the Dark is often bleak, and does drag at times with mundane details and repetition. But ultimately it offers hope and inspiration to people who have been brought up in abusive, dysfunctional situations. Indeed few readers would remain untouched by this triumphant story of the human spirit.
Philippa Jamieson is a freelance writer from Dunedin who is travelling around New Zealand as a volunteer on the Willing Workers on Organic Farms scheme.
January 16, 2016
Linda Caine is married and has two kids. One day she has a nervous breakdown and wants to end her life. Linda is forced to look back over her life with the help of Psychiatrist Robin Royston. Together they analyze Linda's past relationships and piece together on what happen to get her to this point. The story is tragic but fascinating. The book is long and drawn out and I did not like the way it is laid out. The book flips back and forth between Linda and Robin during their sessions together which makes the book 200 pages to long.
December 13, 2012
Thought it was a very good read. Don't think I've read about depression before. But found the end of the book dragged a little bit and you just wanted something to happen as it seemed to go over the same ground over and over.
I could understand the idea of her depression, but the whole way she kept having dreams which meant something just seemed a little contrived to me. One or two maybe, but she had quite a few!
I could understand the idea of her depression, but the whole way she kept having dreams which meant something just seemed a little contrived to me. One or two maybe, but she had quite a few!
September 24, 2013
An incredibly powerful story.
It is written in present tense - something I typically find annoying but I stuck with it, because the story intrigued me. It alternates between two points of view - Linda and her therapist, Robin. Charting her journey as she searches for the source of a darkness that is overwhelming her and driving her towards what she believes is the only eventuality - death. It makes for horrific reading, and will stay with me, I think, forever.
It is written in present tense - something I typically find annoying but I stuck with it, because the story intrigued me. It alternates between two points of view - Linda and her therapist, Robin. Charting her journey as she searches for the source of a darkness that is overwhelming her and driving her towards what she believes is the only eventuality - death. It makes for horrific reading, and will stay with me, I think, forever.
February 24, 2015
I thought this book was incredible, sensitive to the subject, informative and intriguing. You really go on a journey with this book, you experience the story as the main character herself experiences it. Living a seemingly normal and perfect life, one day leaves her in her darkest depths of despair, having no idea what is wrong and where these feelings have come from, this is an amazing true story of suppression and depression.
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