In the heat of the late afternoon the city rises up like a huge polar bear shaking off its rhododendrons.
If you can't enjoy this line, you might not enjoy this book. This line is perfect summary, the imagery that needs to be connected is fierce and brilliant. The point is that you are going to be falling into the recesses of Miller's brain, dancing with his Id as a stripper dances with the pole, you'll need to make the connections, you'll need to uncover the brilliance of the geography of Miller's mind.
When i say this, "the geography of Miller's mind," that is how i propose this book. he takes you through the streets of his childhood, to the popular haunts of his time in France, to ancient cities he has explored in his mind, to mythic cities that were popularized by fictions. He takes you not only to the New York of his childhood, but to the way he remembers the New York of his childhood. You are reading a travelogue, and your conductor is a mad scientist.
This is why when he rediscovers something or someone he elaborates not with a description full of the person's actions and life, but of his emotional commitment to that person. If someone from his past was soulless, they'll have tentacles. If someone was a bastion of innocence, they will sprout wings in his memory. For instance the way he remembers Mele, a slightly retarded girl that fascinated Miller with the brilliance of her innocence was the depth in which he witnessed the world punish her:
Two great round eyes, full and black as the night, staring at me uncomprehendingly. No maniac can look that way. No idiot can look that way. Only an angel or a saint.
He epitomizes her as the perfection of this world,
I don't think that Mele had any knowledge of sin or of guilt or of remorse. I think that Mele was born a half-witted angel. I think Mele was a saint...Why couldn't they make a place for her by the fire, let her sit there and dream, if that's what she wanted to do? Why must everybody work--even the saints and the angels? Why must half-wits set a good example?
When he is forced to institutionalize her, he realizes that he is losing a part of himself. her trust in him was self-affirmation, assured by her naivety and unlikeliness to beguile him with false flatteries:
And now she's very tranquil and she calls the cows by their first name. The moon fascinates her. She has no fear because i'm with her and she always trusted me. I was her favorite. Even though she was a half-wit she was good to me. The others were more intelligent, but their hearts were bad...During the journey I wept--I couldn't help it. When people are too good for this world they have to be put under lock and key. There's something wrong with people who are too good.
In order to get Miller, you have to understand his abstraction. He takes the elements from this world and coordinates them into symbols, each with an inherent meaning. Then he blasts those symbols for inconsistency and stereotypes, he exploits as he cleanses. Through him is run a tunnel of choppers and dicers, but also reparation and a system to create new metaphors, metaphors cleansed from the toil of history. His geography is new, without the dirt of the pioneers or the sperm of the crusaders, his map is drawn from the fanciful collection of birds and seahorses and sequins landmasses and anatomical parts that draw up a human being as much as they do a landscape. You have to hear in his metaphor the way things are pieced together, then you start to understand the meaning or instigation:
Life is just a continuous honeymoon filled with chocolate layer cake and cranberry pie. Put a penny in the slot and see a woman undressing on the grass. Put a penny in the slot and win a set of false teeth. The world is made of new parts every afternoon: the soiled parts are set to the dry cleaner, the used parts are scrapped and sold for junk
Here, he uses images from a childhood; the coveted (chocolate cake, undressing woman) versus the deranged (false teeth, a scrap yard, dry cleaner); to infiltrate that part of the psyche that lays dormant when reading details. He is trying to instigate the emotional connections to substance, he does this by recalling the geography of his mind and dancing with the images. His process is monumental:
the air beats thick, the bats are flapping, the cement softens, the iron rails flatten under the broad flanges of the trolley wheels. Life is written down in headlines twelve feet high with periods, commas, and semicolons
Surely nothing is better than to take a train at night when all inhabitants are asleep and to drain from their open mouths the rich succulent morsels of their unspoken tongue. When every one sleeps the mind is crowded with events; the mind travels in a swarm, like summer flies that are sucked along by the train
I move in a golden hum through a syrup of warm lazy bodies
You won't find a coherent story in Miller (unless you read the Rosy Crucifixion or one of his actual travel books), what you will find is a spiritual journey through the connections of the mind. He is a poet who writes in prose. He finds the ethereal substances and writes scores by their name, but he does not attempt to write the music. He is strange, because he writes the notes in their abstraction as one would write details, but he is using the force that drives music to write his prose. Essentially, he is a writer with a poet's mind. Hence, having to make all the connections in what was supposed to just be a story.
In one section of the book, titled "The Angel is my Watermark!" he details a painting that he is creating in vivid detail, calling it at one point, a sad angel with a fallen stomach, and the wings are supported by umbrella ribs. Is he talking about the shape of the figure within the painting? Or is this a comparison? Miller does not include illustrations, most likely because you are supposed to illustrate this image in your mind. He prods the reader for being insufficient at finding the true meaning of the painting, even though he has outlined it to excess. He prods the reader because as he paints the painting he devalues the reader's capability to understand something as oblique and strange and wonderful as angels. He mocks you in order to make you try harder, sort of the antagonistic father figure:
No, I'm afraid you don't! you see only the bleak blue angel frozen by the glaciers. You do not even see the umbrella ribs, because you are not trained to look for umbrella ribs. But you see an angel, and you see a horse's ass. And you may keep them: they are for you! There are no pockmarks on the angel now--only a cold blue spotlight which throws into relief his fallen stomach and his broken arches. The angel is there to lead you to Heaven, where it is all plus and no minus. The angel is there like a watermark, a guarantee of your faultless vision. The angel is there to drop sprigs of parsley in your omelette, to put a shamrock in your buttonhole. I could scrub the mythology out ofthe horse's mane; i could scrub the the yellow out of the Yangtsze Kiang [Yellow River:]; i could scrub the date out of the man in the gondola; i could scrub out the clouds and the tissue paper in which were wrapped the bouquets with forked lightning...But the angel i can't scrub out. The angel is my watermark.
In order to get his harrowing cynicism, you have to imagine that Miller lived in a world of disgusting people. As he saw it, the universe was clean in its entropy, in its structured chaos. But men, who deciphered meanings and religiosity from themes, claimed to hold the universe in their hands. That ignorance deserves to be lamented. But how much of a hypocrite should one be in lambasting the species that you are! Miller takes it with a grain of salt, realizing he can not be a crusader against the awful Crusades. So he calls himself a man, spits and beguiles other men, but upholds an image of austerity to the potential of man as well. He celebrates the well-being of man to create this absurd image of himself and emblazon his way through an entirely damaged idea of life. Someone once told me that Miller upholds Camus' idea of the Absurd man terrifically. He is living in Paris, shit poor with nothing to do but survive, but he is the happiest man on Earth. How can this be? Because he realizes the confrontation between himself and the world order is asinine. We will never own anything. So he lives his life as a flower or as a beast, as a genteel savage. He barks at people, he sniffs their crotches and he dances at night when he hears pretty music. He delivers himself as the rose of a person he was meant to be, and under starlight he accomplishes the same innocence as his friend Mele, before she was institutionalized and lost her sense of complacency and fell into madness. Miller realizes that this madness is potential, by falling into the cold dirge of civilization. So he reinterprets the world, draws up his own map, one that barks and yelps and sings, so you can see the world as a relative strait of images, suspended in its own charisma by the dance of connections on a speculative plane. He realizes himself as only a piece of this world, and he places himself as merely a buoy, a shape within the bizarre geography:
every living man is a museum that houses the horrors of the race. Each man adds a new wing to the museum. And so, each night, standing before the house in which i live, the house which is being torn down, i try to grasp the meaning of it. the more the insides are exposed the more i get to love my house. I love even the old pisspot which stands under the bed, and which nobody uses any more.