Audiobook…read by Viola Davis
……9 hours and 15 minutes
I hope everyone is enjoying a healthy happy Memorial Day weekend. Paul and I are.
Sometimes we just want more time to bask in the experience of a magnificent book —- of an magnificent human being - a powerful Black Woman….unbelievable stories…
….this ‘basking’ is one of those times.
I will sit down and put some thoughts together tomorrow….
But for now…..
I can’t recommend this audiobook more.
I’M BACK… Update:
Viola Davis had a story to tell….carved from experiences that shaped who she is. Trying to fully understand her ‘entire’ life story and ‘how’ she survived unfathomable traumatic conditions—for years—as a child —is staggering…..
…..from unbelievable - devastating - insane - crazy - horrific - very abusive childhood conditions…..
Readers will wonder…..why, WHY didn’t ‘anyone’ help? Where the hell were child services?
But……
Viola was not venting her anger, airing her wounds, asking for pity or going after revenge……
Instead she simply tells the facts - the truth - the ugly stories — unapologetic stories from early childhood to present day.
It’s no accident that Time Magazine named Viola Davis one of the 100 most influential people in the world.
More to say about “Finding Me”……
It’s PHENOMENAL!!!! ….as in EXTREMELY and EXTRAORDINARY mesmerizing…..
…..one of the most impactful audiobooks I’ve ever listened to in my life!!!!!! (seriously!)
I’m baffled at just how powerful — brutal - heart wrenching- heartbreaking - heart stopping - and deeply, profoundly ‘soul’-generous Viola Davis is…..in ‘telling all’.
….From poverty and hardships like you’ve never heard……..
….From shyness, shame and unworthiness….
….From unbelievable abuse both at home and in life…
….To the lioness hard working kick ass, talented, determined, authentic powerhouse inspiring human being…..
….Viola Davis is one of the most remarkable persons on the planet.
“Finding Me”…..is a mind-blowing-explosive memoir.
A couple of times, I tried not to cry - but failed. I cried a ‘few’ times.
My tears came when things were getting ‘better’.
I was more in shock when things were bad.
My only regret- I have from listening to Viola read ‘this/her’ memoir so brilliantly—is that I wish I had been part of a small book group -having ongoing discussions—chapter by chapter.
Paul listened to ‘parts’ - but not all of this book —-(he and I had several conversations—but he missed a lot of poignant parts)….
In my opinion— there is not a word wasted - a tale told that doesn’t have a purpose—
Note…
I’m going to go crazy if I try to say here all the things I really want to say…..and readers who are kind enough to read this review will go nuts if I ‘do’ write all I have to say….(so I’ll never succeed)….
But/And/So…….
I am reminded…..
……why - in community - readers & reviewers - can each contribute to each other by bringing up tidbits in ‘each’ of our different reviews…..WE All HELP each other out. Many times another reviewer will express in words….
….our deepest experiences — to fit ours — words we were lacking in accessibility at the time ourselves……( so we need each other to draw out different aspects of books we cherish)
This book needs MANY readers. We need to examine, explore, scrutinize, question, contemplate, dig deep, chew, study, and appraise…..[together-as-community]….a book like this: to be clear …’This Book’: Viola Davis’s memoir. Many lessons - insights - to take away.
Much to learn, reflect, and think about. I’m guessing every reader will continue thinking about this book long after finishing it - certain sections more than others (all for varied reasons)….
After getting past the early(nightmare) childhood years —-Viola began her career (so damn interesting of even how she got from A to B), in Central Falls, Rhode Island….
….Viola had me ‘hanging-by-a-tread’ when she took a 4 hour train ride — to audition - to get into Juilliard ….
OMG….what a story!
And a COMPLETE story ( gets better and better)….
from the audition process - to attending the damn school as a BLACK women who felt she was being asked to HIDE her BLACKNESS— to fit in.
It’s an AMAZING story …..KICK-ASS - cheer-for story …..
during a time when Viola had an opportunity to spend a semester in Africa……
ONE OF MY FAVORITE sections of this book….
….Viola had a chance to practice her craft and learn from the African tribes….(women and blackness was worshiped).
I wanted to stand up - cheer - laugh - scream - cry - ‘root-for- Viola….
I wanted to celebrate her joy, her eye-opening insights….her passion….her love…her loyalty to truth….to integrity….her authenticity…..her boldness, bravery, and discovery into FINDING HERSELF…
Sisterhood in Africa among black women went deep. And here Viola was coming from her school, Juilliard, where she was being classically trained to MAKE EVERY EFFORT to MAKE HER BLACKNESS DISAPPEAR! (shame on the teachers)….
In Africa. …..dark black skin was unapologetically beautiful.
A breakthrough was beginning….
TONS more inspiring tales…..
….Explore themes about ‘temporary’ love (incredibly quality truths)
….Explore….
poverty, extreme hunger, no heat, no running water, frozen pipes, rats, mice, filth, urine smells, thrift clothes, emotional, physical, mental, spiritual trauma, fighting to survive, hopes, dreams, the desire to GO TO SCHOOL, to excel in school, older sister inspiration, racism, blackness, sexism, struggles throughout, white privileges, hard work, training, goals, blessings, deprivations, family, parents, siblings, feelings of worth, fears, responsibilities (“if you make it out…you go back and pull everybody else out”), love, rejection, more love, more rejection, marriage, kids, career highlights (theater, Broadway, movies, TV series, artists, actors, community & camaraderie pride), loneliness, isolation, disillusionments, awkwardness, illness, embarrassments, acceptance, awards, transformation, forgiveness, death, love, therapy, ….
EMOTIONAL HEALTH IS NECESSARY….
….a little luck (impossible without the work), ‘very’ interesting details about the BUSINESS of being a working actor ….
[I know much of these facts - our 40 year old daughter is a steady working actor in Hollywood since childhood]…..
But it was soooo rewarding for me to have Viola spell out the nitty-gritty truths.
People are ignorant- when they negatively bash Hollywood actors — generalize, and lumped everything into their own assumptions.
Viola spells the beans on what the inner circle knows — it’s WORK.
….. only 4% of those in the sag union make enough money to even qualify to take out medical insurance.
And once in a blue moon - it feels like a miracle happened.
As Whoopi Goldberg once said…..
“I’ve been bad a lot. I’ve been good sometimes, and I have been great just a few times”.
When Viola shares her ‘golden’ moments….
….not just winning an Emmy, a Tony nomination, a Golden Globe award, screen actors Guild award, a star on the Hollywood walk of fame, an Academy award for best supporting actress….etc. etc….
Or…
one of the highest rewards: being inducted into the “Academy of Motion Picture Arts and Sciences”…..
but
HER authentic FEELING ALIVE moments (such as working on “Seven Guitars”….filming “”Fences….and that “Broadway” really is as grand as dreamed ….and the growth & gift to filming “How to Get Away With Murder” series …..respecting the real craft of artistry ….relationships….(no longer ashamed for who she is)….
it’s totally wonderfully remarkable to celebrate this outstanding woman.
Paul and I haven’t even finished the first season of “How to Get Away With Murder”, yet….we are late to watch it….but we are loving it …….
……even ‘more’ — since listening to this book.
IT’S SUCH a JOY to share in PURITY and HUMANITY of who Viola Davis is.