I have to be a constant actress, on my guard and yet fitting into every situation. Always the wedge of moon above, reminding me of my destiny and holy water. (6)
Once again, I felt we had nothing to say to each other, but Ray told me the plot of a movie he had just seen. This is a symptom. I've noticed how any time a man tells me the plot of a movie, it is a kind of declaration of love. (21)
You would give anything to be so sure of yourself, so American. (63)
Three weeks and I didn't miss it at all. But as soon as I got back tonight, I went straight to my dealer's. That's New York for you. (90)
More than ever, I realize, everyone I know is just playing at being a grown-up; I have to include myself. (93)
It's a surprise to me, to be twenty-seven with my life still unsettled. (98)
I suddenly wished I could go back to school and take physics again; I knew this time I could understand it. The notion of random particles, random events, didn't seem at all difficult to comprehend. The whole business was like understanding traffic patterns, with unplanned crackups and hit-and-run accidents. Somewhere I read that increasing the rate of collisions between positrons and electrons will result in interesting "events" that physicists can study. Quarks, quirks, leptons, protons, valance electrons, tracers, kryptons, isotropes- who knew what powerful forces were at work? I saw how emotions caused objects to go whizzing about. If I had gotten into the limousine earlier that evening I'd be in the same mess, only in a different neighborhood; at least in this place I had love, a feeling that came at a person like a Dodgem car in an amusement park, where the sign says PROCEED AT OWN RISK. (135)
"Uh," I say. "Something's wrong with me. I don't think I'm the same person anymore." (159)
I move to the edge of the bed, bend over, my head between my knees. My hair touches the floor. In my veins- some thin and twisty, others flat, ropy- I can feel my blood, thrown for a loop, struggling to flow uphill where only a second before it was flowing down. (170)
I lay on my bed and shut my eyes. I was thinking about my mother. She had tried to teach me to be a femme fatale, I don't know why her lessons hadn't taken before. I guess she had started too late. Now I could see my life was going to be different. Then I passed out. (195)
"I don't like to watch my food die in front of me; I like my meat to be killed and cooked offstage before I eat it." For a moment Borali looked embarrassed, as if he had revealed something he shouldn't have. (218)
I knew then it was up to me to negotiate a life for myself. I remembered a guy I had met and wrote him a letter. (228)