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271 pages, Paperback
First published January 1, 1982
There stood my mother, Emma, who was herself a child. Outside of school, she had never had any responsibilities, any work to do. Her servants had raised her children. She was purely ornamental.
Nothing bad was supposed to happen to her – ever. But here she was in a thin bathrobe now, without her husband or servants, or her basso profundo elder son. And there I was, her gangling, flute-voiced younger son, a murderer.
I have never made love to anyone.
Nor have I tasted alcohol, except for homeopathic doses of it in certain recipes – but the others had been drinking champagne. Not since I was twelve, for that matter, have I swallowed coffee or tea, or taken a medicine, not even an aspirin or a laxative or an antacid or an antibiotic of any sort. This is an especially odd record for a person who is, as I am, a registered pharmacist, and who was the solitary employee on the night shift of Midland City’s only all-night drugstore for years and years.
So be it.



Minorite Church Vienna by Adolf Hitler 1910-1912
Our narrator is the son of the artist who befriended Adolf Hitler. The recipes, who expected those?I think I am a homosexual, but I can't be sure. I have never made love to anyone.All of this might be seen as existential nihilism - except that Rudy isn't at all interested in an alternate subjective meaning for himself. It sounds like he just wants to get it all over with:
I wanted to get into my bed and pull the covers over my head. That was my plan. That is still pretty much my plan.~ but he also wants to leave us with his story.
I give you a holy word: DISARM.It's not just a warning re: guns. The town in Ohio that Rudy hails from is leveled by a neutron bomb (The suggestion is that the US government was behind that. Apparently Rudy doesn't shy away from conspiracy theories.)
We all see our lives as stories, it seems to me, and I am convinced that psychologists and sociologists and historians and so on would find it useful to acknowledge that. If a person survives an ordinary span of sixty years or more, there is every chance that his or her life as a shapely story has ended, and all that remains to be experienced is epilogue. Life is not over but the story is. ... Maybe my own country's life as a story ended after the Second World War, when it was the richest and most powerful nation on earth, when it was going to ensure peace and justice everywhere, since it alone had the atom bomb.Who wants to bet on what's in that sentiment?