Mild spoilers throughout the review, but y'all, we've read this book by now, haven't we? Or at least looked up her Wikipedia page and learned the truth?
All right. Good. Now proceed.
This was yet another book I swore to reread as an adult. So here I am, officially an adult by my own standards, rereading this book.
When I was probably 12, I read this book the first time, by myself as my mom didn't want to read it again (for obvious reasons, I now see!) and was confused and disappointed. I realized, for the first time, that I had been reading Rose's fictional reflection on her mother's retelling of events she probably didn't remember super clearly. I realized that, even though I'd felt for years that the Little House books dealt with plenty tragedy, they hadn't scratched the surface. I realized it was a fantasy. And at 12, you know, I was old enough to be okay with that.
At 14 or so, I reread it and noticed a lot of elements I hadn't the first time (Laura's bitterness, the loss of her second baby, the way she clearly wants to prove herself to parents who don't really believe in her - granted, for good reason, tbh - even her little "well, at least I enjoyed it" in reference to the *coughs* creation of Rose ... thanks, Laura, always good to know xD).
I also realized the full story that my mom had briefly told me as a kid - that a "friend" (not my friend, thank you very much) had published this draft, really more of an outline by my writing standards, that Laura scribbled out and forgot (probably losing interest after her husband's death), that Rose didn't rewrite, that were not meant to be published.
And I'm glad they were published. But if I ever get famous, I'm going to seriously consider deleting all my old drafts, because I wouldn't want this kind of draft out there. And I think Laura probably wouldn't want this available for all to read, either. Rose didn't seem to, either. I can see why.
Now, I'm 20 and married, and I don't feel like an adult, much as Laura probably didn't at 19, and I'm 100% sure I'll face tragedy in the next four years. So good as time as any to reread it, right?
And you know, it's an interesting story. It makes you realize that Laura was writing her own life however she wanted to write it, and then her daughter was rewriting this "however I want it to be", and when that happens, a lot gets changed and covered up. (Also, children's fiction.)
I came across the theory that Laura was probably just as whiny and stuck-up as Mary, as weak and easily-influenced as Carrie, and as she probably lived out her wish for herself ("my stubbornness is charming" - and yes, the book character is - "my gambling, foolish nature makes me heroic" - and in the books, it does!) through these books.
Which sounds exactly like something I would do if I weren't trying to be a little more self-aware.
I also realized that she was probably reliving, through writing, a tragic and even traumatic life to process some serious stuff. Like almost starving multiple times and having to face tons of dangerous illnesses multiple times and losing a brother and having a sister go blind and moving away from homes over and over again and losing a baby (and then literally never talking about it) and having your husband refuse to listen to you when you say, "I don't want to do this thing my dad spent his whole life failing at. Also, you shouldn't probably rule the budget because you are a spoiled (almost) youngest child."
Basically, if you don't have a safe life, you try to create something comforting and safe. And honestly, these books are that. So comforting and safe, even when rough things happen.
And you know what? Despite it all, you can tell Laura loved her husband. She did, and she loved her baby daughter, too. And she loved her family in general, though I feel a lot of unrealized frustration toward her father and a lot of realized frustration toward her mother. Which is understandable.
Even the starkness and the bareness and openness of this book can't take that away. Nor can it take away Laura's temper - how I love her temper.
Anyways, basically, I have reread this book and found it to be very interesting and without rating. How could you rate this book? I don't know how. Everyone else has been able to, but I just don't know how to begin.
Should I rate it out of anger at the publisher? Should I rate for my disappointment, my disillusionment? Should I rate it based on how depressed it made me? Should I rate it out of respect for Laura? Should I rate my level of approval at her self-revisions of her life? Should I rate it out of respect for Rose's skills as a writer in the other books?
I don't know - I don't know! So I don't rate it. And I say, "Wow, Laura. What a life you led! And I'm sorry for those first four years, and, probably, the years before them. And I hope you have peace now."
Read this book - but do me a favor and read the first eight a completed series then read this one whenever you're ready for reality. It's not really a novel in the series, at least not as intended by the author. However, as a spin-off, perhaps even a short biography, I think it's fantastic.
And wow, does it make you think!