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First published January 1, 1974
Clare, her hands in the pockets of her school coat, her face stinging from the cold, moved slowly round the church, staring at one inscription after another, giving her attention to the whole chronicle of wood merchants, burghers and benefactors of the poor, of husbands and fathers, wives, mothers and children. She felt an obligation to listen. It would be nice, she thought, to be a person living in this place and sit every Sunday beside these names, especially if maybe they were the same as your own name, or people you knew. You would feel settled, if you were a person who did that.
Another set of thoughts, and experiences, and attitudes had joined all the others whose misty imprint surely still lingered somehow behind the yellow brick and gothic windows. Yearnings of late Victorian housemaids, boredom of the aunts, cloistered in the schoolroom, the despondency of governesses... Great-grandmother's busy pursuit of an appropriate and well-ordered life, the heady breeze of the aunts' resolution to determine their own futures... Friends, relations, students... And, faintest of all, the alien flavour of remote, half-understood things known only to great-grandmother. The shadows of another world and another time.
John said sadly, "I'm afraid Miss Cooper doesn't like me."
"No," said Clare, "it's that she doesn't know how to arrange you in her mind. You know how Librarians put books under History or Poetry or Gardening? She doesn't know where to put you, so she's in a fuss." Having said that, she was amazed. How do I know that? Maureen's nearly thirty. But it's true.
"You may be right," said John. "I've interfered with her social perspectives."
"I wish you wouldn't use words like that."
"Sorry. I've upset her cataloguing system."
"That's better, I suppose."
"I'm a book about electrical engineering, but written in blank verse."
"Actually," said Clare, "she feels you're probably cleverer than she is, and you're a man, so that puts you in one kind of order, but then you're black, and foreign, so that puts you in another, which gets her all muddled."
"You are a very odd girl - did you know that?"
"Yes."
"You don't need to look as if you'd done something wrong. Personally I think people are better if they are odd. Your aunts are odd, too. You're rather like them, in fact."
"Am I?" said Clare, delighted. "Honestly?"
"Of course. You have the same way of going to the middle of things. Not bothering about pretences."
...(Clare) "Why am I benevolent?"
"Finding people kind."
"Aren't they?"
"Individually, yes," said Aunt Susan. "Collectively, seldom."
..."What you need, you will find you already have to hand - of that I've not the slightest doubt. You are a listener. It is only those who have never listened who find themselves in trouble eventually."emphasis mine
"Why?"
"Because it is extremely dull," said Aunt Susan tartly, "to grow old with nothing inside your head but your own voice. Tedious, to put it mildly."

Presently the thoughts lost their insistence and the words~Chapter 3
won : a strange and distant world moved into the library at Norham Gardens, a world of forests and birds of paradise and
inscrutable beliefs.
'I shouldn't think so. There is a rather regrettable tendency~Chapter 3
nowadays to fence people off according to age. The "young"—as though they were some particular breed. A misleading idea, on the
whole. Perhaps you are just not good at being fenced off.'
'Oh. I see.'
'The same is done to us, of course. The old. This medicine is quite remarkably nasty.'
'Have a cup of tea, quick. Do you feel fenced off?'
She spun, and the bubble spun and the featureless sky spun~Chapter 10
around it, and she could not get out, and it would not stop.