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906 pages, Kindle Edition
First published January 1, 1962
I did not want to hear the voices of people who had consented to the death of millions of Jews and resistance members; I did not want to find their name in any publication side by side with my own. We had said: 'We shall not forget'; I was not forgetting that.To give this work less than five stars would require succumbing to self-hatred to such a degree as to practically negate the last five years of my personal growth. I gave into Memoirs of a Dutiful Daughter as into a dream of youthful revelation I so wished to have had myself, absorbed Prime of Life as a record of one of the most sensationalized periods of the 20th century transcribed and participated by the narrator as I would hope to have transcribed and participated myself, and came to this expecting increased distance but instead finding the crux of poisonous self destruction that is a common side effect of combating injustice on a worldwide scale, a commitment I have been reckoning with since my college years. The further along the narrative, the more painful the reading, and certain judgments of Beauvoir's make me want to scream in her face, but that is several pages out of nearly 700, and ultimately I am supremely grateful to her for writing history as holistically as it should be, not the superficialities slathered over atrocities dictated me from cradle to a supposed grave. Everything has changed, and yet nothing has changed, and the political infighting, the panic attacks, the morose cutting off of entire swatches of pleasures and the fierce grasp on the utmost humanizing pursuits necessary to one's soul: all are here, and if I were ask whether I'd trade places with Beauvoir, I, for once, would have to say no. I would have loved, however, barring the violating rigmarole of the Euro latter 20th century, to be one of those young ones who reassured her that her dreams had not died, even as I inevitably wounded her with my youth. I would feel less agonized over finishing this if there were other writers who funneled all their refusal to accept individual privilege as substitute for worldwide equity. Sartre, Fanon, and Amado will all likely have their revisits; beyond that, for the sweet, fulfilling, heartrending balance of well crafted prose and bloody truth: who else?
So many things have happened since 1945, and hardly any of them have really been expressed in books. Future generations will have to look to sociological works, statistics, or simply the newspapers, if they want to find out about us.
[The French] were told: 'You're like the Germans under the Nazis!' And they answered — I heard it with my own ears, and it was the prevailing sentiment — 'Yes, the poor Germans; one realizes now it wasn't their fault.'
The truth was that they gave a great sigh of relief, as though all the crimes of colonialism and all the exploitation of capitalism had been annulled by the camps in Siberia.
For years I had been opposed to the official governments of France; but I had never before been in a position where I found myself rejoicing over a defeat; it was even more shocking than spitting on a victory.Everyone, in some way, has been impacted by World War II. What is less interesting to mass media is the impact of the WWII aftermath, as the test prep material I teach gives a very different picture of de Gaule and the protests, warfare, and terrorism that surrounded his reign. Beuavoir's words put me in touch with many a famous and infamous name, along with a litany of others that threatened at times to inundate my reading. For the most part I was extremely pleased, even when the narration was at its most harrowing, to recognize so many names and find them sometimes dismissed but mostly praised in ways that made me proud of having found my way to these figures esteemed by Beauvoir under my own power. As I said previously, though, individual figures are less important than what she has to say about death and living with oneself after one wishes all would die because of the web of inhumanity one finds oneself trapped within.
On 7 August — I had just got back to Paris — the A-bomb was dropped on Hiroshima. This meant the end of the war, and a revolting massacre; it heralded the possibility of perpetual peace, and also the possibility of the end of the world. We argued about it endlessly.
True political action must necessarily contain an implicit moral evaluation of itself. (Sartre, Le Fantôme de Staline)
I was — like Sartre — insufficiently liberated from the ideologies of my class; at the very moment I was rejecting them, I was still using their language to do so. That language has become hateful to me because, as I now know, to look for the reasons why one should not stamp on a man's face is to accept stamping on it.
[W]ith prosperity, we returned once more to hierarchies, distances, barriers.I received a great deal of insight into the creation process of The Second Sex, The Mandarins, and the first two entries into this autobiography, which contextualized my various approvals and disapprovals into a more informed stance. Beavuoir discussed many of her other works that I am reading at least one of, and I look forward to seeing how I engage with The Blood of Others now that I am aware of the motivations and receptions on the part of the author herself. The Death of the Author and all that jazz, but Beauvoir herself was unafraid of forcing literature to take on political responsibility in the realms of the living and the dead, and considering the circumstances of her past, with its prison camps, near starvation, assassination attempts and all that informed her choices, I won't be the one to argue that she was wrong to think such. All in all, this is a powerful meditation on a life and its decisions across continents and ideological divides, filled with grand successes, miserable failures, and the deadening, horrific complacency those on the cusp of historical 'progress' often find themselves trapped within that give the lie to the idea that the passage of time guarantees the gradual uplift of all humanity. The cathedral of Notre Dame was recently affected by a fire. Watch the antisemitic, Islamophobic, bigoted hate crime rates begin to rise.
...Morality yes, but sewers first.
Obsessed as ever with its greatness, the seat of power had seen fit to deprive civil servants of their daily bread but not to appear in the eyes of the world as the persecutor of famous writers.
'You know, what we've found out about Djamila Boupacha doesn't look too good!' he said, as though I'd recommended her as a house-maid. 'A high official who knows all about the case says she's under the gravest suspicion,' he added. 'I don't see that that's any justification for sticking a coke bottle into her,' I said. 'No, obviously not...' And while we were on the subject, he asked me to change the word 'vagina', which was the one Djamila had used, to 'womb'. In case teenagers read the article,' he explained. 'They might start asking their parents for explanations...' Is that the only question they're likely to ask?
In my eyes, this courage effaced nothing; it is the Fascists who attach more importance to how we die than to our acts.Fora all Beauvoir's pain in later years, she at least made it past her 20s and the currently completely unimaginable by me landscape of the 30s, 40s, and 50s, and right now, the 20s seem bad enough. However, she fought when she could and rested when she needed to, so I'm going to learn from her inability to live the perfect/safe life and ride the aggravating circumstances out with my eyes on the eventual prize. The prize may be as much as a lie as Beauvoir's dreams of humanistic revolution ended up mostly being, but it's a matter of having impact, and even here at this transitory period of life, I find myself positively affecting many youngsters who have similar views of the world and a similar drive to not take injustices as something 'normal' that accompanies growing up. On a less bombastic scale, it's been a very long time since I composed a review this lengthy, which gives to show how much of an influence Beauvoir has had and continues to have on my life and my decisions. My hopes are that she continues to sustain me with more fortifications in both the fourth and final volume of her autobiography and anything other works of hers I can get my hands on. Beggars can't be choosers, and while I'm not begging yet, I aim to at least kick myself out of bed to ensure that. Beauvoir had panic attacks all throughout her wondrous existence. That's a hell of a relatable uplift.
To smile at opponents and friends alike is to debase one's commitments to the status of mere opinions, and all intellectuals, whether of the Right or the Left, to their common bourgeois condition.
...[I]f one really does think one's opinions are at all worthwhile, why shelter behind one's name, one's reputation, one's past achievements? The self-important man either affects contempt for people or demands their respect. This is because he hasn't the courage to face them as equals; he renounces his freedom because he is afraid of its dangers. This blindness, this deceit, shocks me particularly in writers, whose first virtue — no matter how fantastic their flights — should be a fearless sincerity.
The government had shed blood in order to disperse fifty thousand demonstrators; it was now obliged to allow seven hundred thousand of them to march through the heart of a Paris on strike.
People would come up to me with beaming smiles and say: 'I don't agree with you politically; but I liked your book so much!' 'Let's hope you don't like the next one' I replied to one of them.
They do not want happiness: they want to live.
What good is happiness if it not only does not bring me truth, but even hides it from me?
Tonight, once more, life sinks its teeth into my heart.