"I only did what any of us can do, in any situation... my very best"
yeah, this one was a tough read. Laura Palmer's fate has been unveiled since the first few minutes of the pilot episode, and yet, in here, in Fire Walk With Me, in the middle of season 2 and a lot more instances throughout Twin Peaks, you can't help but wish her ending was different.
Laura is the embodiment of a girl that grew up too fast, a women in the eyes of men, a little girl on the eyes of the innocent. nothing about this was news to me. what hurts is that for the first time we get to see her experience early womanhood through her pov, and if someone had helped her and eased her mind about her feelings of lust and desire in such a "young" age (its completely normal to start getting curious about sex when we reach puberty), her teenage years would have been completely different.
So maybe I'll rewrite the beginning of the last paragraph: Laura is the embodiment of every girl who was failed by their peers, made to feel like an abnormality for wanting to explore herself, in a small town where everyone gossips and puts up a facade to cover their dark corrupted minds.
I'm glad Lynch let his daughter write Laura's diary; for as talented as he can be, the female experience in the world is the cruellest of punishments. we seek approval, we seek any type of feeling close to love, we seek perfection, and most of the times we're retributed with violence, being it emotional or physical.
I also appreciate the way BOB is incorporated in the diary entries, taking over Laura's pen sometimes. "THIS IS THE FIRE YOU MUST WALK THROUGH"
She wasn't perfect, she wasn't even a real person to begin with, and yet she's probably one of my favourite people in the world for being so relatable and flawed, and at its core, just a girl. Now that I'm writing this, and I know it sounds absurd, i see why Laura is easy to resonate with: her being the complete opposite to Bella Swan (yes, I'm talking about Twilight) in terms of charisma and the way she carries herself in the world is somehow, at the same time, close to Bella's character. Both surrounded by monsters, both believing they are the problem, both extremely depressed and addicted to love in any shape or form.
Wishing Laura was real so I could give her a hug. It probably wouldn't have saved her nonetheless.