I always feel bad dnf-ing a book because so much hard work and talent has gone into writing/publishing the book. However, with this one I decided to stop while I was ahead.
I dnf-ed at 25%. I think that's a fair assessment of the book and enough to make a decision about it. At where I was at the book, it was probably going to get 3 stars, but I could tell that if I kept reading it then I would've dropped it down to 2 stars. Also, I shot my shot yesterday and got rejected to so I really wasn't in the mood to continue reading a romance novel.
I know that when reading there's supposed to be a suspension of disbelief. Plus, what happened in the novel is totally possible (sometimes). The main girl (I forgot her name. I think it's Dana? I'll just call her Dana) accompanied her friend Olivia to an audition and got chosen even though she didn't audition. I know that's totally possible, it's how the boy who played the main character in the movie Little Boy got cast. But I do think there was something fundamentally different about why they got cast even though they didn't audition. Reportedly, the little boy got cast because the director saw him and the little boy just gave off the right "innocent child" vibes (that's my own words btw). I don't know much else besides that, but that's very different than Dana getting selected. The casting director stormed out screaming about how everyone is wasting his time, he targets Dana and asks if she's auditioning and when she says no he's like "WELL WHY THE HELL NOT?!" So he basically forces Dana to audition even though she didn't want to. She sings "Happy Birthday" but she says her voice cracked while singing it. She does the dance audition, and then for some reason she's chosen.
Suspension of disbelief and all that, but what? If there's more talented girls there then why would they chose Dana? This book also does 2 really annoying things:
1) It's constantly like, "Dana is poor. She is trapped by her life. Her friend is rich. The friend can and should help."
2) It constantly complained about people with actual equipment and clothes designed for performance and dance. What I mean by that is that Olivia (I think that's her name) is like, "Ugh, they're all total snobs" when talking about girls who have dance clothes and shoes and stuff. It's kinda like, yeah, some girls may own all this stuff just for the name and stuff, but others own it because they are passionate about the art and can afford it. It was kinda like if people who use Artist's Loft markers were constantly complaining about people who use Copic markers. They're both good and do what they're supposed to. Just because some people can afford Copics doesn't mean they're snobs, they're utilizing what's availible to them and what's in their price range.
And to relate those two points back to the whole thing of Dana getting cast, it was just weird. It felt very much like a deus ex machina but it didn't make sense. It was like the author was saying, "Wow, Dana has such a crappy life. I wonder what would happen if she was handed not-poverty on a silver platter." And I'm not trying to be rude or blunt here, because I know that many people struggle financially and in other areas of life. I don't want to minimize that problem. I'm just saying that the author seemed to use Dana's home life as an excuse for Dana getting cast and for Dana to agree to it.
Dana and Olivia's relationship was interesting. They're best friends but one is going to leave soon (until she doesn't because, you know, the plot of the book). Olivia has anorexia (I think) and their whole friend group knows that, but they don't do anything about it. If I remember correctly, this is also a relapse because she'd gone to counseling before but then relapsed. Now, I've never had a friend with an eating disorder (that I know of anyway) so I can't confidently say, "This is what I would do" and I will not say, "This is what they should do." But I am a little concerned that her friends don't seem more concerned? Yes, Dana will prompt Olivia by saying stuff like, "Aren't you hungry?" or "Do you want some of my fries?" but at the beginning of the book Dana also says something like, "Olivia's shirt showed her collarbones. They looked sharp. Almost too sharp" (I don't remember the exact wording). Also, they all refuse to tell Olivia's mom or any other adult. Even though I didn't finish the book, I'm guessing that Olivia's condition gets worse. I'm also going to guess that it's because Alex "chooses" Dana over Olivia and Olivia has had a crush on him for years. That's just my guess anyway (remember, I didn't finish the book).
One more thing that discouraged me from continuing the book was the writing style. Something just felt...off? The book takes place in the 90s and I was not alive so obviously I can't really understand the culture and the atmosphere of the time, but something just felt off about the book. The vibes were a mix of the 90s and the 2010s. Also, the character dialogue was trippy. For the most part, they spoke like teens but every now and then the characters would say some really fancy word that straight up sounded like it was from the SAT. But then again, who knows. Maybe students in the 90s casually peppered their speech with SAT words. It was just weird and it didn't vibe right.
Like I said, I always feel bad dnf-ing a book. But this time, I didn't dnf it out of rage, but rather more out of sadness and disinterest. I'm sure it's a fine and dandy book, it just wasn't fine and dandy for me.