I DO NOT REMEMBER THE LAST TIME I WAS SO HAPPY TO BE DONE A BOOK
This wins worst book I've read in 2021!
I was not impressed... here's why:
As we come to learn in the book, Richard Alpert had serious problems. Emotional problems that whatever therapy/psychoanalysis he was doing were not seeming to really solve. He was a heavy drinker, started doing pot because his patient recommended it (??), felt empty in his work and achievements, called himself neurotic... which meant the Freudian psychoanalysis, therapy he received, and his enjoyment of work were garbage (he would get diarrhea when lecturing).
So far, seems like he had some emptiness and emotional problems that needed a fix. I did not quite see how those deep-rooted problems were solved by his spiritual journey throughout the book - other than the work change of course. After being tired of his life as a Harvard professor, he wanted a change. So he decided to start experimenting with taking LSD. After experiences he enjoyed, he continued experimenting with LSD, hoping it would make him feel better and give him spiritual answers. On LSD he was able to feel this - "'I'm just a new beautiful being - I'm just an inner self - all I'll ever need to do is look inside and I'll know what to do and I can always trust it, and here I'll be forever.'" (6)
But two days later, no more acid, "I was talking about the whole thing in the past tense. I was talking about how I 'experienced' this thing, because I was back being that anxiety-neurotic, in a slightly milder form.. my old personality sneaking back up on me" (6). Hmm, it seems like LSD isn't the solution either! In fact, after a three-week experiment involving constantly being on LSD (2400 mcg/day), once they came down, an 'extraordinary depression set in - a very gentle depression that whatever I knew still wasn't enough!' (9).
If taking LSD was really enough to give you all the answers, why wouldn't everyone do it?
After that, Alpert went on a journey to Asia/India, where he was influenced by various gurus and spiritual men. (Note, by the way, that all the real people who had a spiritual influence on him were MEN. There were zero women who had any role, and there was barely any mention of women as part of the story at all, actually, apart from occasional mentions of his mother. There's nothing wrong with having male gurus, but it seemed quite male-dominated/focused and didn't seem fully whole from that.)
Ram Dass told the dialogue of him and one of his gurus:
"Did I ever tell you about the time..."
"Don't think about the past. Be here now."
"How long do you think we'll be on this trip?"
"Don't think about the future. Just be here now."
"I feel really crummy, my hips are hurting..."
"Emotions are like waves. Watch them disappear in the distance on the vast calm ocean." (13)
>> First of all, my joke response: how about I watch you stfu😂
>> Serious response: I get the message, but the delivery was kind of annoying. No empathy, just a "spiritual lesson" to be taught. Of course emotions are like waves and come and go. Is this news? Does that suddenly change whatever you are feeling into a different emotion? No, at least not for me. What usually works for people to feel better is to ACCEPT their emotion - yes, you are feeling crummy and that's okay. I didn't hear any of this in the 'lesson'.
I appreciated the value in different methods of sharing messages ("One can share a message... through teaching methods of yoga, or singing, or making love. Each of us finds this unique vehicle for sharing with others his bit of wisdom" (20)), but to me, all contributions are not equal in making the world a better place. Singing someone else's song isn't of the same value as feeding the hungry, emotionally supporting others, protecting the environment, etc.
"You don't have to have that urge/that desire that unfulfilled thing. Just let it be. Just be be be be more be more more. What's holding you back? Your thoughts, huh? You've got to give them up. What are you doing? Planning for the future? Well it's all right now. But later? forget it baby. That's later. Now is now. Are you going to be here or not? It's as simple as that!"" (P2:22)
>>This is a perfect example of a quote that's trying to push you into his thinking style. NOT BEING IN THE MOMENT IS WRONG! THERE IS NO OTHER RIGHT ANSWER SPIRITUALLY! BE IN THE MOMENT AT ALL TIMES! Also, in one second, give up all your thoughts! I won't tell you how, but just listen to me and do it. Also, no planning or thinking of the future allowed! Forget it ALL! (Maybe what he's saying is a bit Buddhist - don't have hope for the future, etc. but I personally do not enjoy thinking that way, it does not make me a better person nor make me feel fulfilled, so I will not be doing that.)
Dass loved to give repetitious quotes that (it seems like he thought) were wisdom bombs, but gave absolutely zero explanation/advice of how to achieve/get to what he was talking about. Example:
"What you've got to do is create in yourself an absolutely calm center where it's always right here & now. It is just light it is just is-ness" (P2:46)
>>So, how is this calm center achieved? Maybe you will point me to the cookbook section at the end of the book... and if so, I didn't find the answer there either.
Back to the theme of 'here and now', Dass repeated that you can 'always be in a state of here and now'. But how? I find that very hard to believe. Ram Dass was always in that state 100% of the time? As a normal human it is extremely difficult, if not entirely impossible, to ALWAYS be in one state. It almost seems counterintuitive to the human experience to always be one way, or in one state.
When Guru loved Ram Dass unconditionally, no one had ever done that before.
Ram Dass was touched he could love someone "corrupt, ugly, impure" (P2:69).
This was sad. Clearly he wasn't in a good place if he was thinking those things about himself because he had 'impure' thoughts (sexual and others). He didn't seem loving towards himself.
Everyone has 'good' and 'bad' aspects or qualities, if you want to look at it like that.. (which he wouldn't, because pretty sure he doesn't like dualities)
The black and white views bothered me. "You've got to be really pure / you can't just make believe you're pure"/"Anything less than total purity back into outer darkness that's what you learn after a couple of hundred psychedelic trips I might as well go straight because I'm beginning to feel like a yo-yo I keep going up and coming down up down up down up down" (P2:100). He also says "purification of thought" is needed (100) without really explaining how to do this.
Renunciation: "As each worldly desire falls away, eventually the only desire is for bliss. Then that one must be thrown away..." (P3:9)
I really don't get how these concepts apply to people in real life with jobs, school, families, etc.
Disagree:
Recommends abstaining as much as possible from spicy/strong foods. "Most Westerners are very sensual and spend large amounts of time in titillating their palates with variety and subtlety in tastes. The sadhak realizes that all sense gratification is merely perpetuating the enslavement to desire so he attempts, early on, to surrender the taste trip in favor of his spiritual goal." (P3:18)
>>Nothing wrong with having desires or enjoying food. Sorry!
A pro for psychedelics according to Dass: they 'short-term strengthen your faith in the possibility of enlightenment to pursue systematic purification'. If you need psychedelics to be hopeful of enlightenment, YOU'RE the one with the problem.
"Industrial revolution and money economy... has caused the virtual destruction of the family as a spiritual and psychic union by compelling at least one and often both principal members to become money earners." (P3:109)
WHAT DO YOU EXPECT? We don't all live on some commune or magical country with no money currency. Parents having jobs and earning money DOES NOT DESTROY ANY UNION AT ALL.
It gets better... "reliance on daycare & schools to provide spiritual foundation which they cannot be expected to provide. Society is in essence profane & continues same level of consciousness" (P3:109)
There is no reliance on them whatsoever. Nobody gave them that responsibility. It's the parent's job no matter how much they see their kids; and the time kids are at home is the time for spiritual education, should the parents so choose to do that.
"The family is dispersed, members isolated from each other and effectively only together as an economic and sleeping unit. No center to radiate from and no spiritual-psychic support system. It is dead. The outlook is bleak from this vantage point." (P3:109).
Dass is so negative and a little delusional(?). You think families have no centre and don't support each other spiritually? You think families only interact to have shelter and sleep? God...
"Can/will you let go of all the things and values and trips that you have gotten caught in? If you can adapt your present means of livelihood to your spiritual work than you're cool."He recommends families going and starting a farm, crafts, general store, restaurant, bookstore to restore the 'psychic organism' of the family. Also, put religious decorations everywhere to "make the whole environment support it" (P3:110).
>> Sigh, this is where the 'hippie-ness' came in that isn't relevant to most people. I'm not gonna move to a farm to make the way my family lives fit with your expectation of what is psychically healthy!
So, near the end of reading I talked to the wisest, most spiritual person I know -my mom. In my short discussion with her was more wisdom than I got from this entire book. She said:
#1 - In response to me having a heavy, head-achy, overall unpleasant physical feeling while reading:
"You'll know in your heart/gut if something resonates with you, in terms of a spiritual teaching. You will feel it."
#2 - When I asked about giving up all desires, she said "Why would you even be alive then?" and then elaborated she thinks the point of being alive is to live and enjoy/experience things. (Were talking about giving up strong spicy food, as recommended)
#3 - It should uplift you and not make you feel bad. Shouldn't say: "If you don't get it you're not ready" and "You haven't progressed enough" - which were the exact messages I received from the book.
#4 - When people are in a place of love, they're open and flexible and not black and white/rigid. "This is the only way" "there's something wrong with you if you don't do it this way" / "I know best". However, Ram Dass was constantly talking like that. It wasn't in-your-face arrogance, it was a subtle arrogance infused in assertive statements.
The subtle message I got all along is: you're not enlightened if you don't believe what he does. I HAVE NEVER HEARD ANY GOOD SPIRITUAL LEADER GIVE THIS MESSAGE, EVER.
Dass is trying to proselytize you the entire book, with just enough distance to make it a little unclear if that's his goal or not.
Quotes that didn't resonate with me - assorted
"If you see yourself as God and then you come back from this state and somebody says, “Hey, Sam, empty the garbage!” it catches you back into the model of “I’m Sam who empties the garbage.” You can’t maintain these new kinds of structures. It takes a while to realize that God can empty garbage." (11)
>> I'm not quite clear why people who realize they are God or God is within them or whatever spiritual way you want to phrase it are suddenly incapable of carrying out normal duties like cleaning. Is that just me?
"Fear of death only comes from brittleness of the ego... total surrender total surrender there's no more you, no more life and death"
>>If he were saying this to someone genuinely afraid of death, I don't understand how it would make them no longer afraid of death. Maybe truly believing that removes your fear, but someone afraid isn't instantly going to adopt that view and suddenly surrender? This is an example of a quote which if believed already is probably helpful, but as a new idea is not so amazing.
"Yeah I'm going to die wow! Dig that! I'm going to live wow! Dig that! Garbage wow! New blossoms on the tree wow!"
"Patterns of energy. All patterns of energy. You're part of it all. That's the place!"" (P2:20)
About Saul of Tarsus
"'Go to the next town and you'll be instructed' Thats what he heard and he went the whole trip and thats an astral trip. A very groovy astral trip." (P2:73)
>>I can't lie, the 'hippie' language both bothered me and turned me off. (Reading religious-spiritual books I'd get turned off by 'God' being used every five seconds, turns out I'm also annoyed by this).
"If I am a potter i make pots. But WHO is making the pots? I am not under the illusion that I am making the pots.
Pots are. The potter is. I am a hollow bamboo" (P2: 54)
>>First of all, this didn't make sense to me. Secondly, even if it did, how does a) this help me spiritually? b) make me into a better (or even more spiritual) human being by adopting this view?
Just the process of calming, centering, centering, calming, extricating myself from the drama
So as long as one feels that he is the doer
He cannot escape from the wheel of births and deaths"
"That doesn't mean that I'm lying in bed doing nothing / That's drama as much as this book is drama" (P2:89)
>> I see the reincarnation/karma concept here. Both of which are personally not in my spiritual viewpoint. I don't see anything wrong with you seeing yourself as the 'doer' of an action, no matter what the action is. Honestly, after that messaged getting hammered to the reader, I got tired of hearing it; seems like a waste of time to focus on that. Maybe there's some deep meaning I'm not getting, but to me, it just is like, who actually cares whether you're the doer of an action or not?
"Drama is drama is drama is drama is drama
Desire is drama
Breathing is drama
Thought is drama
Emotions are drama
All form is drama
It's all part of the drama" (P2:90)
>>There were sooo many quotes like this. Cool, so drama is drama. And everything in physical form is drama. Now, what am I left with as the reader from this? Absolutely nothing of spiritual or other value. Did this have any positive impact on me? No. Like great, you think breathing is drama. Gotta remove yourself from that! ;)
"There is all this in its OM
In its unmanifest form
Always eternally you perceive that
nothing is really happening at all
nothing ever happens
nothing is going to happen
There's nothing you've got to do
There's no doer to do it anyway" (P2:94)
>>Idk why but this quote just bothers me. Yeah, I think things do happen and will happen and there is a doer. I just don't agree with him here. Somehow he's all high and spiritual for saying what he said, and I'm just someone who doesn't Know, according to him.
"I mean: if I am going to spend life manipulating this puny ego through a set of power games and sensual gratifications what's the payoff? The end is that it's going to end anyway because it's all in time. Suddenly I dig who I am at that moment when I'm stoned! High! Out of time! I am out of space! It feels like the first real thing that's ever happened to me!" (P2:105)
>>Yikes... it took being high to get you to love yourself? Drugs don't fix your problems...
"And a mantra for taking dope: om shiva shankara hariari ganga"
After that: Okay, I can't read this book anymore.
"Make up other mantras for daily acts to bring consciousness to your center so that you break the identification with an ego who is performing the act" (P3:34)
> Don't really get how this helps anything but okay.
"Except for existing karmic commitments (such as familial or societal) there is no reason to spend time with anyone except as an aid to one's sadhana. So all new relationships, be they friendships, marriages, business, roommates, take on this contractual basis." (P3:170)
>> I could be interpreting this wrong. I get why you would decide to only surround yourself with people good for you in the future. But viewing relationships as a 'contract' is gross to me.
Again with the excluding - "In the beginning important we surround ourselves with other beings who share our faith in the Spirit. During this stage be with people who wish to discuss only ways and means of realizing enlightenment" (P3:53)
>> a) sounds culty, b) your faith must be super weak if you can only be around people who agree with you or are spiritual. Yikes. Very separate of you (and hypocritical)!
"Krishna's instruction: 'Do whatever you do, but consecrate the fruit of your actions to me.' Every act you perform, all day every day, would be done as an offering to Krishna" (P3:65)
> Not religious. My acts are not going to be for Krishna, sorry! And guess what, there's nothing wrong with that.
I personally don't find value in repeating mantras like 'om om om' and 'rama rama rama' over and over. They're supposed to remind you 'that it is all One' (P3:_). Recommendation is 30 mins each day. I could better spend that 30 mins being of service to others instead of sitting by myself chanting the same words over and over in my head, thanks. Also, I'm sure you'll suddenly be spiritually awakened after the mantra repeating!
"I am not my internal organs, I am not my senses, I am not my torso or my body, etc. "I am not my thoughts." (P3:86,87)
>>Okay, so how does believing this help improve my life? Or make me a more spiritual person?
Hari Dass Baba says "LSD is like Christ in America, awakening the young folk in Kali Yuga. America is most materialistic country therefore God has shown His Avatar in a form of LSD. This material helps approach God" (P3:93)
>>Soooo... God made LSD to help people get close to him? That seems like a really convenient reason, yeah.
General Criticisms
Organization & lack of editor
1. The giant paragraphs of quotes are really irritating to read. I don't know who thought that would be a good idea, but they really should be spread out.
2. There were so many typos (missing apostrophes, misspelled words, etc.) that made the book look sloppy. An editor could have helped.
3. The page numbers were the worst organization I've ever seen in a book. Three sections all starting at 1.
Don't know if the actual content or the way it was presented that annoyed me more
It came across as arrogant, all-knowing, rigid and like what was being said is the only right answer. WARNING: THIS BOOK IS SO DOGMATIC.
I would NOT recommend this book.. I'd only recommend to people who already like Ram Dass. There are a million better spiritual books out there.