SPOILERS!!! ❌❌❌ MANY SPOILERS BELOW!
I remember enjoying “Because It Is Bitter & Because It Is My Heart” by JCO, so I thought this book of short stories would be a good read, especially with the title story centering around the fascinating tragedy of the Black Dahlia murder.
Most of them were very disappointing though, especially as the book progresses they got worse. I’m not a literary expert so I’m sure I’m missing some of her subtleties and nuances. As an everyday book lover, many of these stories left me wondering “WTF why was this written?”
Here are my thoughts:
1. Black Dahlia & White Rose - ⭐️⭐️⭐️ - I love JCO’s descriptive abilities, it was so easy to visualize this story. Marilyn’s tone was extremely irritating to read, with all the stutters and “oh golly gosh!” Snow White-ness. Marilyn/Norma Jean seemed flattened into a one-dimensional, pitiful, shallow creature (haven’t read or seen “Blonde” but have heard similar complaints). I did enjoy the Dahlia’s parts, and the tone JCO used: bitter, ironic, melancholy, humorous, haunting. A quick read, sad and disturbing.
2. I.D. - ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ - by far my favorite story! JCO’s writing about being a 13 year old girl, fitting in, talking to older boys, being a little wild, felt so relatable and authentic. I was really struck by the main character, Lizette’s eye watering the whole story thanks to her mostly-absent father’s rage. The hints dropped about the mom seem to indicate that she was a prostitute, and I think Lizette knew that deep inside since she proudly (& defensively) stated her mom is a blackjack dealer at a casino which “you need to be trained for”. In my opinion, the body in the end is 100% Lizette’s mother, and I’m certain poor lizette knew it too and her brain jumped into self-protection mode by denying it. The way JCO described Lizette’s buzzing, foggy, surreal thoughts was SO good and nightmarish. I can picture the end so clearly, Lizette back in her brightly lit school cafeteria, telling her friend everything is fine, “why the hell not?!” in a surreal, utterly manic tone. This one was powerful and stayed with me!
3. Deceit - ⭐️⭐️⭐️ - Another one where JCO’s powers of description and tone were top notch! Obviously the mother is an empty, shallow, drug-addled, selfish narcissist who never should’ve had kids, as she knows. Her daughter is being physically hurt by her own best girl friend, described as “masculine”. Is it a case of one of those pre-teen girl super consuming, controlling, obsessive friendships (think Heavenly Creatures minus the murder)? Or is it possible mom is somehow responsible for the bruises?! I really don’t know, and what a stressful, ambiguous ending!
4. Run Kiss Daddy - ⭐️⭐️⭐️ - in this one, again JCO did an amazing job conveying the tone of anxiety, mania, & nightmarish surrealism. The male narrator mentions his ex-wife and two grown children as part of his previous life. While digging a patio at his new lake house he owns with his second wife and step children, he finds the corpse of a little girl - this is peak nightmare quality writing, as he mentions briefly that he & his ex wife had to hide the accidental death of his young daughter, and he wonders if this is her body. He then rushes on to say “no that was a different time, a different lake house and plus my daughter is alive and I never hurt her!” Deeply stressful that he buried the body once more, but not before he takes a blue glass bead necklace off the little corpse. He then washes the necklace and gives it to his new step daughter (who he’s also mentioned has clear blue eyes that he’s fascinated by, like the necklace). He emphasizes throughout the story the need to protect his “new” family, and it seemed that by giving his step daughter that necklace, he’s “transferring” to her the essence of his past, dead daughter…..saying “I couldn’t protect her, but I can protect you. You will make right my failure to protect her.”
5. Hey, Dad! - ⭐️ - waste of time. Nothing happens! Boohoo your dad didn’t know your mom well and wanted you to be an abortion. Goes no where.
6. The Good Samaritan - ⭐️⭐️ - this one started off promising, I was sure it’d be a cool story. NOPE! Not much happens and no resolution. The narrator finds the wallet of a woman who turns out to be missing, and when returning the waller to the husband, inserts herself into the situation out of a sense of loneliness and craving something….trying to fill the emptiness inside. She seems infatuated with the smelly husband, but I’m not sure why. I get that he’s handsome & “exotic”, but otherwise he is inappropriate, unhinged, overbearing, and understandably desperate for info on his missing wife! I was sure he was going to assault/murder the narrator but no, she goes home….and nothing happens. It’s vaguely implied that the wife may have committed suicide? Also what’s with the timespan - it says clearly the story takes place in 1981, but the missing wife was born in 1974, then at the end states the narrator was born in 1981….what am I missing??? I may be too dense and missing what’s not clearly spelled out in this story, but after finishing this book I’m pretty sure there IS no “below the surface”.
7. A Brutal Murder in a Public Place - ⭐️ - probably too vague and surreal for me to understand. At least it was quick
8. Roma! - ⭐️ - what on earth is the point of this story?! Her husband is a cold jerk and a creep, and the lady is a doormat (a dynamic we’ll see several more times in this book). They like to peep into the windows of the apartment building across from their hotel in Rome, but then in the light of day the narrator can’t find the apartment building she’s so fascinated by and goes into a mild panic. Then returns to the hotel. The end. WHY!
9. Spotted Hyenas: A Love Story - ⭐️⭐️ - another one that might just be over my head. By this point in the book I was praying for a less vague story and this was not it. If I’m understanding, the narrator suddenly remembers an instructor from college after 20 years and at the exact same time, he suddenly remembers her, so kindof a psychic connection. She pays the instructor a visit and sees the hyenas he studies and is outwardly afraid and a little repulsed by the animals, but is simultaneously fascinated and stimulated. The hyenas and her former instructor awaken a primal, passionate instinct inside of her, which has been repressed by a dull life with a cold, self-absorbed husband. I think she ends up running off with the instructor, and….possibly killing the husband? The end was completely surreal so I am not sure how literally I should take it.
10. San Quentin - ⭐️ - just why? It’s written in “broken English” and is just unintelligible and not a story! It’s hard to even say what this is about.
11. Anniversary - ⭐️⭐️ - not horrible, certainly less infuriating than several other stories. It was frustrating reading about how she and the idiotic “co-teacher” broke all of their simple rules for teaching in the prison, but I suppose understandable since it’s sure it was nerve-wracking the first time. I think this could’ve made a good novella if longer and more fleshed out.
These stories were nearly all extremely vague and inconclusive. They were basically all about violence perpetrated against women. I got the sense in several stories that JCO enjoyed “punishing” her main characters. They were not horrible stories, I think I just need more solid storylines and less of the Hemingway “tip of the iceberg story” approach.
I will try reading again in a couple years to see if I can pick up on anything that I missed this first time!