As a Malaysian that grew up on a different land, I remember the name of Mahathir being constantly prompted in conversations of Malaysian politics between my South Indian father and his Bruneian Malay friends back when I was a young boy.
Also, when I occasionally returned back to my hometown in Alor Setar, Kedah (coincidentally where Mahathir is also from) during school holidays when I was younger, my relatives and people around me seemed to speak of his name with such reverence. I don't remember exactly what they said, but they would utter words that seem to imply that Mahathir is the man who had built so much of what the world would see now in its rapid advancement of modernisation in Malaysia.
Along the way as I become older, unconsciously perhaps, or maybe because Mahathir and I come from the same place, I have looked up to the man as a symbol of pride for being the Malaysian that I am, just from the stories of this man in what he has contributed for the development of Malaysia like the existence of the Petronas Twin Towers with its lofty structure.
Mahathir Mohamed’s long memoir consists of 66 chapters ranging from stories, and insights of his journey with Malaysia ever since pre/post independence, and his rise to the highest authority in Malaysian politics as a prime minister, along with the dilemma and challenges, and the controversies that he faced in a still developing nation with a stunted economic growth.
In pages where he speaks of the achievement of the economic growth that he had worked for and envisioned, I can't help but to admire the sheer dedication, and relentless passion that this man has willed to steer his beloved country out of the rubles of economic stuntedness.
On mainstream discourses among some Malaysians, the identification of this man with being an ultra Malay nationalist is quite prominent, but after reading about his early life story, I think it is unfair to frame Mahathir in such light without understanding the history and the environment, and the timeframe that this man was in.
Environmental factors seemed to be overlooked, which definitely played a role that would instil this man a sense to harbour a moral mission to be the firebrand for the Malays and to uplift their debilitating communities and, to ultimately transform them from the culturally uncompetitive Malay, to the progressive modern and competent Malay that is capable in participating in the battles of global economic competition in the rapidly advancing industrial world.
Mahathir Mohamed had lived in the era of British-Malaya, and he had always had a keen curiosity and attentiveness ever since he was a young boy from the rural areas, where he and his family lived in Alor Setar, Kedah, to the outskirts of the towns, and he had constantly kept his eyes and mind on how the different races, especially on the Malays in how they would do economically, and on how the British were administering his country in general and his province in Kedah.
I genuinely believe that due to his lived experience of the struggles of himself and the communities in Kedah, especially the Kedahan Malays, who are the predominant people who was and is still residing there in the rural communities, and mostly suffering from the economic degradation, along with the abandonment and failure to protect the welfare of the people of Malaysia by the British colony during the Japanese invasion of Malaya, had prompted Mahathir to construct a worldview in which he was terribly and utterly disappointed with the British that would even manifest in his adulthood and as a prime minister for his dislike and criticism of the Westerners.
He himself expressed that he had always admired the strength, and the sense of heroism that the Westerners had embodied in western movies and comics, that he watched and read, only to find the people he looked up to abandoned him and his people when they needed their moral and political courage during the Japanese invasion of Malaya. It is due to these experiences that had rigorously prompted his moral and political consciousness as a Malay and a Malaysian.
It is not surprising to see his reaction when he expressed his utmost disappointment and outrage towards Tunku Abdul Rahman, Malaysia’s father of Independence, when he failed to mitigate the racial tensions that led to the tragedy of 1969. For Mahathir, who had a grounded understanding and observation of the Malay community due to his upbringing in Kedah, and his deep concern for the plight of the Malay community, saw Tunku’s obliviousness to attend to needs of the Malay community and his irresponsible inattentiveness to address as the sole reason to why the racial riot to occured.
Mahathir strongly resented the attitude of the Tunku to not look into and address the widening economic gap between the races that inevitably gave rise to the racial tensions.
From what I can confer with what has been said that, with the worldview that Mahathir had constructed, and what he had seen himself as a boy to a teenager living in Kedah, I think it had profoundly moved him to wanting to transform the Malay community, and providing different ways to uplift them, and of course, to his eyes, this can only happen through economic means, even at the cost of neglecting other communities along with the controversial policies that he had enacted with the quota system.
On a side note, it is interesting to note that Mahathir’s exposure to basic selling and trading in Pekan Rabu, as trivial as getting the supplies of bananas, and selling them as a young teenager trying to make ends meet, had shaped his ability in having a framework that would serve as a stepping stone to contribute to the strategies that he had taken when it comes to industrial and infrastructural development in Malaysia.
Nevertheless, from reading his memoir, I will always have an outlook of deep respect for the man for the unimaginative heights of achievement in terms of economic and developmental prosperity in Malaysia, and his unconventional ways of taking drastic measures to mitigate a dire situation during the 1997 currency crises that affected Malaysia and brought it back on its able knees.
However, there are some particular world views and sentiments that he has expressed that I may never agree with, such as his strong negative sentiments towards the west, and his constant criticism of the Malays, without really keeping the perspective of their rich history of culture and tradition, while enforcing them to adopt an economic and cultural worldview by looking the east like his obsession with Japan. This obsession to the east as I would qualify it for a word for Mahathir’s sentiments, would only reduce our cultural uniqueness and character, only to be taken with granted and without pride.
Of course not to mention the highly controversial story of his fallout with Anwar Ibrahim, that also ironically gave a fresh set of political consciousness for all Malaysians at the time, and not a page that I read from the chapter that I digested at face value, and are just filled blatant lies to frame that it has always been Anwar Ibrahim for fanning the fires of playing the role of the antagonist and that Mahathir never had a part of it that lead to the fall out.
This perhaps, is the other nature of Mahathir which he superbly tries to hide, which in a summary; a rather deflated and subtle unhealthy ego in himself. Even in his own words, he cringes or negatively dwells on the idea of a man being forgotten in history, or being put on shame by the public. I think he absolutely abhors the idea of having a bad name, even by the lightest of a negative word in the dictionary that can be framed on him.
In the end, man is very intricate and complicated, and should not only be seen only on one side of the fabric of himself, because that would be too simplistic for an understanding of a historical man.
My reading of Mahathir's memoir has given me a better understanding of why the man is the man he is, with all of the contradictions that are attested to him while also giving me an appreciation for his passion, discipline and humility and character for being a statesman, and making a mark for Malaysia at a time in recent history during the 90’s.
But of course, never in history that a political and public figure like Mahathir Mohammad is to be put for scrutiny in lesser words, as for every action and words uttered will always be accounted for and analysed as they will always carry a symbolic weight that will always be pried by the public eyes.