The Human Heart, That Old Port
Raymond Carver was one of the best short story writers of all time. He came from a chaotic working class family, with a violent alcoholic father. He himself pretty much destroyed his life through alcohol abuse, and many of his stories emerged out of that life and his experiences with AA. He was married at 19, had three kids by the time he was 23, and early on admits he took on “full-time drinking as a serious pursuit.” He was dead by fifty, but ten years before he died he gave up booze, and met the poet Tess Gallagher. This poem is in the collection A New Path to the Waterfall, his last book, a collection of poems:
Gravy
No other word will do. For that’s what it was.
Gravy.
Gravy, these past ten years.
Alive, sober, working, loving, and
being loved by a good woman. Eleven years
ago he was told he had six months to live
at the rate he was going. And he was going
nowhere but down. So he changed his ways
somehow. He quit drinking! And the rest?
After that it was all gravy, every minute
of it, up to and including when he was told about,
well, some things that were breaking down and
building up inside his head. “Don’t weep for me,”
he said to his friends. “I’m a lucky man.
I’ve had ten years longer than I or anyone
expected. Pure Gravy. And don’t forget it.”
I was never a big fan of Carver's poetry, but I was rereading some of his short story collections recently and at a used book sale found a copy of this beautiful boxed hardcover edition of his poems, just 200 copies of the edition produced posthumously and signed by his wife Tess Gallagher (mine’s #95; I knew you just had to know). It’s a gorgeous artifact, in other words. I soon after read a lovely review by Ilse of another collection of his poetry, so immediately began reading this. Synchronicity! Sometimes there is a time when a book is just telling you to read it. It gave me the opportunity to re-evaluate his poetry and see him again, at the end, still writing, facing death.
In short, I think this is Carver’s best collection of poetry. Gallagher, in her fine introduction, argues for Carver as poet, though early on he admits he just wrote poem-like things when he wasn’t doing the thing he really wanted to do, fiction. These are often story poems, but there’s a lyricism here and there in these poems that I didn’t find in his early poetry. His basic writing aesthetic is a kind of brutally honest realism, no sentimental affectations or flowery prose. Tough. And he keeps to that here, largely, but he’s somewhat softened by the love of his life in his last years, I think. Here he speaks of resources he turns to for his poems:
“It was all or nothing. Lightening, water,
Fish, cigarettes, cards, machinery,
The human heart, that old port
Even the woman’s lips against
The receiver, even that.
The curl of her lip.”
This follows in part from the advice of his mentor, Chekov:
“Be sure not to discuss your hero's state of mind. Make it clear from his actions."
That old saw: Show, don’t tell.
Well, I don’t love all the poetry, but I like in these late poems the better blending—for my tastes—of the lyrical with the commonplace, of the straightforward, no-nonsense language with the sudden spark of insight. The poems sometimes echo the force of his best stories. There’s heart in them.
One of the most fascinating aspects of this particular book is the conversation it has with other writers throughout, though especially Chekhov, placing excerpts from his and other writers’ works between some of the poems. Maybe when many of us read, we read with our lives, we weigh our experiences against what we read, we heal ourselves sometimes through reading, as Carver certainly shows that he did in and through this book. In this collection, Carver teaches us how to face the darkness, with love and grace. In the process he visits with what seems to me honesty some of his past experiences—with his father, his ex-wife, his son, all those drunken nights—and his present struggles with cancer, revived every day by the writing, and by Tess, as he would seem to suggest in this selection from Chekhov:
“. . . and with a burning pain in my heart I realized how unnecessary, how petty, and how deceptive all that had hindered us from loving was. I understood that when you love you must either, in your reasonings about that love, start from what is highest, from what is more important than happiness or unhappiness, sin or virtue in their accepted meaning, or you must not reason at all.”