It’s my understanding that Adam Zagajewski, the Polish poet who now splits his time between Paris and Houston, doesn’t like to refer to Another Beauty as memoir. And at first glance one would be inclined to agree that the volume, though it recounts his days as a university student in Krakow in the 1960s and 70s, truly is something else entirely. There is no recognizable narrative thread. There is no chronology, with Zagajewski shifting back and forth in his timeline at will with little reason for doing so. Many parts of the book read like snippets from his writing journal—intriguing bits of folly that seem to go no farther than his committing the thought to paper. Here’s an example: “When it comes to punctuation, the period is the haughtiest of signs. After me the deluge…” However in all these disparate parts, Zagajewski has created, whether he meant to or not, a fine example of the postmodern memoir that encourages us to look past all these moving pieces to sense the wholeness he himself sought as he wandered the streets of Krakow.
Early in the book Zagajewski establishes his humility as he describes his lukewarm approach to his work as a student. Humility, as Patrick Madden noted in his 2013 Vermont College of Fine Arts lecture on the postmodern memoir, is a feature of the postmodern memoir standing against the drama, exaggeration, and self-aggrandizement of the traditional memoir: “The more humble the writer is, the more likely he or she is to write in a more literary way, seeking out the universal in the details of one’s life.” Zagajewski paints himself as inattentive, mediocre, and more interested in poetry than his philosophy books.
“I never finished anything. I wasn’t a good student. Descartes lost patience, Aristotle looked askance. They already knew that this was no young philosopher poring for hours over the pages of their immortal tracts. It was only a poet, a dabbler who couldn’t refine a concept or elaborate new nuances in existing categories if his life depended on it.”
He gives the reader some grounding early in the book when he spends time describing the street he lives on, his shabby living quarters and the woman who owns the building, a Mrs. C who “was preoccupied with her historical mission, with the defense of her own social position, the defense of feudalism in a hostile Communist environment.” This establishes Zagajewski’s place and his fascination with his “beautiful, bewitching Krakow,” but it does something else as well: he’s letting us know this is how he will talk about living under the Communist regime. He will not indulge in direct discussion about Communism. This is another aspect of postmodern memoir writing. Instead he will show the effects of it, how certain aspects of the city are perpetually gray, how he doesn’t have access to certain books and music, how certain people, like Professor U. seemed to thrive in it. “He was delighted with the historical moment that fate had granted him; it might seem that Communism had been dreamed up just for him.”
Memory, and how Zagajewski approaches it, is an interesting consideration in Another Beauty. The writer of a postmodern memoir approaches the work knowing that it’s not just a matter of recording what happened. As Patrick Madden discussed in his lecture, there is a filtering process, an attempt to understand the memory and what it means to rebuild it on the page. Zagajewski’s work is tricky because he is dealing with history and memory. Susan Sontag, who wrote an introduction to the book, says that “To recover a memory—to secure a truth—is a supreme touchstone of value in Another Beauty.” She then points out an example of Zagajewski’s approach. “I didn’t witness the extermination of the Jews,” he writes. “I was born too late. I bore witness, though, to the gradual process by which Europe recovered its memory. This memory moved slowly, more like a lazy, lowland river than a mountain stream, but it finally, unambiguously, condemned the evil of the Holocaust and the Nazis, and the evil of Soviet civilization as well (though in this it was less successful, as if reluctant to admit that two such monstrosities might simultaneously coexist).”
But Zagajewski knows it is possible for two or more monstrosities to exist at once. He also knows—and perhaps this is the philosopher working in him after all—the dialectic of having opposing forces, operating as a whole, to move society forward. He notes, “We’re not likely to outrun history, even if we try, even if we do come across those moments, common enough, that music especially but also poetry and painting sometimes provide, the moments that seem to free us from history’s orbit, that set us circling through a calmer, more congenial space. Such moments are completely valid, but we can’t stay there forever.” He does spend a lot of time, though, seeking out “wholeness,” the connecting fibers of what he sees and feels as he walks the city. It’s a fleeting feeling, one he believes sustains the place. “But sometimes, at odd moments, it seemed to me that I perceived the city’s unity, that I grasped it by means of a special sense, the sense of wholeness.”
I would add that these various aspects of the postmodern memoir helps the reader feel more connected to the author. Though Zagajewski is a learned poet from what, for most readers, is a foreign country, in Another Beauty he is a young man with concerns about his girlfriend, about studying, about having enough money for lunch, yet still recognizing beauty, as in the ringing of the bells, when it comes by his way. “The bells gave me a moment of happiness; thanks to them I understood once more that greatness exists in spite of my laziness, in spite of those long spells when I forgot all about it; it slipped my mind for weeks on end as I got lost in other projects, grew preoccupied by other cares and longings. The bells woke me to a higher life.”
Zagajewski is accessible even as he, with the sharp eye of the poet, describes his “beautiful, bewitching Krakow.” “What I found in its place was a city fixed in weary grimace, in the catatonic stupor of a patient in the psychiatric ward who awaits the end of the world while clad in his blue-striped pajamas.”
And this: “It was a city cluttered with the massive clods of churches and convents, broad and heavy like aging peasant women gathering potatoes on a rainy autumn day.”
Zagajewski may not have set out to write a memoir, but he did succeed in creating a postmodern expression serving as a window into an intriguing time. As we walk the streets with him, meet his professors and attend concerts with him, we see through his reflective eyes so clearly that we can come to understand that in this case hindsight is actually more than 20/20.