2.5 stars somewhat generously rounded up to 3 stars
Where do I even start? Let's go with the handful of things I actually enjoyed about the book. The overall concept was great. A queer, genderfluid governess sweeping gender norms and expectations takes a job and gets the aloof, uptight son of his employer to fall in love with him. I like a good story where a character finds themselves and goes out into the world confident. It had potential. Tie in a little bit of drama with a mystery at the center, and you have even more going for you. Bonus points if it's an Own Voice story. Unfortunately, that's where the good parts end, in untapped potential and a dash of positive representation.
This book wanted so badly to be a regency novel that made a statement about gender and queerness, but it did it very poorly. At least half of the conversations about being queer, genderfluid, trans, etc were dumped awkwardly in the most random places, like sticking a round peg in a square hole, It got crammed in there, sure, but it didn't work well and stood out in a not great way. It made for a very bumpy read, which is disappointing because important points were made. I think with a little polish, this aspect could have been much smoother.
When it came to the regency novel bit, well, if you want to write a regency novel, just write an actual regency novel. No need to dress it up as a modern novel. The writing style very much read like an old-fashioned novel in everything from descriptions to dialogue. You'd be reading along, half-convinced you were in the 19th century enjoying masquerades, furtive flirting, and social intrigue when suddenly in the next paragraph someone is pulling up email on their phone or responding "C U then x" and ruining the whole mood. It just didn't work well AT ALL. And I get that the MC is into these novels, so if it had been first person, all from his perspective, I could see him dressing up things in his mind, but even then the dialogue would have been modern. As it was, the dialogue felt forced and stilted. I may not be a rich British man, but I have a hard time believing anyone in modern British society actually talks like that. It felt very unnatural and messed up the flow of the entire book.
And while we are discussing the MC's love of classic literature, I find it somewhat unbelievable he wouldn't have known who Christopher Marlowe was. I can see maybe not having read much from him or not being as big of a fan, but to not know who he was at all? I don't buy it.
The overall writing style, regency want-to-be or not, was quite rough in places. People would be having normal conversations and then it would be interrupted. Sometimes the interruption was a summery of the rest of the conversation instead of just letting it play out, only to dump you back into the conversation a couple sentences later. Other times the interruptions were the MCs internal ramblings giving you a needless background info dump. And the way it switched from present to past (sometimes very recent past) was awkward and lumpy. It was sometimes hard to keep track of what was going on. Either way, it did not flow well at all.
Now for the story itself. There honestly wasn't much of a plot, which made for a very dull read. I found my mind wandering more than once and had to force myself to pay attention. It was a lot of the MC practically stalking Darcy, Darcy avoiding the MC, them making amends, and the whole thing repeating. I didn't feel any connection between Bron and Darcy. I wasn't rooting against them, but I honestly didn't care if they got together. They had zero chemistry, even in the middle of making out. The way Darcy treated Bron was off putting (obviously meant to be a nod to the original Mr. Darcy but done poorly) and, as I said above, Bron was basically stalking Darcy. He was constantly watching him and looking for excuses to sneak into his room and every STOLE A PAIR OF HIS UNDERWEAR TO JERK OFF TO. Like, ew. No. It was more creepy than endearing.
The hostility between characters didn't really make sense. Years had evidentially passed, but it was all treated as a fresh wound. The big "secret" was clear as day so the "big reveal" wasn't really all that big. But did that stop the author from writing a long, rambling section where the MC made up scenario after scenario of how things surely went down? Hahahaha Nope. So many pages wasted on speculation that ended up being only half-true at best. It felt a bit like the author was trying to hit a word count for the chapter and decided to throw this part in to hit it. (I fully admit I skimmed most of it because it was tedious and did nothing but delay the actual progression of the plot.)
Most of the side characters were flat or straight out annoying. I really don't think I liked any of them, if I'm entirely honest. They were NPCs strolling in and out of the story with their rehearsed lines. They all could have died tragically (one of them kind of did) and I would've shrugged and turned the page.
And the ending was, well, not exactly bad, but it wasn't good either. After pushing myself through the dregs of this book I wanted a crisp, happy ending. And while it wasn't unhappy, it was abrupt and a bit open ended and terribly unsatisfactory.
And honestly, I could go on about what I didn't like, but we'd be here all day. Suffice it to say I did not enjoy this book, despite it promising many of the things I love in a story. I came very close to DNFing around 30%, but since I don't review books I DNF, I basically hate-read it so I could finish and leave a review. There was also some piece of me that hoped it would get better and live up to it's potential, but alas, that was a wasted dream. I can't really say I recommend this book, but since there's nothing inherently problematic or wrong with it, I'm sure there's an audience out there somewhere who will love it. I'm just not part of it.
I received an ARC from NetGalley and this is my honest opinion.