On the back cover this work is the promise that its inner contents are an exploration on identity when you are the child of a Black mother and White-Jewish father in the still deeply-segregated 1970s South, and how that affects your life for the rest of your life. At first glance that may seem...trite? Tired? Preachy? Admittedly, this genre of memoir often can be. But one of the first excerpts I'd read was Walker writing "I am not tragic," and I was certain this memoir would not be (Walker, 24). Critics assured that Walker’s attempt to define herself as “a soul and not a symbol” was a welcome and fresh approach to this topic, so I was sure it would be.
I was wrong though, and overly gullible for believing so. Upon finishing the title I also found myself totally disappointed - as were Walker's parents when interviewed by various sources. Her parents are former civil rights lawyer Melvyn Leventhal and award-winning novelist, play-write, poet, and activist Alice Walker. Why would her parents be disappointed? Well, rather than the exploration identity through the lens of race, ethnicity, religion and environment that Walker promises to take readers throughout this memoir, Rebecca Walker details how her life with mother and father was at first jovial and then at the sudden divorce of her parents when she was 8 became an utter nightmare. She confidently claims her parents' marriage was little more than a fun try at interracial happiness and peace but once it wasn't just fun or cool anymore her father simply left her and her mother and returned to the peace and stability of his White-Jewish community. She also states matter-of-factly that her mother, having been betrayed by spouse, was therefore betrayed by Whiteness as well and as consequence couldn't fully accept Rebecca as her own anymore. While readers may not necessarily fault Walker for feeling or believing this to be the case, and certainly she didn’t have to get her parents’ permission or input on her own memoir either – I, personally, believe that she does readers a great disservice by presenting her feelings and beliefs regarding her parents’ split and their differing approaches at parenting as absolute truth and fact.
Walker doesn't question any of her beliefs or statements at all, although there is never any evidence that her version is, in fact, the only version. Rather, Walker’s richly detailed and sporadic accounts of past events instead highlight how many holes there are in her knowledge of what was going on around her and how utterly self-absorbed she was during those events and at the time of chronicling them for her memoir. She fails to ever see beyond herself or to even accurately look at herself. Nowhere in the memoir does she take the time to assess how her own actions and bias towards others may have affected their actions and beliefs regarding herself. This is troubling in a memoir, as Mary Karr writer in her work, The Art of Memoir, “the secret” to writing memoir effectively is “the writer’s finding a tractor beam of inner truth about psychological conflicts to shine the way” (Karr, 36). In Black, White, and Jewish, however, that light to shine the way is absent and “truth” is presented as absolute but feels discomfortingly subjective.
Much of this issue is due, I believe, to the fact that Walker writes almost exclusively in the Voice of Innocence until the end of the memoir. There is no meaningful reflection or inquiry, just detailed, cinematic rehashing of past events. The extreme rose-colored-glasses telling of the good events and the very dark-and-dreary of more painful events also makes it hard for the reader to believe that these events really happened as she claims they did. Nothing in her voice, shaky and uncertain of anything other than her parents couldn’t have loved her much or they would have stayed together, does not lend itself to credibility. As Sue Silvermann explains in Fearlesss Confessions: A Writer’s Guide to Memoir, the narrating voice of your memoir must be “both you and not you. [An] artistically created ‘you’” that does not simply put experience on the page but also makes sense of that experience and gives it life via an articulated thread that runs through the entirety of the memoir. Walker, though, neglects to meet this standard and instead writes haphazardly – she writes as pure purging. Furthermore, there is no clear structure or theme that this memoir is really about. Because it most certainly is not about her experience as a Black, White, Biracial, or Jewish person. She only ever mentions that other people would look at her and proclaim, “you must be this,” and she would refute it or accept it and that was that. There is no real mention of Judiasm at all other than to say her father was Jewish. Religiously? Ethnically? Both? We, as readers, have no idea. Nor do we have any idea why that actually matters to Walker or how she thinks it impacts her at all. These themes are virtually absent outside of discussion that her parents experimented, in her opinion, with an interracial relationship, created her, and then divorced and renounced the other half.
I want to say the structure – the framework through which Walker builds her story upon – is the utter lack of parenting she believes she experienced growing up and how that ruined her entire life. However, I feel that it’s not really fair to give her that, because even when she talks about her parents she doesn’t actually talk about them. Walker fails to bring to life either individual on the page or to even really give them space on the page at all. They are faceless and practically nameless throughout her memoir. If I did not already know who her parents were before reading this memoir, I would have had to constantly go back and search for the names of her parents and descriptions of them as well as their relationships to other poorly identified relatives Walker claims had an impact on her life, but neglects to tell us how. I don’t believe that memoirs need to be told in a chronological fashion, but perhaps in Walker’s it would have made more sense as the only thing that ties anything together in her work is her steadfast belief that she was broken and confused and self-destructive her entire life because her interracial parents got divorced. In my opinion that is simply not enough.
This was a difficult read to get through for me. Because she is so good at bringing to life the visuals and sensations of the past, but so totally unwilling to take any responsibility for herself or her own actions or to acknowledge that others may have had their own, complicated reasons for theirs. This is a point that I find very important in life in general, and she doesn't just drop the ball but throws it away completely. Did she undergo any transformation? Maybe? In the end, her voice becomes a little clearer and a little stronger and Walker claims she is at peace with herself finally, but as the reader I didn't buy it. She was still blaming her parents for everything, and quite often she was still simply running away from her problems both in an emotional and physical sense.
I believe it was an important book for her to write for herself, to get it off her chest. But I also believe she pretty much published diary excerpts, not a fully realized memoir, and certainly not a memoir that was fair to anyone, including herself.