Every year I re-read this book, Just to remind myself I am just more corrupted. Read it again in 2024... Modern Life has become more comfortable, But it made us more insensitive and more restless..
Every time I am disappointed with mundane routine and inevitable melodramas of life, Jiddu Krishnamurthy is the one I seek. His message has no message. But his words raise the question within questions to sharpen the swords that shape the idea of " Being Human".
I know It's idiotic to read a book to become Human. But in our conditioned and fearful society, Keeping untarnished humanity alive is difficult than keeping our physical body alive.
I often question and analyze friction of thoughts. Is any of my actions free of perpetual fear and desire?. Honest observation always tells " You are not, Mahesh". Life is always a question mark, Why do I even exist?
Some told me, Find a purpose and pursue it. But the question is, what's the point of having an achievable purpose.
What's next? Again I am trapped in a complex loop.
So I have reached out to scholars, gurus, and books, But they never guided me to figure out an answer. All the exploration might have made me another conditioned scholar, but they were not in my experience.
Like every Scholar I was also a learned Hypocrite, So I continued my search from one guru to another. But I ended my search for truth when I listened to the feminine voice of a gentle being in one of the lecture videos. That was "Krishnamurthy".
He answered all my questions by making me realize there are no fixed answers to life. Life is there for what it is, I was free at least for time being with that realization. But when I went back to society, Again I am rotten to the core with all its fear, insecurity, and conditioning. To free me from the tragedies of life, I go from one book to another book of Krishnamurthy. I know what he saying, But I refused to analyze every bit and piece in my mind. Because deep inside I know, I am one of the famous hypocrites in this society full of hypocrites. I ended up taking comfort in relating myself to all the hypocrites living in society.
I wish one day, I could live without any fear, insecurity, and desire. My words may look pessimistic, But I learned to acknowledge my hypocrisy after I have started reading Krishnamurthy's works.
When you finish any of his work, You do not learn new things. You learn who you are. It is scary to know who you are in real, But it's worth knowing it.
Read it, Think about all the things mentioned in the book. You gain nothing new, But you will revolt at least in the process of reading. This book will shake everything you believe, That's the beauty of this work.