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439 pages, Hardcover
First published October 11, 2003
He had changed his hair, now it was gathered in small knots spread out over the head, a startling style that rather ominously reminded me of a famous picture of Mau Mau leader General China at his trial, a police constable standing on either side of him. I did not make a comment and understood that he is still very much involved with the Mu Kenya Patriots, the self-styled sons of Mau Mau. Seema took him skating once; he wore a hat and was spared the stares he would inevitably have attractedThus positioning black hair as terror. The older Vikram urges Joseph to keep away from the hazards of 'fruitless and deadly politics'. He justifies his mother's opposition to Njoroge's marrying her daughter, Vikram's beloved sister Deepa
Suppose she doesn't like the idea of half-breeds, I thought, suppose she wants to be able to speak to her grandchildren in her own tongue, in Punjabi or Hindi, and she doesn't want to be the talk of the Indian community in the whole of East Africa and be subjected to the contempt of other women, who will say she has a pukka kalu for a damad; suppose she wants to be able to hold her head up high in temple in front of these women, and to take her daughter and her family to Delhi and feel no shameTo me this is apologism masquerading as empathy, even if empathy is justified, because the language is hostile: 'half-breeds'. And if Vikram's mother has been sincere in loving Njoroge like her own son, as we are repeatedly told she does, won't she be able to overcome this 'shame'. Would she feel shame, or contempt for ignorant others? Anyway, I can see that Vassanji has made me look brutal and cold-hearted in criticising his position. How clever. Vikram's story, in which everything has two sides or more, stands in opposition to the supposed simplifications of radical politics. The folly of actually taking a position, choosing to uphold a story, taking a stand, may be courageous, but is ultimately fruitless and deadly, Vassanji suggests. Truly, it is hard to take a stand. I march for the Kurds, and a friend admonishes me. I boycott products from Israel, and a friend admonishes me. How do I know whose story to believe, whose struggle to support? But not to choose, is to accept the status quo, to be complicit with the injustice in front of you. Vikram is guilty of this. "the absence of an ideology is an ideology. It’s just a conservative ideology and everything that you see has it."
"...every evening from the melting pot of city life each person went his long way home to his family, his church, his folk. To the Kikuyu, the Luo were the crafty, rebellious eggheads of Lake Victoria, the Masai backward naked nomads. The Meru prided themselves on being special, having descended from some wandering Semitic tribe. There were the Dorobo, the Turkana, the Boran, the Somali, the Swahili, each also different from the other. And then there were the Wahindi—the wily Asians who were not really African."Vikram Lall spends his time in Canada writing down the story of his family and himself, which begins during his innocent childhood days in the small town Nakuru, where his parents owned a provision store in the Valley Shopping Centre. His parents catered for the European settlers'needs, but was also popular for the samosas, dhokras, bhel-puri, and tea, which were consumed with gusto by their clientele in the community.
"It has occurred to me—how can it not?—that my picture of my past could well have, like the stories of my grandfather, acquired the patina of nostalgia, become idealized. But then, I have to convince myself, perhaps a greater and conscious discipline and the practice of writing mitigate that danger. I do carry my album of photos with me and my acquired newspaper cuttings and other assorted material, and there is always Deepa to check facts with. Still, what can ultimately withstand the cruel treachery of time, even as one tries to undermine it?"At the children's level, the clashing cultures, classes and prestige did not matter and children from different races made friends. They would ultimately be haunted by it in their later lives.
"So many such moments I could recall, gentle as dewdrops, transient and illusory like sunbeams; charming as a butterfly’s dance round a flower." ...The Mau Mau murders of white farmers and their families brought an end to this innocent era, in which Vikram, his little sister Deepa, his Kikuyu friend, Njoroge , the two British children, Bill and Annie, unknowingly prepared themselves for a new dispensation in Kenya.
"It was a world of innocence and play, under a guileless constant sun; as well, of barbarous cruelty and terror lurking in darkest night; a colonial world of repressive, undignified subjecthood, as also of seductive order and security—so that long afterwards we would be tempted to wonder if we did not hurry forth too fast straight into the morass that is now our malformed freedom.
" It was the nights that curdled the blood, that made palpable the terror that permeated our world like a mysterious ether.Jomo Kenyatta, who later became the first Black president, lend prestige to the guerilla fighters' campaign although he denied being their leader.
The Mau Mau owned this darkness, which cloaked them into invisibility"...
"Some Mau Mau used to put the body parts of their enemies into the stew they used for their oathing ceremonies."
" The three-piece-suited African leader with a son at Harrow wants no reminder of the primitive processes that were sometimes at work behind the freedom struggle." ...Vikram soar in the government ranks at the right time.
" They had only recently walked out of the forest, members of two gangs, having deposited their weapons at the Nyeri police station, and now they wanted to know where was the reward they had been promised when they left everything behind to go fight for freedom. We are poor and despised, our land was taken away, confiscated by the Bilitis, the British, given to the Humungati, the dreaded Home Guard, as payment to hunt and kill us; now where is the compensation promised to us, where are the European farms we were told would be ours after uhuru, where are the big houses, where is the wealth?…"
"Middle-aged retired guerrillas who had once given up all to live in the forests, to rule the nights, to draw blood and terrorize in the name of freedom, and to suffer and risk death for themselves; who with homemade guns and machetes had sorely tested the military might of the British, thus hastening independence."...
"We gave up our property, we gave up good jobs with our English bosses who were generous for the times…Why do our politicians call us outlaws and bandits, aren’t we the army of the people? Even now we are ready to defend them…"
"In this new decade of the 1970s which had just set in, when I found employment that would alter my life in previously unthinkable ways, our times were actually turbulent and reckless, in a manner I can only describe from a personal point of view and in hindsight. But I make no moral judgement on the time or its people, I am quick to add, I am hardly in a position to do so. Independence had brought an abundance of opportunities, the British and the Europeans vacating lucrative farms and businesses and well-paying jobs, foreign aid and loans promising contracts and kickbacks; this was a time to make it, once and for all, as a family, as a clan, as a tribe—the stakes were mountain-high. ..."Vikram has to come to terms with his memories, his involvement in the events that influenced the outcome for Kenya, his family, his friends, his children and himself.
"And this in the tinderbox cold-war climate of the period, foreign governments peddling influence, bribes, arms. Many of the newly powerful had never been in close proximity to such authority before, such organization, such influence, such access to wealth as had become possible. From pit-latrine to palace, was how one foreign journalist crassly described these changes in fortune; he was quickly deported. But his fault was more his limited imagination; ...
"Money and power were all around me, the one dizzying and glamorous, the other intimidating and coercive, and the two often went together." ...
"Black chauvinism and reverse racism were the order of the day ..."
"Njoroge too was beginning to believe that the freedom movement and the Mau Mau had been betrayed—that ours had become a country of ten millionaires and ten million paupers, as J.M. himself had loudly proclaimed ..."
"My boss was said to belong to a secret Inner Circle of the President’s men, who had sworn to keep the presidency among themselves, or at least within the Kikuyu people. ..."
"Total corruption, I’ve been told, occurs in inches and proceeds through veils of ambiguity."
"I call forth for you here my beginning, the world of my childhood [...] It was a world of innocence and play, under a guileless and constant sun; as well, of barbarous cruelty and terror lurking in darkest night; a colonial world of repressive, undignified subjecthood, as also of seductive order and security -- so that long afterwards we would be tempted to wonder if we did not hurry forth too fast straight into the morass that is now our mal-formed freedom. p.5
My name is Vikram Lall. I have the distinction of having been numbered one of Africa's most corrupt men, a cheat of monstrous and reptilian cunning. To me has been attributed the emptying of a large part of my troubled country's treasury in recent years. I head my country's List of Shame. These and other descriptions actually flatter my intelligence, if not my moral sensibility. But I do not intend here to defend myself or even seek redemption through confession; I simply crave to tell my story. p.3