“I just want to know what—what it feels like to throw off some of the shackles that bind me. Just fleetingly. I am not a person made for wild, passionate emotions. Or for vivid happiness. I just want a summer to remember. Can you give it to me? If so, I will come to Alvesley with you.” Kit Butler once had a passionate "love" for Lady Freyja Bedwyn which left him disappointed when her betrothal to his elder brother was announced. Now the heir to an earldom after his brother's death, his parents decided to betroth him to Lady Freyja but Kit has no plans to participate. Enter Miss Lauren Edgeworth, a very proper Lady who lives by society's rules. She was trained all her life to be a Lady and soon countess but was left heartbroken when she was jilted at the altar. She has sworn off love and marriage ever since. Kit, Lord Ravensberg, tried to woo Miss Edgeworth because of a wager with his friends but was soon full of guilt. He then admitted the truth which led to a bargain proposed by her. Lauren would agree to pose as his fiancee and he would give her a summer to remember. Suddenly one summer seems just enough to get the know the girl behind the cold facade...and fall in love. But marriage is not possible when Lauren is so insistent on growing old alone rather than get her heart shattered again.
A summer to remember is a prequel to the Bedwyn Saga. This book is about Kit Butler and Lauren Edgeworth. I had a love-hate relationship with this one. For the first 30%, I was not exactly uninterested but I was not very interested either. It was rather dull and the heroine was starting to annoy me. Mary Balogh seems to have a penchant for writing unlikeable main characters. When characters are annoying, it is a pain to read through a book. Thankfully, Balogh's writing makes up for it. It took me a long time to warm up to Kit and Lauren. But mostly to Lauren.
Meet The Honourable Lauren Edgeworth, orphaned but loved by the relations she has. She has this cool and distant facade. She's the perfect proper Lady. It was what she was raised to be. She was a complex character. I find that I was irritated with her for the first half of the book. But soon enough, I started to appreciate her little efforts and I loved how she was all grace even when dealing with the Bedwyns who mocked her for being too proper, too dull, and someone who Kit would be bored with in the long run. I guess it is true that she was dull, especially at first, I did not see what Kit saw in her. But as her character slowly unfolded, Balogh made her likeable enough for me to root for her. But then I hated how she made things harder for herself. She was devastated at the end by the memory of her summer with Kit but she was the one who was so insistent on being independent and live her spinster dream, which was not her dream but it was safe, and Lauren liked safe. She liked being in control. I honestly had a love-hate relationship with her. I wanted to go inside the story and slap some sense into her.
Now for the hero of the book, we have Kit Butler. He is an ex-military officer with an estranged relationship with his family. The second son of an earl, he had always been meant for a military career and he was okay with that. But then his father's heir died and he was now Viscount Ravensberg, heir to an earldom. In London, he had made an image for himself and it is not a particularly good reputation. He is scandalous and always gives the ton something to talk about in their drawing rooms. He was a very immature man at the start but as the story progressed, the readers got to know him more. He blames himself for his younger brother's condition. And he was deeply devastated over his now ruined relationship with his family. What seems to be a foolish man has his truths hidden. And I loved him. I was not sure at the start but I loved him as I've read on.
Kit had a stupid wager with his friends and as someone who likes a good challenge, he was set on the task to woo Lauren Edgeworth. If she allowed herself to be wooed, it would not be so bad. He thinks that she would make a perfect viscountess, and soon countess. But Lauren has other plans. She wants to live in Bath and spend her days alone for the rest of her life. She is also not someone easily tricked by gentlemen's words, especially by Kit Butler's words who she deemed not gentlemanly at all. As kit got to know her, though not well enough, he decided to tell her the truth but also because Lauren suspects he has ulterior motives. And so with the information that he was betrothed to someone he did not like anymore after being made a fool of three years ago, he was eager to marry someone else, but that someone has to be a proper lady and fit as a countess so his family won't have any complaints. And Lauren is the perfect bride.
Lauren was jilted at the altar by the man she'd always thought she was going to marry. Left bitter by the experience, she was ashamed to be seen by the ton. But after a year, she has to start living life again. At the first ball she attended after being jilted, she met Kit Butler, who insisted that he was introduced to her by Lady Mannering. But of course, at the time he had hidden motives so his compliments to Lauren seemed silly. After a few encounters and getting to know each other a little better, they settled on a bargain. A foolish bargain. That is when events started to get interesting.
When they arrived at Alvesley, the readers got to meet Kit Butler's family and the things that unfolded were delicious. We get a clear insight into Kit's estrangement with his family and I must admit that I shed many tears while reading the reason behind Kit and Sydnam's now distant relationship. And I shed even more tears when they made up. It seems I have a soft spot when it comes to familial relationships, I get so emotional. While they were at Alvesley, I appreciated Lauren more. I started to like her character. I loved how she helped mend Kit's relationship with his family and in doing so, he started to let go of the heavy burden that he had been carrying for years.
All was well. Kit helped Lauren loosen up a little bit, teaching her how to swim and daring her to try things she never would have done in her lifetime were it not for the adventurous summer she craved. They started to know each other more, peeled layers of each other's character and grew quite fond of each other. Though Kit's love is slightly more believable. I do think that Lauren loves Kit but I was displeased with her because she still decided to keep the bargain and end her pretend engagement with Kit even when he proposed real marriage to her. And her reason? Because they made a bargain and it would be dishonorable not to keep their words. There were some changes and character development for Lauren but I hated how at the end it seemed that there would be no happy ending because she was so insistent on her wrong idea of independence and because she was so scared of being hurt again. You can be independent and still love someone. I am glad she realized that in the end.
By the end of the book, I do adore the heroine, but she was so infuriating. A man who was fond of her whom she was equally fond of proposed marriage and she was still so set on leaving because they are very different from each other. While he had a devil-may-care personality, she was prim and proper. She thinks marriage to him would be unreasonable which I must admit made me quite sad. She tells the hero this in one scene, "Kit, I do not want to be having this conversation. I cannot ever love you, that is all. And you certainly could never love me. Without love, what we have been doing is wrong. Even perhaps a little sordid, though it did not feel that way."
The hero is the main pursuer of the relationship. Until the end of the book, the heroine was constantly pushing him away even when it was obvious they loved each other. I guess the hero loved her enough for the both of them to keep on fighting for their relationship. I find that when it comes to Balogh's books, the heroes are more likeable than the heroines. When I read a book, I equally love both the hero and heroine but I think that's not the case for Mary Balogh's books.
When I read a romance book, I want the main characters to be devoted to each other. I like a pure and romantic love. I want it believable. When there were only two chapters left, I was not even sure if the heroine loved the hero because she has never stated it directly. I do think excessive "I love you's" are cringy but I need it at least once to confirm that they love each other. Though she does say she loved him but only when he confessed so.
Oh and how I loved the beach scene. I was in tears. It was so emotional. I loved how Kit was so ready to let Lauren go but he just had to let her know that he loved her. “I want to marry you,” he said. “I want it more than I have ever wanted anything else in my life. For many reasons. But only one of them really matters to me. It is the one I did not tell you of because it seemed somehow dishonorable after you had carried out your side of the bargain so sweetly and so well. I love you. That is it, you see, the part I omitted. Just that. I love you. I do not believe it can really hurt you to know. It lays no obligation on you. I just needed to say it. I’ll leave now if you wish.” oh there were tears in my eyes... because I was not sure that Lauren would reciprocate and neither was Kit but he just had to let her know... How romantic! I would cry if someone told me they loved me, not in a possessive way, but rather a love that nurtures someone. That's exactly Kit's love for Lauren. It was tender and sweet. He was not possessive, he knew that Lauren is independent and does not need him but that does not mean he could not offer his love to her. He nurtures Lauren and sees her for who she is behind her facade. It was a love that allowed them to let go of past hurts and grow with each other and I just think it's romantic. They saved each other in the process of falling in love. And while they are two very different people, they bring out the best in each other. They are good for each other. It is believable that their love for each other would be the kind of love that's going to stay for a very, very long time.
This is so long I think it's quite obvious that I had a love-hate relationship with the book! But the love outweighed the elements of the book that annoyed me. Overall, I love Mary Balogh's writing and I would probably read more of her works but only when I am feeling particularly patient as she has a way of making her characters extremely unlikeable that it's a pain to read through their annoying phase. But the reward of the character development is delicious and worth it. I was not expecting much for this book but it was surprisingly enjoyable though it had dull parts.
"Because I love you. Because I cannot bear the thought of life lived without you."
“I am free, you see,” she said, “to love or to withhold love. Love and dependence need no longer be the same thing to me. I am free to love. That is why I love you, and it is the way I love you."
“Oh, my dear,” she said, and for the first time it seemed to him that her voice faltered and emotion crept in. “Good-bye. Have a good life. I will always remember you with—with deep affection.”