2023 - ‘70’s Immersion Reading Challenge
The Worm Forgives the Plough by John Stewart Collis (1973 1st Edition), linen hardcover, 294 pages.
NOTE: The Worm Forgives the Plough, published in 1973, is actually two works put together and originally published in the 1940’s: 1) While Following the Plough (1946) and 2) Down to Earth (1947).
I began reading this book on September 11th, just four days before my husband, Ben, passed in an auto accident on September 15th, and finished it three months later. It is unfair for me to give any star ratings for this book as my brain just hasn’t been able to focus or concentrate on much of anything. I eventually forced my way to begin reading again. At first, only a few sentences at a time was all I could muster, then I’d set the book down. I normally would appreciate this type of genre, and I truly did connect with a lot of the author’s insights, so I’m not sure if I really felt it slow or if I just had too much on my mind. This book deserves a re-read later in time when I have my life back together.
The first book is a memoir of what it was like being a field laborer, farming at the height of the war (WWII) back in the 1940’s, in Britain, with a lot of life's philosophy and observations intermingled into his stories. The field of agriculture was in the beginnings of transitioning from man laborers to farm machines. Collis served his time fighting, but for his second go-round, he opted out and chose to be enrolled in the “Land Army”, mostly women in Britain who took over farming jobs while the men left and fought during WWII. But, there evidently were a lot of men too. Collis worked mostly with other men and loved it. He was a naturalist at heart and every little job issued to him was a learning experience, never a drudgery.
He loved to work hard and challenge himself. When asked of his preference between a tractor or the plough, he said “there was nothing more satisfying than the physical strenuous work of horse plowing. Your feet are on the earth and your hand is on the plough; you are holding the life of mankind and walking through the fields of time.” (p. 203) A man after my own heart!
The second book consists of his observations on a variety of specific things: worms, ants, dunghills, clouds, stones, seeds, the wheel and plough, and his experience and thoughts on trees and the woods. He once thinned a 14-acre wooded area of brush and trees with just an axe and a few other hand tools, which the owner had always referred to as “Collis’ land” because of all the work he had done on it.
Also, I know exactly what he’s talking about when he says: “The sun emerges from the silver margin, the glowing ball comes out and blazes upon us. At this moment I give myself to this experience. I close my eyes, and it is as if a warm velvet glove were laid across my face, an invisible, blanket wrapped around me. We call it heat, but what is that? Am I taken in the arms of God? Everything is transformed, this is holy ground, even I am holy, my heart is purged of sin, I forgive everything, I love all things, I am lifted up; and, in understanding, I passed beyond all theory, all system, resting, utterly content in this blessing, and this sign…” (p. 309-310)
I’m reminded of one particular day at McFaddin Beach in summer of 1985. I was 21 and about 8-1/2 months pregnant with my first child. I was going through a rough, rough time, and in the middle of a divorce, living back with my parents. We had gone to the beach for the day, and as I lay there soaking up the sun, in my bikini, no less, and sunglasses, just watching the clouds drift by, I did feel that exact comfort and warmth envelop me. For that one moment in time, through all the chaos, all my troubles disappeared and I did feel completely loved and in God’s hands.
I’m connected with Collis again when he mentions a quiet like he’s never felt or heard before as he enters into a wood full of pine trees.
P. 322-23: “ For a more deadly silence go to a Pinewood… There was not a speck of green on this ground. I felt awe in the silence. No bird sang, nor wing flapped, nor rabbit scuttled, nor stick cracked. I was enclosed and submerged in a silence like a substance.”
Collis’ description of complete silence compared to my long description the day I truly saw an angel in the sky orchestrating hundreds of seagulls in Maine while I was outside making a flower bed:
“It was a beautiful day. I was working hard, hands in the dirt, when suddenly the world around me became eerily still and quiet. It sure got my attention. I stopped working, looked up and around. I had never heard such a quiet in all my life. Not a single bird, no breeze, no road noise, absolutely NOTHING. It was as if someone had suddenly encapsulated me in a bubble or something.” Then I began to hear the seagulls and looked up to see the angel cloud directing them.
I love Collis’ description of what it feels like to be in the woods, or in my case, on a beautiful hike, anything in nature, or even just getting my hands and feet in the dirt gardening, which is so true and see it is something I will have to get back into to survive this period in my life (p. 358): “… having turned off from your road and entered the wood, you have really gone through a gate which now is closed behind you, and your ordinary world is shut out with all its noise and sorrow and care.”
Lastly, I am pondering the irony in this title that seems to be an underlying message for my life now: “The Worm Forgives the Plough”. The plough does disrupt and destroy the worm's home and underground food web. The worm has to start over and rebuild and familiarize itself to what it once knew…and it does. I see now I have to forgive Ben for leaving me so soon. Just like the worm, he disrupted my life, turned it over, upside down, and every which way. And just like the worm, I’m going to have to rebuild my life. Not just live day-to-day getting by, but actually rebuild it. After 36 years of togetherness, what now? This next year will be like opening a book to read without reading the back cover. I have no idea what's instore for me from this day on.
John Stewart Collis (6 Feb 1900, Dublin, Ireland - 2 Mar 1984 (aged 84))