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I’ll start with what I liked.
Vanderah's talent shines through in the way she describes the details of nature and emotions. As you read, each one of her characters is vivid in your mind - their appearances, mannerisms and depth of thought.
I also loved the alternating viewpoints of Riley and Vaughn. I listened to the audiobook and the narrators, Brittany Pressley and Zachary Johnson, did a fantastic job.
I immediately liked Riley and her family. I really enjoyed the fact that they lived on a farm in Wisconsin. It’s not the setting I’d expect. I’ve spent a lot of time in Wisconsin, so it was relatable.
This book had my attention and excitement for the first half and then it took a sharp turn.
This brings us to the things I didn’t like.
I’ll go ahead and explain this without spoilers first, the best I can.
I understand that this is fiction, but I’m pretty sure the author meant it to be believable and to ultimately make sense. It fell really short of that for me. The plot went askew and got wonky. My reaction was just like, “Ewww is this really where we’re going with this?”
Riley’s reactions were not what I would consider normal or healthy. I felt like the real issues were glossed over and sugar coated. There was definitely delusion happening and the ending/resolutions were rushed, yet at that point, I was ready for it to be over anyways.
But hey, I did finish it because it had kept me interested up to that point and I just wanted to see how it would end.
Let me explain with spoilers.
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Riley’s initial reaction to Vaughn’s secret was normal and that should have been the end of them (at least romantically, if not entirely). But this is where it got really unhealthy and weird to me.
What Vaughn did was extremely wrong and creepy. It’s inexcusable in my mind. It’s ridiculous and delusional that Riley somehow convinces herself otherwise. I’m not saying that she shouldn’t forgive him, but forgiving him and then deciding to be with him romantically are two very different things.
Riley convinces herself that Vaughn was just a young victim like herself. Yet, that’s a really naïve and ignorant view. While both of their situations shared similarities and caused them each great pain, they are not the same. But Riley just groups it all together and justifies it all away.
What Vaughn did was more intentional than what Riley did. Even if you excuse the fact that Vaughn published the first book with good intentions, it still doesn’t take away from the fact that he pretended to run out of gas and showed up at Riley’s doorstep purposely, knowing exactly who she was. And that is some creeper toxic violating behavior.
Trauma does not excuse someone from responsibility for their actions and I feel like Riley gave Vaughn a pass, saying that he has already suffered enough. Riley chooses to forgive Vaughn pretty much immediately and sees the whole situation with rose colored glasses, claiming that Aunt Julia is the one that brought them together. And they all just live happily ever after.
It felt like it was all so glossed over and the resolutions were reached way too fast. I don’t buy the fact that all that trauma, especially everything that happened with Vaughn, would just be okay as quickly as it was.
Although I do believe that there are instances where two broken people can come together and help each other heal and make positive changes, this is not a good example of that. It just wasn’t done in the right way, in my opinion.
I ended this book thinking that these two characters need to each do some serious soul searching, therapy and healing, fiction or not. It really missed the mark for me.