Grace Livingston Hill's "The Search" is a World War 1, religious romance but the search is not what I thought, a missing soldier but the search for God. John Cameron has started to think about God more and wanting to find him in life, especially since he may die fighting for his country. I seek out reading Pansy and Grace's books, for their novels bring God closer to me. The wholesome religious element gives me food for thought. John has been given a Bible and told to read daily, I find this practice a way to keep God in my life everyday, busy as I maybe, I find this practice gives me strength.
This was published in 1919, the war was not far away, Grace does a good job with the way she portrayed war life, it was not easy. I have heard of the terrible overseas voyages and the suffering of the soldiers, Grace brings this and other hard conditions. It was interesting hearing that The Salvation Army and the YMCA had an active part. Once again I read an older book and the mentioning of college not enhancing faith but actually belittling one with faith and religion in general. Today's shunning of faith in life and schools is quite abundant, sometimes it is easy to blame modern generations with diminishing morality which today it seems super charged but in actually this started more then 100 years ago and it was also evident in the nineteenth century. Looking at art is another way to see how religion has become less important in society. Giotto, Raphael, Masaccio and other master artists having God in the majority of their works, where are the great artists of today, and what do they paint? I just hope and pray that God becomes more important in society as a whole.
Story in short-Ruth is a rich young girl doing her wartime duty but not until she sees a childhood friend going off to train for war, does the war really come to her.
Once again Grace Livingston Hill tells a wonderfully romantic read.
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Wainwright is an unbearable pompous jerk. I loved that Ruth was able to shed her social distinction and not let that interfere with her helping and caring for others. John's ability to put pride aside and help Wainwright despite his claim on Ruth and his cruelty.
"She’s just nuts about you. What do you say? Shall I call her up?” “Well, hardly to-night, Bob,” said the first lieutenant thoughtfully, “she’s a ripping fine girl and all that, of course, but the fact is, Bob, I’ve decided to marry Ruth Macdonald and I haven’t much time left before I go over. I think I’ll have to get things fixed up between us to-night, you see. Perhaps—later——. But no. I guess that wouldn’t do."
“You’ve decided to marry Ruth Macdonald!” he ejaculated, staring. “But has Ruth Macdonald decided to marry you?” “I hardly think there’ll be any trouble on that score when I get ready to propose,” smiled the first lieutenant complacently, as he
lolled back in his seat. “You seem surprised,” he added. “Well, rather!” said the other officer dryly, still staring. “What’s there so surprising about that?” The first lieutenant was enjoying the sensation he was creating. He knew that the second lieutenant had always been “sweet” on Ruth Macdonald. “Well, you know, Harry, you’re pretty rotten!” said the second lieutenant uneasily, a flush beginning to rise in his face. “I didn’t think you’d have the nerve. She’s a mighty fine girl, you know. She’s—unusual!” “Exactly. Didn’t you suppose I would want a fine girl when I marry?” “I don’t believe you’re really going to do it!” burst forth the second lieutenant. “In fact, I don’t believe I’ll let you do it if you try!”
“But your college records, Harry, how could they get around those? Or didn’t they look you up?” “Oh, mother fixed that all up. She sent the college a good fat check to establish a new scholarship or something.”
“Oh, having some fun with his girl! At least I suppose she must have been his girl the way he carried on about it. He said he didn’t know her, but of course that was all bluff. Then, too, I called his father a name he didn’t like and he lit into me again. Good night! I thought that was the end of little Harry! I was sick for a week after he got through with me. He certainly is some brute."
“Well, but wait till you see where I’ve got him! He’s in the draft. He goes next week. And they’re sending all those men to our camp! He’ll be a private, of course, and he’ll have to salute me! Won’t that gall him?” “He won’t do it! I know him, and he won’t do it!”
“Now what in thunder is that Captain La Rue going on to Bryne Haven for? I thought, of course, he got off at Spring Heights. That’s where his mother lives. I’ll bet he is going up to see Ruth Macdonald! You know they’re related."
“All right, come on, only you must promise there won’t be any scrapes that will get me into the papers and blow back to Bryne Haven. You know there’s a lot of Bryne Haven people go to Atlantic City this time of year and I’m not going to have any stories started. I’m going to marry Ruth Macdonald!”
It is wartime and two officers, Bob Wetherill and Harry Wainwright are talking about some girls but Harry says he is going to marry Ruth Macdonald, Bob does not think his friend is right for Ruth. Harry seems to take marriage lightly. Captain La Rue is Ruth's cousin. The officers see on the train John Cameron who defended a girl's honor and beat up Harry.
"She had read about their going and heard people mention it the last week, but it had not entered much into her thoughts. She had not realized that it would be a ceremony of public interest like this. She had no friends whom it would touch. The young men of her circle had all taken warning in plenty of time and found themselves a commission somewhere, two of them having settled up matters but a few days before. She had thought of these draft men, when she had thought of them at all, only when she saw mention of them in the newspapers, and then as a lot of workingmen or farmers’ boys who were reluctant to leave their homes and had to be forced into patriotism in this way. It had not occurred to her that there were many honorable young men who would take this way of putting themselves at the disposal of their country in her time of need, without attempting to feather a nice little nest for themselves."
"As she looked closer the girl saw they were not mature men as at first glance they had seemed, but most of them mere boys. There was the boy that mowed the Macdonald lawn, and the yellow-haired grocery boy. There was the gas man and the nice young plumber who fixed the leak in the water pipes the other day, and the clerk from the post office, and the cashier from the bank! What made them look so old at first sight? Why, it was as if sorrow and responsibility had suddenly been put upon them like a garment that morning for a uniform, and they walked in the shadow of the great sadness that had come upon the world. She understood that perhaps even up to the very day before, they had most of them been merry, careless boys; but now they were men, made so in a night by the horrible sin that had brought about this thing called War."
"She liked them all, her friends, and shrank from having them in danger; although it was splendid to have them doing something real at last. In truth until this moment the danger had seemed so remote; the casualty list of which people spoke with bated breath so much a thing of vast unknown numbers, that it had scarcely come within her realization as yet. But now she suddenly read the truth in the suffering eyes of these people who were met to say good-bye, perhaps a last good-bye, to those who were dearer than life to them. How would she, Ruth Macdonald, feel, if one of those boys were her brother or lover? It was inconceivably dreadful."
"Ruth’s eyes went reluctantly back to the marching line again. Somehow it struck her that they would not have seemed so forlorn if they had worn new trig uniforms, instead of rusty varied civilian clothes. They seemed like an ill-prepared sacrifice passing in review. Then suddenly her gaze was riveted upon a single figure, the last man in the procession, marching alone, with uplifted head and a look of self-abnegation on his strong young face. All at once something sharp seemed to slash through her soul and hold her with a long quiver of pain and she sat looking straight ahead staring with a kind of wild frenzy at John Cameron walking alone at the end of the line."
"She could feel the thrill of her little childish heart now as she realized that he had given the rose to her. The next term she was sent to a private school and saw no more of him save an occasional glimpse in passing him on the street, but she never had forgotten him; and now and then she had heard little scraps of news about him. He was
working his way through college. He was on the football team and the baseball team. She knew vaguely that his father had died and their money was gone, but beyond that she had no knowledge of him."
"And she was sitting in her luxurious car with a bundle of wool at her feet, and presuming to bear her part by mere knitting! Poor little useless woman that she was! A thing to send a man forth from everything he counted dear or wanted to do, into suffering and hardship—and death—perhaps! She shuddered as she watched his face with its strong uplifted look, and its unutterable sorrow. She had not thought he could look like that!"
"The train had slipped along ten feet or more and was gaining speed when John Cameron’s eyes met those of Ruth Macdonald, and her vivid speaking face flashed its message to his soul. A pleased wonder sprang into his eyes, a question as his glance lingered, held by the tumult in her face, and the unmistakable personality of her glance. Then his face lit up with its old smile, graver, oh, much! and more deferential than it used to be, with a certain courtliness in it that spoke of maturity of spirit. He lifted his hat a little higher and waved it just a trifle in recognition of her greeting, wondering in sudden confusion if he were really not mistaken after all and had perhaps been appropriating a farewell that belonged to someone else; then amazed and pleased at the flutter of her handkerchief in reply."
Ruth Macdonald has been helping in the war effort but not until she saw the regular boys saying goodbye to their loved ones did she really feel all that war meant but she had no loved ones going. Suddenly she sees John Cameron, a boy from her past when she was seven, he gave her a rose. Her heart went out to him and she said all that when she saw him on the train. He was surprised but quite happy, he had waved goodbye.
“You don’t need to, you’ve given your son,” said Ruth flashing a glance of glorified understanding at the woman. A beautiful smile came out on the tired sorrowful face. “Yes, I’ve given him,” she said, “but I’m hoping God will give him back again some day. Do you think that’s too much to hope. He is such a good boy!” “Of course not,” said Ruth sharply with a sudden sting of apprehension in her soul. And then she remembered that she had no very intimate acquaintance with God."
“I shall come,” said Ruth brightly. “I’ve enjoyed you ever so much.” Then she started her car and whirled away into the sunshine. “She won’t come, of course,” said the woman to herself as she stood looking mournfully after the car, reluctant to go into the empty house. “I wish she would! Isn’t she just like a flower! How wonderful it would be if things had been different, and there hadn’t been any war, and my boy could have had her for a friend! Oh!”
“Well, good-bye, Ruth dear. Don’t hesitate to let me know if you’d like to have either of the other two large ones for your own ‘specials,’ you know. I shan’t mind changing the order a bit. Harry said you were to have as many as you wanted. I’ll hold the proofs for a day or two and let you think it over.” Ruth lifted her eyes to see the gaze of every woman in the room upon her, and for a moment she felt as if she almost hated poor fat doting Mamma Wainwright. Then the humorous side of the moment came to help her and her face blossomed into a smile as she jauntily replied: “Oh, no, please don’t bother, Mrs. Wainwright. I’m not going to paper the wall with them. I have other friends, you know. I think your choice was the best of them all.”
"But somehow everything was changed within the heart of Ruth Macdonald and she looked about on all the familiar places with new eyes. What right had she to be living here in all this luxury while over there men were dying every day that she might live?"
Ruth sees the older woman seeing John Cameron off and offers the mother a ride. Mrs. Cameron talks about her son and was happy that Ruth knew John when they were kids. Ruth is 19 now. Ruth tells her that she will visit her, Mrs. Cameron likes Ruth but thinks she will not see her again. Ruth goes to the Club House and helps with war knitting of socks. Dottie is Bob's sister and she tells Ruth about her brother. Mrs. Wainwright takes for granted that Ruth and her son will marry, she shows Ruth the pictures of Harry in his uniform.
"This life on earth was not all of existence. There must be something bigger beyond. It wasn’t sane and sensible to think that any God would allow such waste of humanity as to let some suffer all the way through with nothing beyond to compensate. There was a meaning to the suffering. There must be. It must be a preparation for something beyond, infinitely better and more worth while. What was it and how should he learn the meaning of his own particular bit?"
"In college he had been too much engrossed with other things to listen to the arguments, or to be influenced by the general atmosphere of unbelief."
"Sometime during the course of the afternoon it occurred to him to look at the date of the letter, and he found to his dismay that it had been written nearly four weeks before and had been travelling around through various departments in search of him, because it had not the correct address. He readily guessed that she had not wanted to ask for his company and barracks; she would not have known who to ask. She did not know his mother, and who else was there? His old companions were mostly gone to France or camp somewhere. And now, since all this time had elapsed she would think he had not cared, had scorned her letter or thought it unmaidenly! He was filled with dismay and anxiety lest he had hurt her frankness by his seeming indifference. And the knitted things, the wonderful things that she had made with her fair hands! Would she have given them to some one else by this time?"
"It was not merely pride in his own superiority. It was contempt for the nature of the man, for his low contemptible plots and tricks, and cunning ways, for his entire lack of principle, and his utter selfishness and heartlessness, that made Cameron feel justified in his attitude toward Wainwright. “He is nothing but a Hun at heart,” he told himself bitterly."
"His face under its usual control showed no sign of the tumult in his heart, which flamed with a sudden despair against a fate that had placed him in such a desperate situation. If there were a just power who controlled the affairs of men, how could it let such things happen to one who had always tried to live up upright life? It seemed for that instant as if all the unfairness and injustice of his own hard life had culminated in that one moment when he would have to do or not do and bear the consequences. Then suddenly out from the barracks close at hand with brisk step and noble bearing came Captain La Rue,"
"Lieutenant Wainwright lingered on the steps of the barracks with a growing curiosity and satisfaction. The enemy were playing right into his hands: both the enemy—for he hated Captain La Rue as sin always hates the light."
“Aw! A week more won’t make any difference,” drawled another familiar voice, “I say, Hal, she’s just crazy about you and you could get no end of information out of her if you tried. All she asks is that you tell what you know about a few little things that don’t matter anyway.” “But I tell you I can’t, man. If Ruth found out about the girl the mischief would be to pay. She wouldn’t stand for another girl—not that kind of a girl, you know, and there wouldn’t be time for me to explain and smooth things over before I go across the Pond. I tell you I’ve made up my mind about this.”
John receives Ruth's letter and is on cloud 9 but it has been four weeks since she sent it. He is off to the YMCA to write her when Wainwright the superior officer looks to cause trouble, John refuses to salute him and he is not sure what will happen, Captain La Rue comes to speak to John which diffuses the situation. Wainwright hears about a transfer of John to La Rue's company which Wainwright looks to make John look like getting pull not allowed and tells his superior. John writes to Ruth and hopes she will have it soon but after hearing Wainwright in the mess hall talking about marrying Ruth, his heart sinks.